"You don't have to be tough every minute of every day.
Its okay to let down your guard.
In fact, there are moments when
its the best thing you could possibly do.."

-Meredith Grey, Grey's Anatomy

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"Its cute right? I'm happy they let me keep it from the shoot" I smiled at Seth as he drove me over to my sister and John's house where the whole family would be, well immediate family would be, for the 4th of July BBQ.

"Its real cute, if you were spending the 4th of July with Hunter" he smirked and I hit his shoulder which led to him chuckling loudly, allowing the sound to fill his car.

"Don't remind me, its sad when I think about the best occasions I can't spend with him. Like 4th of July. His birthday that's coming up in a few weeks." I thought aloud as I stared at a picture of us I had edited for the ride while Seth sang along to the radio.

Seth glanced at it and gave a small smile, the one he usually gave as an apology that I had fallen for a taken man.

"Birthdays are overrated. Speaking of birthdays, you never got me those concert tickets I wanted."

I sighed having known it would be coming up soon as he had literally spent a month sending us texts about it.

"You asked Brie and you know how she gets when John's on the same tour." I shrugged, knowing Brie would be annoyed with me once Seth went complaining to her but I was sure John knew someone who could get it for her.

He would get her a trip to the moon if she only asked...

"Well anyway they're in town next week and I happen to be home so remind her please" He pleaded as he stared at me, having reached my destination.

"Sure thing, are you sure you don't want to come in. John won't mind, he is used to us bringing extra people along." I smiled as I leaned back, scanning the car for anymore of my belongings.

"Nah and disappoint my mom? She'll kill me."

I laughed and locked my phone. The last thing I needed was someone seeing my pictures with Hunter other than him. While having Brie know helped as she always covered for me, I never really had someone I could gush about Hunter too without feeling judged.

Thanks to an unlocked door and him barging in, I now had Seth.

"So you really don't have anyone in your life Colby?" I poked his shoulder feeling bad that he put up with it all.

"Why, you want me now? " He smirked and took off his cap, stretching a bit as we had gone to a Cross fit class together.

"Ew!"

"Woah that's a nice sound" He chuckled.

"You're in the brother zone, you know that" I smiled, pinching his bearded cheeks until he pushed my hand away.

"Yeah and I'm so not into you, sorry Nicole" He shrugged as I grabbed my backpack from the backseat.

"Fuck you" I breath.

"I try to often" he smiled and I rolled my eyes.

"Enjoy!"

I smiled and leaned over and gave him a quick hug and kissed his cheek before leaving the car.

I waved as he drove off and pressed the button at the gate to get the buzzer but of course Brie hadn't told John it was broken. I loved my sister but sometimes she took the whole love sick thing with her husband a bit too far.

But then again who was I to talk? I was busy doodling on a picture of Hunter and I, one of few, earlier.

"Planning on walking up the driveway in those heels hun?" I frowned as I saw Randy pull up.

"Where's Alanna?" I questioned as he stepped out of his truck, shirtless might I add.

"Inside, she spent the week here. She loves Josie, so I figured maybe she needed a break from her overbearing dad" he shrugged.

He moved past me and punched in a code and I guess it was fixed but they changed the password.

"They happen to prefer my company to yours" He said having caught my confusion, of course he noticed everything.

"Of course" I sighed staring over at him wishing I had packed my sunglasses.

"Was that Colby?" He glanced down the road before setting his eyes on me again. I tried not to smile at him trying to be casual about it.

"There are lots of cars and you know his? I guess you have become obsessed with the new apple of Hunter's eye have you?"
I narrowed my eyes at him, not in the mood to get caught in between their backstage rivalry for the spotlight, and he now held a small frown before responding.

"No, my only obsession is you Nicole. I saw the license plate had Lopez on it. So since you love hitching rides with wrestlers, hop in unless you will enjoy the long walk." His voice didn't hold it's usual persuasive tone and I was reminded of the two sides of Randy.

One who was my friend who I did care for and the other that just pushed too many boundaries that made me feel confused about what game he was playing.

I glanced at the gate opening and sighed as I moved around to the passenger side, having just killed my legs with box jumps so accepting the short ride would be much better.

He smirked as I got in and I realized why, thanks to his car being so high my skirt had ridden up.

"So is thinking of your daughter's needs the only reason you left her here or was it because your needs needed to be fulfilled" I questioned to tear his eyes away from me and he drove up the driveway to the Cena mansion...

"Mmmm here I thought you believed I was a great father. I wouldn't do that, I had to arrange some stuff without her with me. Its her birthday next week, as you know, but she's flying back this weekend to spend it with her mom. So I figured the hours before Battleground we can spend the day at my parents, Disney themed party or something"

I nodded as I stared at the Alanna tattoo. I kept in mind if I ever bothered getting a second tattoo, to ask Randy where he got his done.

