"This love is the
closest thing I
have to sanity"
Soshinie A.Singh

♔♔♔

"Come on, you didn't cry? Thank the lucky stars my sister said yes? Or maybe cry because she did?" JJ mused as we stood around the fireplace randomly talking while my twin seemed to be taking a breath of fresh air outside.

"The snake sheds no tears" he chuckled as I handed him a glass of champagne since he couldn't exactly pour it for himself.

"Lies. I might have believed that to be true before you fell for my sister but now I'm pretty sure you'd cry." I smiled teasingly while he narrowed his eyes at me.

"She's officially down." I heard John sigh as he descended the staircase.

"Ah my best friend finally returns" Randy smiled and I rolled my eyes but turned towards my husband.

"Are you sure?" I questioned as it was the first time Aria had been on a flight and would be sleeping somewhere other than home.

We had all flown in on John's jet to Randy and Nicole's home so we could bring in the new year together. I knew she wouldn't be comfortable flying out herself so since John wasn't stuck to his bed or anything we made the decision to fly the whole bunch out. We'd also be camping out with them for the next few weeks leading up to her surgery.

I didn't like not having my sister close by so with Randy being injured I wanted her to be able to enjoy certain things before she wouldn't be able to do much. Also I knew how much she wanted to spend loads of time with my daughter.

"Positive, and the monitor is on too. Come on, we only have a few hours of adult time before the fireworks cause chaos all over again" he winked and I playfully groaned but gave him a quick kiss before eyeing my sister who seemed too deep in thought on her own.

I made my way over to her even though she didn't really acknowledge my presence immediately. I made sure to close the glass door behind me so that we would be alerted if our time was going to be interrupted.

"What's wrong?" I questioned her as I sat beside her, sipping on my non-alcoholic drink. It would probably be the first new year's I wouldn't be going into full Brie Mode, something they had been teasing me about on the flight.

"What do you mean?" She frowned slightly as she tore her eyes away from the stars filling the sky.

"You've been out here for the past twenty minutes and if JJ weren't hogging Randy he would have probably been out here to check on you" I pointed out as I had noticed his concerned glances towards her but knew if he had left mid-conversation it would probably cause some alarm.

"So he sent you?" She briefly glanced inside but I shook my head.

"No. I might be stuck as your twin but I do love you because you're my best friend" I nudged her hoping to get a smile and she giggled.

"How kind of you"

"Seriously, what's going on? Are you scared for what the new year means, the new month means?" I hesitantly questioned as she was scheduled to have her surgery in a few weeks time. She had been doing the best she could to rehab it but ultimately if she wanted any chance of getting back into the ring and living a normal life the surgery was the best option.

Things were a bit much for both us lately. John was injured too and we had Aria and Randy had just had his surgery a week ago and then hers. We were being tested greatly and I knew how frustrated my sister could get when both of us were just going through normal obstacles of our life.

"Yeah. I feel like whenever things are going good there's just another side effect. Randy and I both hoped for no surgery and now he had his a week ago. I'm heading in for mine before the rumble I had hoped to be competing at... Its like I want to just bask in the fact that I am engaged but how can I when I have so many things to be concerned about. I could be fucking paralyzed" She blurted out and I sighed.

"You won't be, you know Dr Uribe is the best. Your surgery is unique and he will not fail at it, we'll all be there so you have nothing to be afraid of. So fucking take in the fact that you are engaged to Randy fucking Orton, bitch!" I playfully shoved her with a big smile, a big bright smile because I was so happy for her and happy I had won my bet with John.

My sister loved with everything in her and it hurt seeing her being taken advantage of so many times but never had it been with Randy. I went from being on the fence about their intentions with one another to actually being their biggest supporter. I blame it on my pregnancy mood swings I guess.

A lot had happened in the last couple of years and I had seen my sister grow from the woman running after a married man. She made a lot of mistakes but grew into the woman she wanted to be and found the man who loved the imperfect yet fearless woman she was. Randy could be a lot to deal with most of the time but so could my sister. Both of them had the ability to annoy me so much so I guess it was only fitting they would end up together.

"I am engaged to the Viper. I can't wait to be his which is why this surgery is so frustrating too." She half groaned before sipping on her champagne.

"Think of the plus side. You'll be stuck at home for months, this just gives you more time to plan. If you had been on the road it would be pushed way into the future." I stared at the diamond on her ring finger. My wedding had been bittersweet because I knew it was that way for her having thought Nick would have popped the question years before. But I guess our soulmates take their time to find us...

"That's what Randy told me. I love him and the way he always tries to lift my spirit.."

"But?"

She thought for a bit before sighing, "I miss Colby too, I'm actually worried about him. I haven't spoken to him since Christmas and with his injury too..."

