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I got up first and checked the time it was 7 am.

Looking at naked Oak broke my heart I know I've added to her problems.

I know she deserves better and I also know Vance isn't good enough for her too.

Who gets paid to lie to someone he knows he doesn't love, he doesn't love her but still wants to lie to her?

I got up from the bed making sure she doesn't wake up and showered, put clothes on, and took my phone.

This was one of the hardest things I've ever had to do.

I was summoned into a meeting by Jax and Jess, sadly I knew what they were going to say Jax he always been like my big bro.

After getting ready I left and met them at the Diner.

Found them sucking faces...

I cleared my throat.....

"Sorry," they both said.

"We are worried about Oak...Jamie"

"Can I at least order coffee first?" I said.

"Yeah"Jess said....

I ordered coffee and when it came steamy I blew it just to cool it down a bit and took a sip...careful so it doesn't burn my lips I don't want the heat to erase the taste of Oak on them...

I thought of our night we've never made love like that her moans and her grabbing me I'm sure I have marks on my back from her nails.

After finishing my coffee I looked at both of them...

"I know I'm bad for her"

"It's not what you know....but how can you help her"

"Jess how can I help her "

"By helping yourself first," she said handing me brochures of Rehab centers hours away.

"After you graduate Friday go to rehab please"

"Anything else? "I asked both of them...

"No let's just help her she's addicted to drugs too sneaks them in and buys them from sketchy people she's going to end up dead or badly hurt Duran"

"I heard you, Jess"

I kept quiet I needed to think...

But I knew I had this coming she has been acting weird...

I pray nothing bad happens to her...I swear I would never forgive myself.

After the meeting I needed to fight but didn't instead I looked around for rehab centers I found 3 all at least 4 hours away.

I cried and felt like smashing things my dad's head would do.

I knew they were right and that was more painful.

I looked at my phone...

Her messages she wanted answers I didn't have.

I cleared my notifications and just looked at my lock screen.

She looks so beautiful how will I survive without her?

It's Sunday and I'll be done with high School Friday at least I have time to think things through.

I love Oak she invoked feelings in me I never knew existed, but yet I destroyed her sure she was fragile but I made her worse.

I drove around thinking...I know I need to go back to her but I can't face her...

I love her I swear I do but I can't deny how wrong I am for her, I'm toxic and now I don't know how to fix it.

I went to some diner and Lexi walked in great just what I need...

"Yo Duran"

"Not now Lex"

She joined me...

"We used to get each other what happened is it that boring bitch Oak"

"Call her a bitch one more time I swear I'll break my own rules for you"

A real man never puts his dirty hands-on a woman.

"You know what fuck you Duran"

She stood up and left....thanks for going!

I sat there and no one bothered me I didn't want food, I wanted Oak a normal life with her is that too much to ask for ?

After a while an old lady greeted me and I greeted her back...she sat next to me waiting for her husband...

She looked beautiful her grey hair in a nice bun , her blue eyes ,she reminded me of Oakleigh's nana, her husband walked off to go pay for their food, he was a Chinese man they had on matching black and white tracksuits.

"He's ordering us burgers and fries I don't refuse because we are 80 now we should enjoy it right?"

I nodded smiling...

"You're not much of a talker huh"

I nodded again I wasn't being rude she just showed me what I wanted with Oak and would possibly never have.

"Do you have kids?" I asked...

She gave me a sad smile...

"I couldn't have kids and we stopped trying there was a time I thought he would look for a woman who would bear him children"

"Im sorry to hear that"

"Dont be we adopted 5 children whom we love dearly, he never made me feel like I'm not a woman he gave me the best 50 years of my life"

"Did you ever try to leave"

She laughed...

"He found me all the time and told me he won't stop..... so I stopped running"

The husband walked to us and smiled helping his wife up...

"Nice talking to you hot stuff" her husband laughed and I joined him and saw them walk away, before exiting the door she turned back winked, and left.

I was left smiling I think it's the first time since thinking about leaving Oak I genuinely smiled.

There's a reason why everything happens right? there must be a reason why I met the old couple but I'm too stressed to figure that out.

I got on my bike and went to our place and found her watching tv she was so engrossed in what she was watching I laughed she was too adorable.

"Hello baby"

"Hi babe come join me"

I joined her and kissed her and she slept on my lap while watching Money Heist.

I gave her blue jelly beans I got from the gas station when I was coming home.

I was trying to figure out why she's obsessed with the show after a few minutes I laughed at myself because I enjoyed it too...

The only fact I know is I love Oakleigh so much it hurts...