Your pov (i changed this a lot! Casca never ran away and she has the ability to speak, Isidro is with them and Serpico and Farnese aren't in here and I'm debating on Puck still.)

Guts, Issy and me where almost to our destination. the house with the people that took him in. of course it was still snowy as normal which is probably why guts has high pain tolerance. i most likely would too if i was stuck in -14 degree weather for about 5 months. we arrived at a house that looked somewhat like a shed. Guts knocked and a little girl who looked about only the age of 4 opened the door.  she smiled wide. "guts your back!" she yelled. Rickert came out as well and shook hands with guts smiling. Erica hugged Guts leg. her attempt was funny considering how tall guts was compared to Erica. i stifled a laugh. " oh, hi there." Rickert said. he waved but then i saw a flash in his eye suddenly as he looked at me. he slid over to Guts elbowing his ribs looking at him with a smirk. " you finally bring a girlfriend here huh? bout time." he said. i was pretty sure my face went more red then an apple at this point. Rickert saw my face and bust out laughing. " she's kinda just a sidekick. shes an excellent fighter." he said. i felt a small pang in my chest when he said i was just a sidekick. i gave a smile. " i think Godo would like to meet you! follow me!" Rickert said. i sighed and followed him into the house. i climbed up a steep ladder. " Godo! i have a good friend of Guts! and she has a sword!" he said. he was really excited. i climbed up the ladder fully and saw the Godo was an old man. he looked like he was slowly dying from the way he was laying and looked. " a girl? let me see her." he said. Rickert moved to the side and i stepped forward. " your a very pretty young lady. how did you meet guts?" he asked. " i may or may not have helped him three times when he was in the woods almost starving himself to death." i said nervously scratching the back of my head awkwardly. " may i see your sword?" he asked. i unsheathed it and put it in front of him. " its dulled. and the end isn't sharp anymore. when was the last time you got this thing checked?" he asked. " about 5 months ago." i answered. " what! your supposed to get it checked every month. Rickert! can you take care of her sword? sharpen it please." he said. i put it back in its sheath and handed it to Rickert. " please be careful." i whispered. he nodded and went down the ladder. " whats that?" he asked. i looked at him confused. " the mark on your shoulder." he said. i keeled down. i showed him the mark. " hm, I've seen this. your not completely human are you?" he asked. i looked at him in shock. " how did you..." i started but he interrupted. " the mark of the succubus." ( not true ) "succubus?" i asked. " half human, half Demon." he said. known to take form in a beautiful females body and then eventually kills men. i can see why guts let you join his little group. how strong are you?" he asked. " I'd say about average." i shrugged. " times that by 10. thats your full power when your in demon form. be careful. it might overtake you." he said. we talked about other things trying to avoid the topic. we ended out conversation and i walked back down the ladder. " hey, send up Guts would ya" he asked. " will do." i said. i got down the ladder. i saw Guts talking to Casca. " guts, Godo wants to see you now." i said. he nodded and waved Casca goodbye. i had never met Casca. Guts described her in a lot of detail though so i knew it was Casca right away. "have i met you?" she asked. i shook my head. i put my arm out to shake. " Y/N." i said. i gave a small smile. i had a feeling me and Casca would not be good friends. she shook my hand. i could tell she didn't like me. " you and guts were in the band of the hawk right?" i asked as i let go of her hand. something flashed in her eye. she quickly pulled out her sword. i don't know what i did. i jumped and flipped above her and landed behind her just as she struck. " if were fighting lets do it outside." i said. she glared. we walked outside and we got into stance. i had to use a spare sword and it was almost nothing like my normal sword. " i think I'm about average." i shrugged. " times that by 10. thats your full power when your in demon form." he said. i must be almost ready considering how quick i reacted and how i reacted. i saw Erica and Rickert follow us. " its been so long since I've witnessed a fight. this might be interesting." Rickert said. i had a feeling guts was coming to stop us and Godo was watching analyzing me. Casca charged first with her sword aimed right at me. i dodged with ease spinning and then i put the sword out and hit her in the back. she turned around attempting to hit me but then i did a black flip and dodged it. what was this weird energy. i felt so strong suddenly. but it felt so wrong. i was to concentrated on my thought but i did a quick reaction once i noticed Casca near my face i ducked and she stumbled forward. she didn't fall but she was ways away. i got an idea. i sprint at her at full speed. she did the same. when she got close enough i slid down on my knees and put my sword out cutting her ankle slightly making her fall. i got up quickly. i was out of breath. " what the hell guys!?" Guts yelled. i put my hand out to help Casca up. she grabbed it and got up. " thanks for the awesome fight. you did great!" i smiled. "how did you do that?" Rickert asked. i looked at him confused. " out of all my time of watching sword fights i have never seen one like that. how did you do it?" he asked. " i don't even know. i kinda just did it." i said. i heard an evil laugh in my head causing me to wince. " are you alright?" Casca asked. i let go of Casca as i suddenly felt dizzy. " i guess i used up to much of my energy" i smiled. i started stumbling. i fell over but i felt arms grab me before i hit the ground. Guts was holding me and he had a worried expression on his face. everything was going blurry and before i knew it, i blacked out.