I nodded as I understood, while their bond stung a bit at times since I was a twin I understood it. He had been there when I was being judgemental and just distant, he was her confidant and knew a lot more than I did. I also knew how he was, he would always look at things from both sides and give her the best advice and deliver it in best way possible. Me on the other hand? I could be very blunt which is why my sister and I fought a lot.

"I'm sure he is okay, it's only been a week. Do you think he will make it down for your surgery?"

"Probably not. I haven't asked him to fly down.."

"Just because we're all going through things doesn't mean you should feel guilty for wanting certain things too." I knew she had dropped everything when she heard about Colby's freak accident and taken the flight down to see him as soon as she could. She had made sure to see him before surgery and even stayed an extra few days with Randy reluctantly by her side as well.

"I know. I'll hear from him whenever he contacts me again" She smiled and turned around so I did the same so both our eyes could focus on the inside.

"You know that week when you and John got married and Randy and I first bonded?" She questioned and it was something I couldn't forget even if I had wanted to.

"Oh is that what they call it these days" I teased as they had been more loved up than John and I which my family never hesitated to point out. That was definitely the week Randy stole my mom's heart, she just loved seeing how he made my sister smile. It had been shortly after the Nick ordeal and I knew while my sister had put on a brave face to ensure I had a happy wedded bliss, she was crying on our mom's shoulder most of the time leading up to it.

"Shut up. I mean we didn't talk a lot but we spoke, you know? And he would always imply there would be more for us, that he was addicted. I just took it as the charmer trying to make me fall for him" She shook her head with a small smile.

"I'm sure it was back then" I stated honestly as he had been finalizing his divorce and a bit of a guy eager with his rebounds.

"So am I. But if he wasn't the charmer he was back then and if I wasn't so broken due to Nick then maybe we wouldn't have 'bonded' and he wouldn't have eventually been true to his words and become addicted to me. There were so many times over the years I just wished I hadn't fallen for Nick but in a way it led me to Randy, you know?"

"You do remember you got back with Nick after that right?"

"Yes but you know what I mean, Brianna. Even Hunter, without him I wouldn't be the strong woman I am today. The strong woman who was able to deny Randy and figure out his true intentions and realize that he was the one I needed. I have loved so easily for so long you know that when I actually found someone who did the same it was so terrifying. But I'm happy it was and that it formed a whole complicated thing, I mean at the time I wasn't. But now it just makes it all worth it, you know?"

"I do" I smiled.

She giggled, "I don't know what on earth I'm going to tell our kids about how we met"

"Oh that's easy. Just stick to the clean version, he is Uncle John's best friend and it was love at first sight at the wedding but you stayed friends until you eventually began dating"

"It was hardly love at first sight"

"Yeah sure you were not drooling over him back in the day"

"Oh please, I'm not going to deny that. But I mean apart from eye candy. Anyway, you know what's insane?"

I raised my eyebrow while her eyes widened having just remembered whatever news she was about to tell me.

"Randy mentioned that he thinks Colby is in love with me but I'm pretty sure it was his jealousy mixed with meds because.."

"Well it isn't that insane" I cut her off as while Colby had gotten close to both of us their bond had always been on the unique side. I was sure her affair with Hunter helped with it but I never understood how much he risked for my sister. Hunter could have ruined him at times, yes for the most part he kept Hunter happy but I knew he was more loyal to my sister.

"Not you too..." She rolled her eyes and I giggled as she obviously didn't see it, if my sister wasn't interested in someone she wouldn't exactly notice things.

"I'm not saying he is going to try and sabotage your life to be with you"

"Of course not. If it weren't for Colby I doubt I would even be here, he has helped clear up my messy mind so much."

"Do you really think its that insane though?"

She stared at Randy who was laughing with our mom before slowly shaking her head, "In a way it makes sense, I can see it. But I don't want to see it because I don't want to make it weird. I love how comfortable we are around each other, we're affectionate and we flirt but its nothing serious. Its us, other than Randy he is the only other man who I don't fear being hurt by, I know he will always be there. Maybe there have been hints but I'm happy ignoring it. Why search when we're both happy, you know?"

"Its on your mind though" I frowned.

"Yeah but not for the reasons you are probably thinking about. I'm just a bit concerned as to why Randy brought it up. Does he think it would change things between us if I were aware of something like that?"

"I think..." I was cut off by JJ opening the door.

"Come on, guys. Its called a family evening for a reason" he teased.

I rolled my eyes but followed him in hoping Nicole would just raise her concerns to Randy instead of letting them eat her alive.

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"It feels like every time I turn around you've locked yourself in a room with this little girl" Randy smiled as I sat in the rocking chair with Aria in my arms.

"I guess you're not the only one in this relationship that can obsess over someone" I teased as he closed the door behind him and sat down on the bed before lying back and closing his eyes.

