Brynn's PoV

I pulled my hand away quickly.

"See you around Brynn. Oh, and when you get home I suggest you have a look around. You may find a few things of interest" he said before disappearing into the dark. I sighed.

Suddenly I felt someone out their hand in my shoulder. As I reflex I grabbed the persons arm and threw them over me. Yet that land d in their feet. I saw it was the girl from the table me armin and Eren were sitting at. She was their friend I think.

"Sorry" I said simply. She nodded

"It's fine. Your reflexes are rather remarkable." She said.

"Thank you. I do apologise but I never got your name" I said.

"Mikasa Ackerman" she said extending her hand. I froze for a moment.

Your an Ackerman alright...

I shook the weird feeling off. Probably a coincidence.

"Brynn hunter" I replied shaking her hand.

"We should go back to the cabin. If the commander finds us out here we'll be sent to the field before we even get to odm training " mikasa said. I nodded fallowing her. There were girls everywhere. Since the scouts mainly consisted of men this was a little odd to me.

There was a spare bunk bed on the other side of the room. Me and mikasa went over to it and just lied down. Ignoring the world around me I took out my sketch book and began to draw.

I always hated this picture.. Yet loved it at the same time.. I tortures me. Maybe if I wasn't drawing and if I'd just gone home I wouldn't have that scar on my leg.. I wouldn't have to watch people die.. I wouldn't be here..

"That's a very good drawing Brynn. Who is it ?" Mikasa asked me.

"Hmm? Oh it's my uncle. He doesn't move that much when he's in his office so I've pretty much mastered sketching him" I said.

She took the book from me and flicked through it.

"He never smiles does he ?" Mikasa asked me. I clicked my tongue and took the book back.

It was probably past midnight and everyone was going to sleep now.. It wouldn't do me any harm.. To join.. Them..

I lay down and curled up in the bed. As soon as my head touched the pillow I drifted off into sleep...

Dream

I was running... It was dark.. I'm scared.. I shoved past a crowd of unfamiliar faces.

Freak!

Disgusting!

Useless! Monster!

You don't belong up here !

We should just throw you into the underground with the rest of the filth, just like your stupid fucking mother !

No wonder your father never came back! Even if he was alive I'd never want to see that horrible face or yours again !

I fell to my knees and cried, covering my ears and keeping my eyes shut as I sobbed.

It's all fault their dead !

"Stop it..." I begged.

You should have just died in shinganshina and done us all a favour !

My tears got worse. I want Levi! Where's Levi?!.

I should just kill your right now ! And not a damn person would miss you !

"That's enough !" I heard a voice yell. What?..

I glanced up..

Kenny?..

"We don't want the brat to break yet now do we ?" He asked. All the men shook their heads. He picked me up.

"Come on. Let's get you somewhere safe and warm" he said.

I was silent. I rested my had on his shoulder.

I heard someone shouting my name. Yet Kenny seemed to ignore it.

"Brynn!.." They yelled. It got louder and closer. It soon became a panicked scream.

"BRYNN!" They screamed. Levi?.. That was Levi's voice..

Suddenly I saw him appear from around the corner.

"Le-" I was about to scream till I felt a sharp pain in the back of my neck and my world faded into black...

End of dream

I snapped up gasping for air. I looked to my left slightly hoping I'd see Levi as I usually did when I woke up.. But he wasn't there...

I sat up and sighed. Hugging my legs.

"Ní féidir liom é seo a thuilleadh ... Ba mhaith liom dul ar ais sa bhaile ..." I muttered.

(Translated: I can't do this anymore... I want to go home..)

"Brynn ? You ok?" Mikasa asked me as she climbed down from the top bunk.

"Im fine.." I muttered.

Mikasa sat down beside me. Her face not changing for one second.

"You had a nightmare didn't you?" She asked.

"Huh?.. How did you-"

"You were muttering the name Levi and crying heavily in your sleep" I told me. I wiped my cheeks to see tears on my hand.

"I was.. Wasn't I ?... You don't need to worry about it, I'm fine.. It would just a nightmare, nothing too important" I said.

She glared at me slightly.

"Well we're not supposed to wake up for a while and it's obvious you aren't going to sleep. I'll stay up with you" Mikasa told me in a tone that meant no answer was needed.

"Thanks.. Why are you being so nice to me ?.. We literally just met" I asked.

"I've seen the look you have in your eyes in only a few people. Just from it I can tell you've been broken and survived. You've seen death more then you should have and you put others lives above your own. Yet I can also see your flaws. Your blocking something out. Trying to figure out something important yet forgetting what clues you were already given" she said.

"And you can tell all that crap from my eyes ?" I asked.

"Not just your eyes Brynn but your drawing. For instance " she began as she picked up my sketch book from the ground, showing me the picture I drew earlier.

"Ignoring your uncle, tell me why you drew this animal into your book ?" She asked.

"Well it's a wolf. They lived in shinganshina mostly as pets. We had one but he ran off and I never saw him again.. I was always slightly jealous that he could run where ever he wanted to and nothing would stop him.. Same with this one, I remember thinking how jealous I was of this robin for being able to fly where ever it chose, no need for fear" I said showing her the Robin sketch I had done a few years ago.

"See ? You put your heart into your drawings and you don't even realise. When I looked through this at first I remember seeing at the start everything seemed happy. Then it dipped but got better, and finally it dipped immensely. I'm guessing this is when shinganshina happened. Everyone for a couple hundred pages have a slight tint of fear, madness and confusion to them. And after that, none of them are happy, none of them jump out, all of them seems to be based on your longing for freedom and to join the scouts. What does that tell you Brynn ?" She asked me.

"Nothing really..." I said. She sighed.

"I understand." She told me.

I smiles at her. I had a knawing feeling at the back of my throat as if I wanted to shout something or tell her a dark secret yet I couldn't think of words...

Hey guys! Hope you enjoy the chapter ! I would like to dedicate this too Julia_MCD who has shown a lot of love and support for this story and I would just love to thank her for that ^^

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