After a few days, Jess was acting weird I know she was hiding something I definitely won't like.

"Jess"

"Yes" avoiding eye contact...

"What's wrong are you pregnant"

"What no not yet my dad would cut Jaxon's balls off for sure"

"So he knows "

"We told them, and I begged them not to hurt him they agreed only if I worked hard in school blah blah blah"

" That's great right "

"Yeah it is I guess"

"Jess what's really happening"

"Don't freak out okay "

"I'll try"

"Vance is back in town and wants to see you"

Silence........

"What"

"He came to my house to ask me to talk to you"

Just as I was about to answer...I received a text from my mom.

"My mom says my brother is getting married and we are invited yay....."

Haven't seen them since I ran from home Nolan is happy I guess he has always wanted to get rid of me.

"Vance is dead to me tell him I am not a medium I don't communicate with the dead"

She nodded...

"Get ready we have been invited to a wedding"

"You're not mad at me," Jess asked...

"No just annoyed at Vance'

I forgot about him and thought of the wedding maybe my mom wants to fix things.

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It was a Saturday and we were getting ready to go get a few clothes for the wedding my mom gave me her card because I was supposed to look decent.

After spending time in the mall we finally got the clothes we wanted for the wedding, it was the following day and I wasn't looking forward to it.

Wedding day.......,. 👰

"Omg you look so good, baby"

Then kissed his lips...

"Babe what will they say"

"Who"

"Your parents......wait. .....you took those fucken pills didn't you"

"Yes Jamie I did I need to face them so yes I took my anxiety pills I don't have a supplier I get a prescription"

He got quiet and I felt bad.

"Jamie I'm sorry I didn't mean it like that"

"It's fine to let's just get this over and done with" 

We kissed and left .....before we got on the bike I hid and took another pill what he doesn't know won't hurt him.!!

We got to the venue and it was packed our table was far from everyone like we were the OutKast why were we even invited?

The pill I took helped in numbing the pain I felt, they made me feel small only nana knew me and understood me they never cared.

Every day they show me they don't care.

I greeted a few people then we sat down I had champagne lots of it I was drunk and the wedding went on all I heard was you may now kiss the bride.

"Oak can you stop with the booze," Jess said

"No, I want more need more now "

"Oak, You're going to cause a scene to stop it "

"Why don't you go to Greece with Jax so I enjoy my champagne in peace"

"I'll let this slide because your family is acting worse than you right now"

I rolled my eyes and she left with Jax...

flashback

Bye baby is good my mom said leaving me behind.

I got hungry then went to boil water to make tea so I can have it with my breakfast.

But I missed a step carrying the hot pot filled with boiled water and it got all over my tummy.

I was screaming lying on the floor...

"Help" I couldn't scream

Just like an angel my nana came from nowhere ...

"Oh my God Oakie what happened"

"Mommy and dad left I was hungry"

"My poor baby let's go pack your bags okay you're visiting nana"

I nodded...

End of flashback

Everything changed from that day the hate grew and it was just me and my nana.

I didn't know how or understood why my parents resented me? My nana taught me what love is she helped me heal and promised to always be there but now she's not and I have to face them alone.

We never took pics together I don't know why I have all these memories but if they can't be seen in pictures is it still valuable? I can't revisit the moments I can only replay and play the scenes in my mind.

I'm sure there's a genius out there who can turn thoughts into pictures right? nothing is impossible, right?

I replayed all our fun times till my brain had nothing left is it possible to think bout something so much you end up erasing it?

I'm happy I had her I don't know what would have happened if she didn't love me.

Jamie taught me love too, I've been /stealing his stash taking a few for myself, it numbs the pain and hurt and for a while, you belong to a world that gives you peace I only hate how temporary this feeling is.

Now I'm here high and drunk...I hate my family the pain they made me feel has turned to hatred and I'm afraid of myself,  I see myself turning into something I can't quite describe.

It was time for the reception, people made their speeches and my family was laughing having fun.