"That sounds fun"

"Well it will be. So we'll be dropping by your hotel room then or you can stay over at my parents' house. We can share my old room, Alanna has her own one there?"

I smiled as he parked the car but locked the doors.

"What makes you think I want to spend an entire day with you Orton?"

"My daughter, or we could all share a hotel room if you'd feel uncomfortable with my parents around. You seemed to enjoy that on Sunday"

I shook my head as it had been enjoyable. We were forced into watching some kid movie which ended up being real cute while Alanna fell asleep between us. I had to take a call from Hunter and when I returned Randy had fallen asleep too.

"Your daughter is amazing. We need to get inside though " I glanced up at the house knowing it was empty considering the pool party at the back.

"We don't need to do anything Nicole, or we could do everything"
I should have known The Predator wasn't far away.

On Sunday he had been anything but, it could have been Alanna's presence. But then again over the last few months he would take every opportunity to get some flirting done or simply remind me that I was wanted by him. So I guess the injury caused him to take a step back.

"What? Did you slip off your shirt while I watched Colby drive away?" I smirked as I turned in my seat to find him staring at me.

"No but I guess it has an effect on you"

I rolled my eyes at his amused expression. While there was no denying Randy had a good body, it had absolutely no effect on me.

"Yes making me question what I did on this earth to land up locked in a car with you" I sighed simply wanting to get inside and have a nice big glass of wine.

"Just one kiss and you will be free" He shrugged holding my freedom in his hands.

"What? Can't get enough of my taste.."

"I remember you not wanting me to stop tasting you that night"

"Ew! Randall!" I shook my head and reached over to unlock the doors which I did but he wrapped his arm around my waist before I could move back into my seat.

"You know I'm not much of a boob guy. So I wouldn't have minded if you didn't get these but then again I haven't had Nicole before these so I wouldn't know. I do like some ass though.." He whispered as his hand moved down to my behind.

"And I wouldn't mind having it seated on my lap right now Bella.." I had no voice as my body always seemed to betray me the moment he came too close.

"Or maybe you want a kiss now?" He smirked as he stared at my lips while I felt his fingers move to the front of my underwear.

"Or should my hand go further. Only if you want me to.." His lips grazed over mine as his fingers rubbed over me and I closed my eyes trying not to moan.

My fingers dug into his jeans as I held onto his thigh to steady myself. I couldn't focus on his blue eyes with the slight darkness filling the car due to the tinted windows but I kept my eyes shut.

"But then again, maybe I like the feeling of this lace underwear against my fingers. I'm sure it feels good rubbing up against you, that must be why you wear them?"

"Rand.." I began, kissing him was one thing but I really wished Brie hadn't been right about me making things worse by allowing it once.

"What do you want me to do Nicole. You should know I don't ask you, I just take.." His voice became low as his fingers moved faster and my grip tightened on his thigh.

"Please.."

"Please stop or let you finish?"

"Please sto.." I didn't get to finish my words as I felt his mouth on mine as his fingers gripped my hair pulling me against him as his other hand remained beneath my skirt.

I bit onto his tongue but I wasn't sure whether it was for him to stop or because I felt myself getting closer to the edge. It didn't stop him as his tongue continued exploring my mouth.

He broke the kiss and bit my lip..

"Moan Bella. I don't know why you are still fighting it. I can feel you.." He whispered against my lips.

"I.."

He kissed me again as his fingers drove me to heaven and I moaned loudly into his mouth while he groaned and I knew it was due to my fingers digging into him.

Before I could focus I felt both his hands on my thighs as I straddled him and he held me in place. I don't think he needed to as his hand was back gripping my hair as he kissed me.

Why was my body so easy for this man..

I heard a knock beside us and frowned as I tried pushing against his chest for him to break the kiss. He only pulled me closer and I shifted my legs and kneed him in the crotch. And he of course immediately let me go.

"Bitch!" He breath out as the door opened.

"Excuse me!" I heard my mom.

"Oh my.." I groaned while Randy was groaning for a different reason.

"Sorry Gato, not meant for you." He chuckled a bit through the pain while I rolled my eyes.

"Randy is being a dick. So I made sure he felt the pain of having one" I smiled and he opened his eyes and smiled as well.

"Mmmm what am I going to do with you two? Randy I hope you brought the extra steaks John asked for. I saw the car pulling up the drive way but when you didn't come after ten minutes. I figured I would check. And its good I was the one who did."

"They're in the cooler box at the back. Nicole would you mind removing yourself from my lap or do you want to remain there in front of your mom?"

I glared at him and moved off him while my mom simply shook her head. I knew I would be grilled if not later, on my next visit...

"She's so inappropriate sometimes" he smirked before getting out while I made my way out and headed inside to find a guest room.

