"Love is many things,
but it is never deceitful.
Nothing toxic comes from genuine love.
Remember that."
-J. Raymond

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I'm not strong enough to stay away.
Can't run from you
I just run back to you.
Like a moth I'm drawn in to your flame,
Say my name, but it's not the same.
You look in my eyes, I'm stripped of my pride.
And my soul surrenders, and you bring my heart to it's-

I frowned as the music disappeared from having filled my ears and I felt arms tighten around me from behind. I glanced up into the mirror and saw the tattooed arms around me before seeing his smile as he rested his chin on top of my head.

I had tried my best to avoid him since the 4th of July and with Hunter having been on Raw last week. I had to look at him and realize he hadn't been the only man to bring me pleasure in the last couple years and so much confliction filled me. I had wanted to tell him but decided against it and just staying away from Randy would leave nothing more for me to have to explain.

But of course as Randy had promised he wouldn't be holding back.

I saw a smirk form on his face and realized me getting lost in thought meant he had simply been watching me the entire time.

"Randy, get your hands off of me" I whispered as I glanced around at the several other superstars in the gym.

"Well set your weights down first" He simply said as we still shared eye contact in the mirror.

"What?" I snapped.

"Set your weights down and then I'll move back.." His fingers traced over my skin.

I frowned but then rolled my eyes and realized why, "whatever"

I bent over and set it down, feeling his hands on my waist.

"Maybe next time we should do it in this position, facing that mirror in front of my bed. You can.."

I immediately moved away from him.

"What do you want other than sexually harassing me in a public gym?" I questioned happy to see that all of them were lost in their training. The purpose of music that blocks out the world, except mine wasn't able to do that with him around.

"Harassing would mean you don't like it. Remember that, Nicole" He gave a knowing smirk not throwing it in my face with words but the look said it all.

"Just because I got off on your fingers doesn't mean I liked it." I whispered as I stared up at him.

His words briefly playing in my head that made me realize John and Brie were definitely right, maybe it was a game but the purpose of it was to get me.

I shook my head and went to push past him but he stopped me.

"Okay I'm done. So the soiree is beginning at 12pm sharp. But you know Alanna, she will most likely want Coco to be there to help her get ready"

Of course Alanna was always used to reel me in.

"Won't Samantha be there?" I questioned as it would be awkward, Alanna had become important to me but only because I knew while she loved spending time with her father on tour she was a little girl who wanted to do fun girly things.

That's where I came in. I hadn't bothered to ask too much, well I kind of got distracted I guess. If he wouldn't let a kiss down, me letting him basically fuck me with his fingers would lead to him gloating for quite sometime. But then again he did seem a bit concerned when questioning me on my guilt?

I had known Randy properly for about two years now and still didn't know who he exactly was with all his different moods making random appearances.

"No, I'm having my own one for her at my parents' house on Sunday remember? Since Battleground is..."

"The Sunday. I thought it was the Saturday?" My eyes widened a bit as Hunter had let me know that would be the only time before his birthday he could see me.

"Yes Garcia. I mean I tried getting Alanna for her birthday last week but well she isn't here so that should be obvious. I did tell you..."

I saw his face fade a bit and while I didn't like that he was kept from his daughter I'm sure Samantha wouldn't want to miss important time with her either. And well he couldn't really expect me to have kept up with everything he said..

"You stalk me and you expect me to go willingly to your parents' home?" I rolled my eyes knowing he would take it as a joke even though I could feel confliction fill me.

I didn't like the look of disappointment due to him having to celebrate his daughter's birthday a week later. And for some reason me being there meant a lot to him.

"Stalk you? We work together" His amused smirk was back as he folded his arms.

"You still have it?"

He frowned and I gestured my eyes to his 'Samantha' tattoo which was similar to the Alanna one except it held no colourful flower with it.

"Well I'm still deciding to be honest. Tattoos are memories and well she was my first love. Maybe if the woman I actually think could be my last would give in I might have a valid reason to remove it" He glanced away from it and focused his eyes on me again.

"I'm sorry I'm not into being used to cover up your past."

"I didn't say it was you now did I?"

I glared at him and he chuckled, "you don't want to be mine yet you get upset when I lie to you"

"I like honesty Orton."

"That right?" He narrowed his eyes at me and I shrugged.

"So tell me honest Garcia who is the man you are with? I mean you aren't on the tour bus, I'm stuck with those love sicks over there!"

I briefly glanced past him to see John spotting my sister. She didn't really like the weights much but of course John tried to persuade her it was good once you got used to it.

I sighed as with Hunter flying in and out at random times resulting in me disappearing at odd hours. I wouldn't really have explanations for it so I ended up travelling on my own.

