I am racked from guilt.
My mind, replaying the same events that make me shiver and my eye twitch.
I try not to have regrets, just lessons learned, but that doesn't make the guilt go away.
It doesn't make the disappointment I feel, cease.
Of course, I learn not to do it again but it doesn't erase the pain for them nor I.
I cringe every time I keep remembering the things I've done, the things I've said.
Why did I say those things?
Why did I do those things?
Why am I like this?
Surely there has to be worse people out there to make me feel better about the things I've said and done, but I shouldn't have to compare myself to worse people to make myself feel better. Right?
Would it make me worse than I am?
I am racked from guilt and the memories won't fade.