~time skip~

i woke up miserable. i felt a cold wet towel on my forehead. i still felt dizzy and there was a blanket wrapped around me. i coughed a little bit and leaned up but a headache hit me quick. i groaned. " whoa hey calm down you need to rest." Issy said pushing me back down and covering me back up with a blanket. " guts, where is he?" i asked. " he went out hunting for food." he said. i groaned again. " what happened and how long have i been out?" i asked. " you've been out for only about 5 hours and you kinda just blacked out. you have a bad fever. Guts assumed the cold had gotten to you." he said. " doesn't explain the major headache." i said laughing slightly then yelping in pain. "movement sucks. i guess using my energy wasn't a smart idea in the cold." i smiled. Issy nodded. " i have to go. Casca is supposed to be coming next." he said. he got up and ran upstairs. it went silent. all i could hear was the sound of a small waterfall and my own breathing. i heard footsteps after a while and Casca finally joined me. " hey." i said. " how're you doing?" she asked. " death. pure death." i joked. Casca laughed. " uh i feel like I'm hungover." i groaned. Casca laughed more. " you know, you are really nice, but your personality changes completely once your fighting. your skillful and your capable of literally anything. normaly you try and make everyone smile. yes i know that after only knowing you for an hour but what i want to know is how you trained to get that strong." she said. " over practicing. i over practice till i feel like I'm dying. guess this is my body's payback." i joked again. she laughed slightly. i heard more footsteps coming down. they were heavy so i assumed them to be Guts. " hey." Guts said. " i got it from here Casca. thank you." he said. she nodded, got up and left. Guts sat down. " you feeling better?" he asked. i groaned. " i feel like death but otherwise I'm great." i smiled. " you gave me quite a scare. don't do that again." he said. i felt a happy pang in my chest. " aw was little old Guts worried about me?" i said in a baby voice. i burst into laughter. Guts sighed. " your still you, even with a fever." he said. " ugg i just want this Hangover pain to be done!" i yelled. "hangover pain? you never had any alcohol." he said. " shh nobody has to know." i whispered with my finger to my mouth. we both burst into laughter.

~another time skip~

it was dark out and everyone was asleep. i had just had the wet cloth on my face renewed and it has been about 30 minutes before everyone fell asleep. i quietly got up. i ignored the cold and got my armor on. i picked up my newly sharpened sword. it felt nice having a familiar thing in my hands to fight with. i walked up the stairs quietly and i got outside. it was still cold which sucked. i got into fighting stance and practiced fighting. even though it was only air it felt like a real battle. i imagined it. a guy fighting me. he swung at me almost hitting my shoulder i ducked and kicked his shin before spinning on the ground and cutting his leg like i did Casca's leg. he was still standing so i hit his back with the handle knocking him over. he went down. " why is this so easy?" i said. " you shouldn't be out here with that fever." i heard Godo say. i turned around shocked to see him moving. " i needed to train, i don't like people pitying me." i said. " i saw you battling earlier. The succubus is taking over you quicker then i would have imagined. the one inside of you is stronger then you can handle. it might take you longer to heal with it inside you." he said. " how can i get rid of it?" i asked. " there is no way to get rid of it, but there is a way to weaken it. you need to find a witch. there rare these days but i have a feeling you will find one soon enough." he said. he smiled and turned around. i continued training until almost sunrise. i was sweating and i felt weak. i was sore and i felt like i was dying. i almost fell to my knees but i refused to let that happen. i heard footsteps behind me. i turned around quickly pointing at their neck. it was guts and i quickly lowered my sword. " your feeling better already?" he asked. i shook my head. " but i hate sitting in that bed and doing nothing." i said. he looked me over and i blushed slightly. " how long have you been out here?" he asked. " all night." i said. i saw the slightest bit of sun creep through the horizon. " you need your rest if your going to heal." he said. i scoffed. " and when have you ever followed that rule?" i asked crossing my arms. he glared at me. i started falling over a little bit. i caught myself but Guts swooped me up anyways. " put me down!" i yelled. i started squirming. " stop squirming, your going to fall." he said. i put my sword back in its sheath and pouted.  "at least let me walk." i said. " not going to happen." he said. i groaned again. he set me down on the bed and covered me with a blanket. i fell asleep really quick

~ another time skip!~

i wok up and it was dark. i didn't have a cloth on my face anymore but i didn't feel weak and hungover like before. i refused to lean up. i closed my eyes and tried to fall back asleep. it didn't work very well. i sighed and opened my eyes. i stood up and grabbed my armor and put it back on. i grabbed my sword and ran out. i was definitely feeling better if i could run. i got outside. it was dark. " i must've slept for a whole day." i said. i pulled my sword out and held it. i looked into the woods nearby. this house was protected from demons but not the woods. i smiled and started in a run toward them. i got inside and i immediately felt like something was watching me. i made sure my sword was in front of me. i heard whispering and turned around and swung my sword. it was nothing. i kept swinging it. there was nothing. i stopped swinging and continued going.

