"Ashley!" I screamed with tears upon my face. I tackled her to the ground, hugging her for which felt like forever.

Ashley is my only friend; the only single being on this earth that  I have ever really opened up to in this hell hole.

She knew me like no other person did, well that's until Oscar stated what he did.

God, going to live with Nan would be so stressful; I mean I would have to leave Ashley and go to Wales (which is far away from where we live now) and leave this place.

I will defiantly miss her the most but hey, we definitely will be meeting up in Wales. I can't wait!

We let go of one another and with that she put her hand up to my face and brushed away the tears, which were still rolling down my cheeks, "You did it. you made the first big step to opening up again! Well, just for a moment but in that moment you looked like you; fearless warrior you, sociable Sarah." Ashley said comforting me.

I looked at her dead in the eye, "but was it worth it. Bianca, she now hates me, news will go around and now look at me, cowering in my dorm corner." I said with a bit of frustration still in my voice.

"Well, you did it and now that you have turned a new leaf we will party!"

My eyes instantly widened, "WHAT?!"

Now thinking about it, it did really sound like a shout. I mean I was taking baby steps. Hear that again, baby steps?!

I then started to panic as I said what I said out loud. What if I attract some unwanted attention?

Fear.

I sighed and moved closer to Ashley, "what?" I asked more quietly.

"You heard me." She said before turning away to walk back to her dorm.

I stood there and sighed as she walked back to her dorm to finish packing.

I then turned around and walked back into my dorm, shutting my door behind me with ease.

once again looking at the surrounding area around me, an empty room, memories plastered on these walls of my family and Ashley, it made me happy, remembering my past.

I stood for a while now wondering about life but thinking positive.

Have I just turned over a new leaf? Was I me again? What will happen next?