Esther's POV

"Easy, Easy." I mumbled helping Terrance lay on our bed as he groaned in pain.

Yup, Terrance got discharged. The doctor had prescribed medicines for him and even during the time he was writing the prescriptions, he was sweating. I guess I shouldn't have made him too much afraid of me.

"Where are you going?" He whined when I got out of the bed.

"Oh, I'm just gonna get you some soup." I replied and he groaned.

I left and went downstairs to the kitchen and when I got there, Nina and Jamila were already there. Jamila approached me with a tray of chicken soup I had made ealier and I was grateful I hadn't drank it.

"Thanks guys." I smiled.

"What are you thanking us for? We're besties." Jam said and I chuckled and walked out of the kitchen back to our room.

When I entered, I smiled and helped him sit upright to feed him. So I filled the spoon with the soup and brought it to his mouth while he looked intently at me.

"Come on, open up." I smiled. He slowly opened his mouth and the soup went it. Silence evaded till he finished up all the soup and I felt happy.

I handed him a glass of water on the tray and he drank it, still looking at me with an unknown emotion on his face.

"Um.. I think you should sleep." I said placing the empty bowl away.

"Yeah." He sighed, gripped my wrist and pulled me to him.

"Um baby..''

"Shhh." He placed his finger on my lips and encircled his arm around my back. I placed my hand on his chest whiles he placed his chin on my head.

"Esther." He called my name in an emotionless tone.

"Yeah?" I replied when he gently stroked my skin leaving goose bumps on it.

"Is there anything you're hiding from me?" He asked and I froze. I didn't feel brave enough to tell anything to Terrance. It wasn't because I didn't trust him, it was because I feared he might think I was criminal. He would probably dump me.

"Esther?" He called again shaking me slightly.

"Um..yes?" I replied drawing circles on his chest.

"Is there anything you're hiding from me?" He repeated.

How about..yes my nakedness?

Bitch that's stupid.

"Um..no." I lied biting my bottom lip.

"Esther, are you sure?" He inquired again slightly bobbing his head down like what my dad does when he asks me whether I stole something.

No.

"Is someone after you?" He asked and my blood boiled in fear.

Yes.

"N..no." I replied and he lifted his chin from my head. He raised my head by my chin making my gaze meet his. I gulped wishing he wouldn't see through my eyes to find any lies.

"You can trust me okay?" His deep voice said lowly and he placed a sweet kiss on my lips. He held my hand on his chest and he dragged it to his cheek and I kissed him back feeling his tongue roll into my mouth and swiping through every corner.

We pulled away but he held his gaze with mine as he and licked his lips. His eyes looked so innocent and I felt bad I lied to him.

"My beautiful wife." He grinned and I gave him a half fake smile and I half real smile.

I placed my hand back onto his chest and he put his chin on my head again.

"Baby, put your hand down." I warned when he lifted his other arm. He groaned, put it down and pulled me more closer to him. I felt so guilty right now.

And I didn't want Terrance to know  about my terrible past so I decided that the best thing I could do was to leave his life, because he doesn't deserve me.

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My eyes shot open and I realised it was late in the night and Terrance was sleeping soundly with me in his arms. I was going to miss the sight of his handsome face. I felt so bad for leaving him but I had to. I loved him so much and I didn't want him to die because of me.

I raised my head and pecked his cheeks and I felt my eyes watering. The next thing I knew, I started weeping as I tried to remove his hand of my body but in the process, he shifted and a stubborn sob escaped my lips.

"Esther, where are you going?" He mumbled sleepily and my heart skipped a beat due to fear when he opened his eyes and looked down to me. I gulped when his thick brows furrowed at the sight of my cheeks streaming tears.

"Why the fuck are you crying?" He asked grazing his thumbs on my wet cheeks. My lips felt numb and refuse to part for words to come out.

Terrance grunted and sat upright. Later, He gripped my upper arms and made me sit up the same way as him as more tears flowed on my cheeks.