"You know they are going to be here for the next three weeks right?" I reminded him as it sounded like he was relieved to have gotten away from my family. I was happy I had finally finished fitting all of my things into the home and making myself at home even more before they flew out.

He chuckled, "I'm not complaining, Alanna will be excited to have Aria around."

"I can't wait to see her. I honestly miss her so much, I'm so used to her running around the house with Joseph. At least we know he'll be happy to have her here too and Josie." I smiled as my little guy had loads of energy and once I was in a brace I wouldn't be able to keep up.

"Yeah cause his mom won't be rolling around on the floor with him anymore" he chuckled.

"Don't laugh, you're going to wake her" I rolled my eyes and stood up to set her down.

"I see the world knows of our engagement" I heard him and turned to see him raise his phone showing the post I had made earlier in the day.

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thenikkibella: With the new year coming in I just want to express my gratitude for my handsome, adorable fiance @randyorton. We have been tested so much, whether it be on screen or off and both being sidelined. I think times like these you truly have a view of how the rest of your life will be like with someone. And I'm pretty sure we'll be living a great life, even if you annoy me quite a bit. You're my one and only, Viper 😘

"I'm going to have lots of time on my hands. Better be looking forward to annoying fiance appreciation posts" I whispered into his lips and slowly ran my hands up his chest before holding his face.

"Oh I will be eagerly anticipating them. I love seeing what you think of me online when I'm glared at every few minutes in reality" he whispered with a smirk.

"Shut up. I glare with love, come on let's go before Brie kills me for waking her up again" I moved out of the room and he followed.

I held his hand as we strolled down the hallway before we took a seat at the very top of the staircase. I could hear my sister's voice echoing from downstairs but didn't feel like joining them just yet. I didn't want to enter the new year feeling overwhelmed by thoughts of uncertainty with how Randy was feeling.

"You know there has been something on my mind for the last week" I spoke as I mumbled into his shoulder and slowly rubbed up and down his arm.

"I like to believe its something good but something weighing on your mind for that long cannot be good. So spill it, Bella. Did I flirt with the nurse while on my meds? You know that doesn't count right?"

His mood made me slightly hesitant to bring up my thoughts but it wasn't like I could discuss it with Colby first like I was used to.

I giggled and lift my head and instantly had my favourite pair of blue eyes on me, although Aria could be competition. "The meds are the reason I was hesitant to bring it up but apparently you have this idea that Colby is in love with me. I mean sure in some rom-com maybe he would be but I know he isn't and I was just wondering why you would even want to tell me that. Was it some kind of test or were you just loopy for that split second?"

He seemed surprised by where the conversation had drifted as his eyebrows raised slightly before he adjusted the strap of his arm brace. "What test do you think it would be, Garcia?"

"I don't know, maybe you think I have some unresolved feelings for my best friend."

"Do you?"

I glared at him and he chuckled, "I don't think you do. I don't know, I figured if I told you that you would understand my reasoning behind not getting along with him. I honestly have no solid reason for telling you but I'm pretty sure of it."

"Whether its true or not, if its something that needed to be known I would have known it. You bringing it up just makes me wonder what's going on in my Viper's head."

"Its all you in here, babe. Right now I can see a nipple and I'm..."

"Randy!" I hit him and adjusted my cleavage with a small laugh.

"Nicole, I don't have anything going on in my head at this moment in time. If you had feelings for Colby it would have happened a long time ago. I do feel threatened by him yes but I am working on it. I spent almost a week with the guy a couple months ago for you." I searched his eyes and saw the sincerity that was always there whenever he confessed his love and I nodded believing him. He was trying and that's all I could continue asking for.

"I know and I appreciate that you are trying, I just don't want you to ever have any doubts. I bring up things like kids and I feel like you're hesitant or one foot in, one out. You know how I am, I constantly think that something bad is going to happen and you always have a way of reassuring me. So I want to do the same with you, always"

"You always do. And with the kids thing I just want you to ride this injury out first before sticking to how you feel that's all. I'm an open book when it comes to you. Anything you want I want and I love you, you're the one that silences all the voices, Nicole. So why wouldn't I want those bundles of joy filling up our house?" He smiled before leaning forward and kissing my cheek.

I pouted, "Just when I was wondering why I'm in love with you. You say these things"

"Mmm wondering huh? Come on, its five minutes to midnight. Let's sneak off to our bedroom" he winked and stood up extending his good arm for me to lean on as I got up.

"Is that all you need?" I teased.

"Funny, Bella. I plan on ending the year inside you and beginning the new year inside you." His voice lowered as we made our way to the bedroom.

I narrowed my eyes at him before smiling, "Sweeter words have never been spoken"