So you see the stars up above

I walked down the hall. No one was around. It's just me. I go to my locker quickly. I undo the lock grab my wallet put it in my back pocket put my binder book and iPad in my locker before closing it and heading to the bathroom close to the band room. I took the blade out and made sure no one would see. I took the blade and dragged it across my skin. It stung momentarily. I did it a couple more times on my left. Each time I dragged it across my skin I started to bleed. I stopped. Switched hands and did it on my right arm. Now both my arms were bleeding.

But you don't see the hell I go through
Darkness consumes me and I let it

I grabbed my wallet and put the blade back in. I put my wallet back in my pocket and walked out of the bathroom and to the doors going outside. For a middle school you would think that we wouldn't have recess but we do.

I can't hold on much longer
I'm falling and falling yet I haven't hit the floor

As I walk out I'm instantly being hugged.

"Sadie, leave me alone." I say. She let's go and I walk to the hill ignoring my friends calling for me to come back. I walk past White Rabbit and his friends. I used to like White Rabbit . The wallball they were playing with is hit and would've hit me in the face if it wasn't for the fact that I put up my hand. I continued to walk.

I'm letting the bad things get to me

The demons keep getting​ worse everyday. I realized that long ago. I walk to the top of the hill and sit. I close my eyes thinking everyone would leave me alone. Someone clears their throat. I look up only to see the last person I want to see.

"Hey Bellflower. Are you okay?" White Rabbit asked.

"I'm fine. Now leave me alone." I replied.
Truth was I'm not fine. I'm far from it.
"You don't seem fine."
"Well I am fine so leave me alone."

He started to walk down the hill.

I'm losing my mind
I'm losing my life
It won't go back and it won't be the same

I closed my eyes again. Suddenly I feel someone grab my left wrist and pull up the sleeve. My right hand instantly goes to stop them but it's too late. I opened my eyes and yet again see White Rabbit.

"Why?"

"A lot of reasons that I will not share with you."

I'm trying to hold on
But holding on isn't doing much for me
I'm dying
Slowly
Painfully
Yet there's nothing you could do to stop it

"Bellflower, please. Tell me."

"It's none of your business."

"Please. I want to help."

"You can't White Rabbit. Nothing can help me now."

I've fallen to deep and I'm drowning now
Try to help me
Try to pull me out of this deep dark abyss
Yet you fail each time

All of a sudden White Rabbit hugs me and holds me so I'm sitting in his lap with my head on his shoulder.

" I'm sorry I rejected you but I was scared you would cheat on me because you would get bored of me." White Rabbit said this so quietly I almost didn't hear him.

"I'm not like that and you know that. Just leave me alone and talk to me tomorrow if you really care."

With that I got up and walked down the hill after pulling down my sleeve. Then I got in line to go inside...

What Bellflower didn't notice though was that both of them had tears cascading from their eyes like waterfalls...

And neither of them knew the events that were going to happen in the years to come.