I grabbed my sheets and pulled them up, making sure they covered up half my face. I saw Newt getting up and confused on how there were dried tears on his face. I held back to persuasion of hugging him right at that moment and just kept on pretending to be asleep.

Footsteps echoed as I peeked through the small space of my flailing hair. Newt was currently gulping down amounts of water from his bottle. Once again, he looked so innocent. How could a guy like that, be sent here? By me, being the stupid person.

After a couple of minutes, Newt went outside and I quietly sat up straight. Rubbing my eyes, I remembered the time I had with Minho earlier at dawn. It was amazingly exciting, getting to see the Map Room up close and analyze what he and the runners have been working on. Those brilliant maps.

Nike, stop them. Burn the maps. Burn them into ashes. You cannot let any one of them survive.

I winced in pain. What was that? An unknown voice just informed me. I expected it to be WICKED but their words were strange. Like once they said it, it was hard to get your mind straight.

Burn the maps.

I could never burn those maps. Minho and the others have worked years on it trying to get out of this cursed maze. I was on their side now, not WICKED's. I would kill myself if I betrayed them.

I owed them my life.

I shook the wretched thought of having to burn the maps, made Newt's bed back to normal, and folded up the blankets. Then, I went outside and saw the Gladers doing their usual job. I saw Alby and Newt, managing the supplies the Box had carried. Minho was obviously nowhere to be seen. Chuck was lifting rocks so the Builders could use them for cabins or huts.

This sight of the Glade almost made me break down and cry. They could've spent their lives outside in the world. The real world. Not this artificial maze I created. They could have had a normal extraordinary life. With normal friends and having a enjoyable time at a nice school.

I'm so sorry..

It feels like everything I have done is so wrong and a pain. Why can't time just rewind?

Up or on the side is me. i don't know why but i feel like i want people to see me.