It could get lonely and tiring when you have to drive all night and survive on caffeine but I liked to think the random knock on my door or text to meet him somewhere made it all worth it.

What can I say? I'd do anything to be with the man I love even if its for thirty minutes or a few hours...

"He is not you, that's all you should know" I shrugged with a small smile.

"Oh see! I knew you were always in love with me!" He groaned and held his heart, dramatically falling to his knees in front of me and hugging my waist.

Oh my...

"What? No. I didn't mean it like.. Randy just get up please" I pushed on his shoulders as I looked down at him, practically begging him.

"Are you sure? I could torture you with something else instead of my fingers?" He bit his lower lip before licking his tongue over it.

"You are.."

"Stop fighting that smile Bella" He chuckled, letting me go and standing up again.

I shook my head with a small smile even though it was annoying, it was amusing as well. Hence Randy Orton being the biggest confusion in my life..

"Come on. I want to show you something" He entangled his hand in mine as he moved closer to me.

"I have seen The Viper I don't need another visual" I shook my head knowing him it was just that he wanted..

I knew I should have pulled my hand away but it was just my hand. His fingers had been further..

"As much as I love that you have a name for it and have it imprinted in your brain after one drunken night. Come on.." He pleaded as he stared down at me with his blue orbs that always seemed to trap me.

I sighed and followed him to his locker room or well, allowed him to pull me down the hallway. His hand clasping mine in his and I looked everywhere but his figure knowing he would have a snarky comment about me checking him out.

He remained quiet while I was grateful for the empty hallways with most of the crew being out in the arena setting everything up.

"So what did you want to.." He cut me off as he immediately kissed me and pushed me up against the door as soon as we entered.

I guess apart of me knew The Viper inviting you to his locker room could only go one way. I didn't kiss him back as the last time I had I ended up being finger fucked in his truck soon after.

Obviously he didn't appreciate it as his hand still holding mine tightened around it.

"Its just a kiss Bella.." He whispered into my lips and then grazed his lips over mine and I let my eyes shut as his fingers left mine and gripped my face again. This time pushing his tongue past my lips...

I found myself kissing him back even though I was sure its not what I wanted and of course Randy went further, releasing my face. He then slipped his hands into the back of my tights and squeezed my behind hard and I held back a moan due to his rough grip. He pulled my body against his, lifting me slightly as he pushed his lower body against me. My fingers pulled on his neck, wanting him closer, while my mind was flustered.

I felt his arousal and hated the moan that escaped as I did, he moved and I guess with me sitting on his lap he had sat down on the bench.

"How good are you Nicole?" He whispered into my lips while I was still calming down from the kiss.

"I brought you to the edge with my fingers, can you do the same for me by moving that sweet behind back and forth Bella? " I glared but kissed him again as I grinded myself against him. Even though I did he gripped my behind and moved me as well.

I wasn't sure what I was doing, he knew how I was and used that against me but I couldn't stop myself. I could feel him slowly pushing up against me and I knew I couldn't stop my body from responding.

Did I want to?

I heard the door open, "fuck" I breath, mentally thanking Randy for at least having the decency not to rip my clothes off.

All he did was laugh and hug me closer to him as his hands left my behind. While I wanted to move, I didn't want to face who was definitely behind us.

"You shouldn't go barging into someone's locker room like that" He narrowed his eyes but not in the way he usually did at Brie.

He seemed serious...

"I guess not.."

I frowned as it definitely wasn't my sister. I heard the door close and quickly tried moving off his lap and he reluctantly let me go.

"Come on, Nicole.." He nagged as he remained seated behind me.

"Randy please.." I glanced back and he didn't look happy about it but I needed to find Seth.

"Whatever." He shook his head and stood up and walked to the other side of the room with his back turned to me. I was a bit confused by his reaction but immediately left.

"Colby! Colby!" He turned a corner and I jumped as he stood waiting as I turned it seconds later.

"Are you fucking crazy you gave me a.."

He clutched my hand and pulled me along to The Authority's office which would soon be occupied by Stephanie and locked the door.

"Me? Are you fucking crazy, if anyone else walked into that room what would you do?"

"I..." Why was everyone so pissed today? I ran my hand through my hair as he cut me off.

"Hunter wouldn't fucking hesitate in firing anyone. Can we remember Dave?" He snapped.

"Dave?" I questioned not sure where he was going, he hadn't even been this upset when he found Hunter and I together.

"Yeah your travel buddy Batista"

"Seriously Colby? You weren't even part of The Authority then!"

"Yeah well since I have become the personal spy, Hunter tends to share a lot" He scoffed and shook his head seeming annoyed.

I rolled my eyes as Dave and I were just friends and yes, close to the end of their feud with The Shield he ditched me without an explanation but Colby was overreacting.

"Wait, spy?"