***

"Oh here you are. You like dashed past John earlier. Did you shower?" Brie frowned.

"Yeah" A towel wrapped around my body as I exited the bathroom should have been a dead giveaway.

"I thought you would get ready at the gym before Colby dropped you."

That's what I did before a certain snake slithered his..

"Well I didn't. Uhm where's those clothes I left here before?" I asked as I let my hair loose feeling a headache coming on.

"Weren't you going to wear the outfit from the shoot?"

"Well I wore it over here after not showering so... Just bring me clothes please!" It was like she wanted me to spill my entire soul to her.

"Chill jeez!" She snapped and left the room.

I didn't see a point in drying my hair as I would be swimming soon. I paced in the room, I had to hope that my mom would spare me and not spill whatever she thought was happening or what was about to happen to anyone.

"Here you go!"

"Of course " I sighed as Randy held my bikini.

"Come on, its nothing I haven't seen... Or touched fifteen minutes ago" He shrugged clearly still enjoying the position we had been in, knowing my mom I knew that he knew he would start giving her ideas. But while I loved my mom, having her on his side wouldn't sway my feelings.

That was the thing about Nicole Garcia, when she loved someone she found it hard to stop. It's why I spent years in a fucked up relationship with Nick and now in a two year affair with Hunter.

"You are insane! What if my mom.."

"All she saw was you throwing yourself at me. She was amused"

I grabbed it from him and narrowed my eyes and he sighed and left the room.

There wasn't much more he could do I had just come undone in his car.

Safe to say Brie was fucking right...

***

"Join me for a swim?" I heard Randy as I drank some champagne and turned around.

I had drifted a bit from the crowd of our family because it was the usual questions, when was I planning on settling down?

With Brie and JJ both hitched it was safe to say my guilty pleasure was always my best friend.

"Or join us?"

I smiled as Alanna appeared next to him after running over from the pool.

"Daddy, go on the slide!" She suggested as she hopped onto a chair, covering herself in a towel.

"Mmmm I think its quite scary. Maybe if Coco joined me" He winked which caused her to giggle and stare at me. I glanced between them and shook my head at him.

"You should be ashamed Randall!"

"Oh let's not talk about shame" He wiggled his eyebrows and I wished I could smack the smug look off his face.

"Please Coco!" She begged on behalf of him.

I sighed and headed up towards the slide. Things like this made me want to get a bigger place but my apartment in San Diego was enough.

"You're such a fucking dick" I punched his arm as soon as we were hidden from the view of Alanna and everyone else, most of which had ended up inside.

"Yeah about that. I brought you to cloud nine and you nearly cost me my ability to get there myself, with your knee"

"Well like you said you aren't using it"

"I just don't think its fair." He narrowed his blue orbs on me and I forced back a smile.

"Life's not fair Orton, can we just go down please?" I just wanted to please Alanna and then drift off and enjoy my off day.

"We or me? Since you love me pleasuring you"

I realized briefly what had happened, was it cheating on someone if you were having an affair? And you technically did nothing, your body betrayed you. The last thing I wanted was to taint what I had with Hunter even more.

"I swear I will.."

"Come for me?"

"I'm leaving." I turned away not feeling it anymore, knowing he would be throwing it in my face making me realize what happened.

I not only kissed him I...

"Okay okay I'm done okay?" He whispered.

"You feel guilty.."

I glanced away hoping no one would come up as I did. I hadn't even thought of another guy while being with Hunter and Randy was just there tempting me lately.

"Because you liked it?" He gave a small smile.

"You don't even feel bad, you know I have someone"

"If you didn't want it you could have said no. I didn't fuck you Nicole. Come on"

I sighed as he sat down and scooted back as I moved in front of him.

"I still love this tattoo especially.."

"If you bring up that night one more time"

"Okay Bella.." I felt him push behind me and screamed as we slid down while he chuckled behind me.

I resurfaced and stared at him. My life would have been simpler if I wanted Randy but I didn't. I loved Hunter...

***

"So did you and Randy train at the gym?" I heard my mom.

"Why would you ask?" Brie questioned clearly confused.

"I figured since they arrived together"

Thanks mom!

"No Colby dropped me off and Randy was kind enough to give me a ride up"

"Ki.. " She began but John sneaked up behind her and pulled her away, thankfully.

"Yes?" I questioned as Brie left and he moved next to me.

I realized he was waiting for me to snap the picture I was about to take of myself. I rolled my eyes and took it with him before turning to him expectantly.

"How's the stitches?" I questioned and he bent his head so I could see.

"Getting there "

I nodded before sipping from my glass but felt him lean in closer.

"When it comes to what I want Nicole. I can be heartless and well I want you so I'm just warning you I won't quit you. I'm only beginning and by the end you'll forget about him and the guilt.."

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