~ 30 minutes later~

i was completely lost. i tried to turn back but i don't think i turned completely or i went diagonal while walking. i stayed calm and continued walking, well, speed-walking. my heart was racing but i refused to make it look like it was. the sun was rising and i knew i had been walking for a most an hour. there was no way i could find my own food, guts hasn't taught me about how to do that yet. i guess i have to teach myself. i started just listening. any sound. birds, twigs cracking, but it was just silent. it drove me almost insane. i had a little hope for the bad idea that came to mind suddenly. i was aware of how bad of an idea it was but i hopped that whatever came my way i could face it. i had a succubus inside me, it shouldn't be hard. i just screamed hitting my sword on trees. making as much noise as possible. i screamed for Guts, Casca, Issy, Rickert, Erica. i just kept making noise. i stopped after about 10 minutes because my throat was hurting. i gave up on all hope. nobody was coming for me. i put my sword back in its sheath and i continued walking waiting for something to kill me. tears fell down my face. " why? why did i have to be so stupid!? why couldn't i have just stayed and waited!?" i screamed as tears fell down my face. i took my sword out and hit a tree at full strength. i heard a loud crack behind me. the tree had been completely cut through and fell down. i was terrified. i didn't care that i was showing the fact that i was scared. i kept walking hopping i would find my way back. i put my sword in the dirt making a trail so that way i knew where i had gone. i saw an opening in the trees. i walked through them. it wasn't the shed. but at least it would be easier to find the house. i just had to walk around the woods. i picked up my sword and continued walking. i reached another corner. i kept walking. i walked for what seemed like hours. but it was worth it once i saw the house. i walked up to it. there was nobody there except Godo. " they all went searching for you where have you been!?" he asked. i pointed at the woods. " i may or may not have gotten lost and knocked down a tree." i said laughing nervously. " Guts was worried sick! i thought that kid was going to have a heart attack." he said. he sighed. " your a trouble maker." he said. i laughed. " I'm a rebel. Always have." i smiled. "Y/N!" i heard someone yell. i turned around. Issy was running at full speed. he jumped at me and i almost fell over. " what the hell is wrong with you!? Guts is practically dying trying to find you!" he yelled. i sighed. " take me to him." i said. we both started running in a full on sprint. we started slowing suddenly. " guts, i found her." he said. it was quiet. " guts?" he asked. he moved a bush and i quickly saw guts on the floor bleeding from his stomach. i rushed over. i grabbed his hand which was filled with blood. he was still conscious but he wouldn't be awake long at this rate. " Y-Y/N?" he asked. i put pressure on his stomach. " Issy! i need you get some medical supplies now!" i yelled. i have never seen Issy run so fast in my life. "I'm right here." i said. Guts put his hand to my face. he smiled a weak smile. i felt tears just fall down my face. " guts keep your eyes open." i said. the bleeding wasn't stopping. i fell limp. " Guts?" i asked. his eyes closed. i started panicking. i let go of his hand and put both my hands on his stomach. " Guts your aren't leaving me! keep breathing!" i yelled. Issy and Rickert came running over. i was covered with Guts's blood. Rickert started quickly checking for pulse and started helping his wound. i put both my hands on Guts face. " stay with me guts." i said. i felt tears fall down my face. " i need help getting him back." Rickert said. i grabbed one arm and Rickert grabbed the other. we both started walking. Guts became slowly conscious but again not enough. " Y/N, need to find." he whispered. " Guts I'm right here." i said. we got out of the forest finally and we got him down the stairs and onto a bed. Rickert got his stomach wrapped up. " Y/N, lets go, lets let him rest." Rickert said. " I'll stay here in case something happens." i said. they left and i just sat there starring at him. i grabbed his hand and held it. i listened to his breathing and nothing else.

~1 day later~

i sat there holding his hand. i was so tired but i refused to go to sleep. Guts started moving. i looked up at him tears falling down my face. he turned his head looking at me. i probably looked horrible. puffy eyes with tears falling down my face with blood stains from guts everywhere. he put his free hand on my face. " don't cry please." he whispered. i couldn't help it. i hugged him as tight as i could and just cried. i felt an arm wrap around me. i was squeezing his hand that i was holding so hard i was pretty sure my knuckles were white. " I'm, sorry for, leaving again." i sobbed. i heard something i thought i would never hear in my life. he let out a sob. his head was in my shoulder and he squeezed my hand back with more force. " please, don't do that, you, scared me." he cried. "i can't loose, the only, person, i care about." he sobbed. wait, the only person he cared about? i realized he had fallen asleep but the only problem was that i was stuck in his hug. i had to figure out how to maneuver myself so it wouldn't be awkward. i swung one leg over him then the only and end up rolling over. " ouch." i whispered. he was still holding my hand and his arm was still around me. i snuggled into him and he seemed to hold me closer. i fell asleep with him soon after.