He glanced at me before letting a sigh escape his mouth.

"Well yeah. Brie should be lucky she isn't fucking used. " He ran his hands through his two toned hair before sitting in one of the several chairs in the room.

I frowned and leaned against the desk where Stephanie would be seated at tonight.

"You think you have the control but you don't Nicole, he is married yet he doesn't want you with anyone else?" He chuckled a bit, but I knew it was not a happy one and I sat down next to him.

"Why is he even concerned when I love him?" I questioned, picking at the hair on Seth's legs due to his shorts and he glared in the corner of my eye and I giggled.

He was seriously too hairy but he liked it which got him the nickname Monkey from Brie and I if he decided to get too annoying.

While I confessed my undying love for Hunter every chance I got over the long period of the affair. Hunter had shared less but yet still showed me he was far from losing interest. I understood it as sometimes he was simply too stressed to put effort into anything. That's where I came in to make sure his needs were met and show him how much I loved him..

"Then why are you kissing Orton?"

I glanced away, not sure what to make of me constantly allowing Randy to kiss me and more so now returning his kisses without much fight.

He sighed as concern filled his face when I didn't need him to be, "Look, I won't tell him but just think about why he wants to know if you're involved with anyone, but him. He wants to claim you but you can't him? That doesn't seem right to me."

While I had my dramatic moments, there was no denying that Seth too had a way of taking things way out of hand.

"Colby, thank you, but you have ways of exaggerating at times and this is it. Hunter doesn't care who I am with as long as I am ready for him when he needs me. And Randy was, I don't know.. but Randy doesn't matter because I love Hunter so he shouldn't be worried"

I sighed and pulled him into a hug.

"You can come by the hotel tonight and have some beers with Brie and I, her husband has some duties." I squeezed his cheek before kissing it while he groaned and rolled his eyes.

"Sure thing. And Nicole?"

I turned to face him as he remained seated, "just don't forget what I said."

"No control, got it Lopez!" I laughed as I left the office.

"Where were you?" Brie questioned as I returned to the gym.

"With Colby" I shrugged moving onto the treadmill beside her before she gave me the judgey look even though Hunter would be nowhere in sight tonight.

"Not with Randy, who you left with after cuddling up to him?"

So clearly my sister caught my encounter with The Viper.

"Bri.."

"You are leading him on Nicole and either its going to end in someone getting hurt or a whole lot of trouble if the boss finds out. Because we know how he hates relationships at work" She rolled her eyes and I sighed not sure why the only two people who knew were being extra weird.

"Let's not do this again! We were just talking about Alanna, its her party this weekend. The only ship Orton and I are on is the friend one Brianna!" I narrowed my eyes at her deciding to leave out a few details.

While my sister had a habit of being right, sometimes, I was not in the mood for an 'I told you so' speech. It was her fault I even associated with Randy, I honestly couldn't think of another encounter with him before the engagement between Brena.

Brena was such a cool ship name and here I had Nunter or maybe... oh I needed to stop making myself more depressed about my futile affair.

"I know." She said slightly annoyed at me pointing out the obvious I guess.

"Yeah well he just wanted to know if I would be able to make it." I added.

"If? Why is it even a question what excuse could you possibly.."

I felt her eyes on me as I remained silent.

"Oh my God, you're going to ditch Ally for him?" She pulled her face in disgust and I rolled my eyes, wishing John was around again so she couldn't bring anything up regarding Hunter.

"Ew! Don't make it sound like that. I can't spend his actual birthday with him so what am I supposed to do?" I knew she wouldn't understand.

"You are so stupid right now. This honestly shouldn't be a question. John said you said you could make it a couple weeks back on 4th July.."

"I was, I mean technically I didn't even say yes. Randy mentioned it and I didn't say anything. But then Hunter asked me last week after my match on Raw and I..."

She sent an "oh please" look my way as she moved off and grabbed a towel before making her way out. Of course I followed because I didn't like the way she was looking at me..

"Don't look at me like that, wouldn't you be upset if you missed John's birthday?" I knew she would be heartbroken at the thought.

"Its not even his birthday. You have to see him a weekend before his birthday because he has other people to please. I have held back my judgement but.."

"Oh really?" I frowned as we entered Female talent, grateful for everyone deciding to wait back at the hotel instead of hanging around here.

"Nicole.." She groaned, I had Seth warning me to keep my distance from Randy and her pushing me in his direction yet letting me know not to lead him on.

All Randy brought was a huge fucking headache but Alanna was a bundle of happiness I didn't want to disappoint. However, she wouldn't miss Coco at a party filled with her little friends and the Orton clan.

"I am in love with him!" I defended.

"No, I know my sister and you are not in love with Hunter. You have less than a week to figure out what's more important, a secret fuck or being Coco?"

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