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Finally, we all got to school, Jax and Jess were behind us and I couldn't keep my eyes of Jamie.

"You always look, good baby," I said that to break the ice.

"Don't I get my kiss then"

I laughed as he pulled me close I was wearing a short white dress he didn't care because he squeezed my ass with his large hands.

"Fuck Oak what did I say about not wearing underwear"

"It's not there...hmmm...I must have forgotten it" he gave me his naughtiest smile and we quickly excused ourselves to the car.

I love Jaxon's car because the windows were tinted and it helped that he parked far from school.

We got there fast and he kissed me like it was the last time, he wasn't prepared for the pool in between my legs as he dived inside me.

The thrusts were fast and rough I was on top of him, he went faster and I did too it felt good almost normal...

I knew deep inside this might be our last time so I wanted it to last longer... I rolled my eyes back as the first orgasm hit sending a million feelings only he can give me.

When we both came he kissed me like the first time...

After our session we quickly got ready and went back inside, he went to finish writing his speech he might be an addict but he's a straight-A student haters will say he bribes his teachers.

He looked so serious he made me blush thinking about what just happened in Jaxon's car ...

After a while, Jess and Jax came next to me we were all ready we fixed his gown and hood.

I felt nervous something about this day made me nervous he never spoke about college I was always afraid to ask.

We got to the lovely decorated Hall and took the second row from the front ,
I needed nice pictures and a video of his speech he looked nervous.

We were all sitting down and I looked around all families present proud of their kids while we have each other am I selfish for being sad?

I wish his dad was here...

Mr. Mckenna came and made a boring speech...I love how he thinks he's funny always making a joke and laughing alone or when they laugh at him, not his joke.

Then Duran came...

He coughed on the mic and the hall erupted in laughter...

"Today marks our last day in high school it took me too long to miss -(they laughed)
I met amazing people here made good friends and met the love of my life I would like to thank my teacher for putting up with me and Maxine for tutoring me I love you man" the crowd laughed the students knew he was being sarcastic he tortured the poor boy.

"Finally I'd like to say make better decisions now so you don't have to suffer later" then he walked off stage...

Everyone clapped for him I mean who wouldn't like him?

It went on and on after they were finally done they tossed their caps in the air...A chapter ended indeed and I made a silent prayer wishing it wasn't us.

They had fun I can picture myself doing this next year if I don't fall apart and drop out of high school...

After that, we went to La'croux ad we sat down eating and having wine.

I didn't need any drugs today I felt happy we were laughing around the table Jax's mother and sister joined and seeing Jamie with Lina warmed my heart, would we ever be that Lucky one day if he doesn't leave me.

Jax asked him to use his car to go drop his family off...

He kissed my forehead and hugged me the hug lasted longer...

I fought the reality but deep down I knew he was saying goodbye...

"I love you Oakleigh so much"

"I love you too baby, now go drop them off so I show you what I got for you from Victorias Secrets"

He laughed and left...

The table seemed dead just me Jess and Jax... We finished our dessert and Jax paid for our meals.

He was still not back an hour later...

Jess and Jax suggested we use an Uber so we got one.

We left with it, I couldn't talk so the drive was painful, it dropped me off at our place and I said goodbye to the couple and left.

When I got in there the panic attacks started I felt that gut-wrenching feeling so I ran to his side of the closet and there was nothing...

Fuck!

I found a note and a drawing.

Oak my heartbeat ❤️❤️

I know I'm no Picasso but I love it I love you I'm doing this for us it was hard but if I stay I'll destroy you and you are too much of a good thing, I never believed in love but you are it for me.

So I'll go to rehab for 3 months and get the help I need to be the man you need I love you my sunshine, my everything I've never had a reason to live till I met you so I won't stop fighting for us I love you so much ......your only love Massimo

I cried and laughed cause he reminded me of Massimo, he does listen to me.