Why am I so upset over this? He asked her on a date, it's not like I haven't seen her go on dates before.

I feel a tear slip down my cheek, I swipe it away quickly, my mouth turning into a frown. What is wrong with me?

It's a date. It's not like they're getting married or anything. And it's not like I...

I'm in love with her.

I know I've known this for a while but it's finally hitting me now, seeing her get all bubbly and blushy over someone that isn't me.

I'm in love with her.

The words my brain is processing hits me like a million bricks, my heart feels like it's sinking to the floor.

I'm in love with her and she doesn't feel the same. Why would she if she's going out with someone else? Was I stupid for thinking that she'd fall for me?

I'm in love with her, she doesn't know. If I told her would it change things?
No I can't tell her, I can't do that to her when she was so happy about Noah. Her happiness is all I care about.

And if I told her...

She'd probably walk away.

She'd leave.

"James? Do you need to use the restroom." I look up to see Mrs. Foller standing over me, a concerned look on her face and a box of tissues in her hand. The whole class is staring at me, everyone bug-eyed and opened mouths.

I touch my cheeks to feel tears streaming down my face. I nod very slowly.

"Okay." She walks away while giving me one last look of pity.

I want to throw up.

I rush to the bathroom and lean over a toilet, heaving into the porcelain bowl.

Why do I feel sick?

What's going on with me? One date shouldn't be making me feel this way. It's one date. And it's not like she's in love with him or anything.

Am I going to feel this way for the rest of my life?