"Esther, please tell me, why are you crying?" He begged framing my cheeks and I started sobbing.

"Oh I understand." He chuckled lightly. He brought my face to his warm chest and wrapped his arms around me.

"You were scared something might happen to me right?" He asked and I nodded in his chest.

"Don't worry ok? I'm fine," He assured patting my head. I stopped crying and started to hiccup.

When Terrance finished consoling me, we laid back into the bed and he cuddled me up again.

I suddenly realised I had to think over my decision to leave. So I made up my mind to leave as soon as he wounds healed.

Till then I was  hoping he won't strike again.

I snuggled more into Terrance's chest and I closed my eyes and finally drifted to sleep.

***
After brushing my teeth and bathing, I took the tray and before I left the room, Terrance was sleeping soundly.

I smiled and sauntered into the kitchen to cook. After I washed the tray and bowl, I took the frying pan, mixing bowl a whisk and some eggs to fry them.

After frying the eggs, I made three slices of toast and one cup of coffee.

Later I gathered them all together and arranged them onto a tray. But in the process, two hands settled on either sides of my waist and I gasped but quickly recovered when I sensed the muscular shower gel scent.

"Morning." His deep low voice greeted and he wrapped his arms around my waist, pressing my back to his front.

"Terrance, your wound." I whined afraid I must have been hurting him.

"It doesn't matter, your touch makes me heal faster." He whispered into my ears and I shivered, brimming red in the face.

He removed his arms from my waist and made me sit on the counter and he later stood in between my legs.

"Can you feed me please?" He requested and I chuckled as I remembered the first time I fed him.

"Oh and uh,  can I have a kiss before?" He asked.

"Nope, until you eat first." I announced and he groaned as I placed the food on my lap.

"OK. Ok. Feed me." He requested.

"Don't bite me." I warned fake glaring and he laughed.

Even though he was hurt, he seemed strong and I didn't want him to know how miserable I felt.

I brought a piece of bread out and before it reached his mouth, he held my hand and directed it to his mouth.
That went on till he finnished eating.

"Well done baby." I giggled. I placed my arms on either sides of his shoulders and moved my head forward, making the space between our lips thin.

He looked at my lips, licked his and gulped whiles I but mine seductively.  My breath hitched when he gripped my waist and pulled me forward a bit, making thr space very narrow between our lips.

"Esther, kiss me." He said in a low raspy voice squeezing the sides of my waist. I jut my chin forward a bit and our lips connected, sending all sorts of sparks into me.

Even though the kiss was slow, it was accelerating my heart as I drowned my fingers into his hair earning series of groans from him and soft moans from me when he gently sucked my lip.

His hand moved from my waist to cup my cheek and when he bit my lower lips hard, I puffed and he thrust his tongue into my mouth and smirked against my lips as we continued kissing but after a while, we broke away trying to catch our breaths.

"Have you eaten?" He asked kissing my cheeks.

Oh my God!

For the first time in my life I forgot to eat. So. Not. Me.

"No." I replied and he sighed.

"This is a joke right?" He asked and I shook my head and he framed my face with his hands.

"Esther, why haven't you eaten?" He asked with concern smeared onto his face. He then frowned and passed both thumbs on the purple bags under my eyes.

'Esther, what's wrong with you nowadays? You've been acting stressed out are you sure you're ok?" He asked.

I really wanted to tell him. I wanted to tell him that my past that had come to haunt me was what I was stressed out about.

I wanted to tell him that I was a horrible person for nearly killing someone. But I couldn't, I just couldn't.

"Baby, don't worry, I'm fine." I lied with false gaiety on my face and I hugged him.

Moreover I had planned that when he recovered, I would leave this house. I love Terrance so much and I can't see him die because of my wrong so,

Terrance, please forgive me.

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I really hope you're liking the story. 😫

I'm saying this because my silent readers are too many.  But I just hope you're liking this.😳

Yeah, even I agree that Esther shouldn't leave😢 but sorry guys, she gotta go👉

I also hope you're getting your theories ready as well.