I jolted awake because I couldn't feel him near me.

After our night I knew something was off.

So I got up and looked for answers.

Most of his stuff was there.

I tried to track his phone but he had deactivated everything.

I ran around naked...

After showering I put on my clothes and sat alone trying to figure out where could he be.

After a mini-breakdown...I watched Money Heist I needed a distraction.

I heard the door open and it was him...

'He joined me on our couch watching Netflix...

After the last episode, I needed answers.

"Didn't you see my messages, babe"

"I did baby I just had work and my battery died sorry okay"

"Jamie is it, Lexi?"

"Lexi?" he looked at me with sadness in his eyes.

"You seem off and your clothes aren't there"

"Yes because Jax had them taken to the laundromat "

"Sorry I just can't help but feel like I'm about to lose you"

"You will never lose me Oak" I knew he can't make a promise like that plus the way he said it was like he was trying to convince himself more than me.

So I changed the topic...

"Any graduation plans? I was thinking we could go to that Restaurant you love what do you think"

"Perfect idea baby"

He was cold...

"Babe is everything okay?"

He nodded kissed me on the cheek and went to bed...

I went to the kitchen and made his favorite meal.

When he ate he was quiet why is he acting so indifferent?

"Baby I don't love Vance I love you please don't ever think you're not enough for me"

"I know baby," he said smiling...

After eating I cleaned and put our stuff away...

He went to shower and tried to open his phone and I couldn't unlock it so I searched his stuff and found a rehab brochure fuck...

Is that for me? Is he planning on taking me forcefully?

Jess and Jax must have done this...

I went to check the time it was 17:00 so I left a note that I'll be back and left to Jess's house.

Took an Uber ...I nearly jumped off when the driver stopped.

When I got there I was fuming...

I ran to her house ....luckily her parents were not home.

"Hey.... hey what the hell Oak"

"Did you give Jamie this" I threw the brochure at her and watched it fall on the floor.

She picked it up...

"What is this?" She asked

"Look you spoke about this and Jamie is acting weird it's you.... ...it's you Jess you want to take him from me"

"Oak you're making a scene" her sisters were near us and now I was calm...

We went to her bedroom and I was angry pacing back and forth...

"Oak calm down "

"I found it in his jacket I'm scared Jess" I broke down and she held me...

"He needs help Oak for you"

"I know and I'm sorry I shouted I'm just not ready to let him go"

"Let me go make you my famous tea"

"Oh my God Jess you and tea"

She walked off and I sat down she got a message from Jax asking...

Is Oak with you baby?

I put her phone down and didn't answer she came back and responded.

I was confused was Jamie taking me there?

"Here" Jess gave me a card

"Keila Jacobson?"

"She's my therapist please try her please Oak"

"Fine"

I took the card and put it in the back pocket of my jeans...

After a while, I was walking back home told her I needed time alone.

The truth is I wanted to run away but I couldn't leave Jamie...

I got to our place and found him cooking...

"Ready for tomorrow?"

"Yes, baby " then kissed me...

"I went to see Jess "

"How is she?

"She's okay in love"

"Okay come let's eat"

We had a feast every veggie and meat ...

I enjoyed them and washed the plates I took my time I wasn't in the mood to have sex so I washed them slowly hoping I'd find him sleeping.

He was awake when I was done ...

He tried to touch me but I wasn't into it I wanted answers but was not ready for them.

So he turned and faced the other way...

"Baby, "I said.

"Sweet dreams Oak"

"Sweet dreams Jamie"

I don't know when I fell asleep...

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I was the first to wake up excited for Jamie I showered and wore my dress put on some makeup and made him breakfast.

I waited and he came down ready too

After the awkward breakfast, we left...

The ride on his bike felt like the last one I can't help but shake this painful feeling, I can't lose Jamie he's my everything.