I stood up and snatched the microphone from his friend.

"To my amazing half yes half brother you and your wife deserve the world I pray for your father in law here gives it to you and when you do have kids kindly raise them in another state my dad is like a virus and it would be catastrophic for your kids to be brought up under him, anyway give our lovely couple a round of applause ".

Then I went to sit down...

I don't know what happened but I took my heel off and played with Jamie's member underneath the table, he gave me that look.

The pills made me want to do things that would get me in trouble.

"Oh baby you don't want to start that"

"Oh but I do," I said biting my lower lip...

He pulled my chair closer and slowly trailed his fingers under my dress exploring what was hidden by that white dress, what he wasn't expecting was I wasn't wearing any underwear...

"Fuck ...... baby no underwear" he gave me a look that told me he wanted me just as much as I wanted him.

Then he played with his thumb slowly rubbing my wet pussy....then went to the most dangerous part and rubbed it ....the more I wanted the more he played with my feelings ....rubbing it and stopping giving me half kisses, biting my lower lip...

He didn't prepare me...

One finger then two than three...He had fun and took his time showing me why his fingers were magic fingers ...

He got rougher and went in deeper, I tried to suppress the moan but it came out louder than I had anticipated as my body received a million feelings giving me the quivers...

"Fuck" is all I could say when everyone turned and looked at us with disgust...

"The show is over guys enjoy the rest of the wedding," I said with the biggest smile waving them off.

My family gave me the worst dirty look.....

I held Jamie's hand and walked off, I could hear my mom's heels click behind us.

We both turned around and she came close to me...

"You are officially not my daughter anymore, but a Whore I am done with you Oak what you did in there was unforgivable"

"I am my mother's daughter I guess, where is Tim's mom would he be proud of you now? I mean you opened your legs to another man and got me......
............some people are lucky they can hide their secrets but you were not that lucky huh mommy?"

She came near me and slapped me causing me to laugh....you know that, the loud sad laugh that later turns to tears? Yes, that laugh...

She was so mad she left me laughing when I was sure she's gone I cried and Jamie held me but I wasn't done yet I needed to feel him inside me.

2 things made me feel alive in moments like these Jamie's dick or drugs.

I pulled him behind the fountain and unzipped his pants ....he always said the feeling my lips gave his dick was amazing so I attacked his dick...

He couldn't say no, not when I wanted it so badly ....just when he was about to cum I sat him down and slowly inserted his dick on my wet pussy, I sat on top of him facing him.

I roughly kissed him praying I don't bite his lips...

I rode him slowly kissing his neck, biting his earlobes a bit just teasing him till he held my waist in position and made me ride him faster ...I was grinding on him...

The orgasms leaving my body made me scream and moan his name we both reached our limit.....

I took out napkins and cleaned us, held his hand and we walked away.

Jax and Jess had left ready so we went on our bike to our apartment nothing needed to be said our bodies already did that for us.

When we got to our place we showered and I sat in the tv room, I thought of my family the high from sex and pills had worn off now the evil monster called pain gave me a visit so I cried the tears I'd suppressed for so long.

I realized after a while I had fallen asleep I called for Jamie but he wasn't home.

I looked around till I found a note...

"GONE FOR A WHILE ILL BE BACK MADE YOU SOMETHING TO EAT LOVE YOU"

He probably went fighting I took out my phone and tracked his phone then got ready and left.

It was packed ... I looked around like a lost puppy.

There he was...

I watched him fight and win then saw his dad I quickly hid my face remembering the moment he wanted to rape me...

He went to talk to some guys then left I ran to Jamie and he was surprised to see me there.

"Baby what are you doing here it's not safe"

"I just missed you that apartment felt like a castle without you "

He kissed me...

"Let me go shower and we will go okay"

I sat there and could tell he was in pain, he never gets help for his cracked ribs and sore body he just pretends it never happened.

After he was done he drove us to our place and we got in bed and fell asleep...