"...with abandon, stupidity. With hope.
I fall in love too much.
Too easily.
But maybe you do, too.
Maybe we all do."
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"Its so simple. Just go up to her and ask her out." Paige rolled her eyes while I smirked as we stood in the kitchen.

I had been in the gym downstairs training with all of them when I got dragged out by Paige with her boyfriend Kevin being dragged with.

I had never really associated myself with the British kid but I knew she had a bit of a bond with Nicole. I had seen them around many times, especially after her betrayal to Brie when no one else stood beside her so I respected her. But as far as the conversation was going I hoped she knew I had nothing to say...

"What makes you think I want Nicole?"

Well you are in love with her and haven't stopped admitting so..

Go away.

Just reminding you that I am still here...

"While Nicole has stopped mixing with the rest because she's not sure who she can trust, which I totally agree with. They're all just a bunch of Gossip Girls, I happen to be everywhere though. And the guys have been talking about how you would snap at anyone who gave a comment about her" She smirked while I rolled my eyes.

So I might have glared at a few of the brats perving on Nicole. As far as I was concerned they were disrespecting her with their eyes on the screen waiting for her to be crawling over for the count or bending over for a better view of her cleavage.

And what about your roaming eyes?

The difference is she allowed my eyes to roam.

They would never have the privilege of being with her so talking about the things they would do to her if they could have her just made me want to kick someone's ass. So instead I glared as a warning...

"She's my best friend's wife's sister. I was simply defending her honour."

"And when you told Brie and John to leave her alone? Was that also your civil duty, or because The snake actually cares..."

I glanced at her boyfriend who simply shrugged before I sighed. "I'll be getting back to my workout."

"You guys are head over heels in love and you're such fucking idiots" She mumbled causing me to stop briefly but I then moved on with a sigh.

I knew it was obvious, but I wasn't going to admit it and put Nicole in a situation she wasn't ready to be in. Especially when I wouldn't be seeing her anytime soon with her schedule as champion picking up and my filming.

"Nicole..." I called out as I entered realizing her mom and Johnny had most likely gone up to get ready for dinner.

It was Thanksgiving and it was a time I tended to spend with Brie and John since Alanna was usually with Samantha's family around this time. It was the first one with Nicole so it had been a bit of a surprise when I walked in last night and she was on the couch with the dog I had gotten her. She had named him Joseph, a bit of a weird name for a dog. I would have gone for Spot even though he was spotless but then I recalled her grandpa's name and well I assumed the name was a good sign because it meant my gift to her meant a lot to her.

As soon as I saw her face come into view I immediately snapped it.

I try 😝😝😝😝😂😂😂

"Don't share that" She shook her head disapprovingly while I happened to like it but then again I was hopelessly in love with her so perhaps I was ignoring any flaws she saw. Okay more like I knew she wasn't perfect but I wanted her either way.

"People should see our family portrait" I smirked slightly hoping it wouldn't cause her to tense considering I had stated I would take a step back from my usual persuasive manner but it was me after all and she knew how much I wanted her.

She doesn't want him to see..

"Without Alanna?" She immediately snapped while her eyes were fixed on my gift to her.

"So we are a family?" I mused which caused her to roll her eyes but then giggle.

"Don't start, Orton. What happened to just having me in your life?" She sighed but it didn't contain her usual defeated tone with it, I liked to believe with the voices going silent within me, well partially, that maybe her confusion was clearing up. But then again, she could just still be on a high from getting the thing she always wanted.

She probably is...

Here I thought I was alone...

And I bet she believes you are the one for her while Hunter is out of sight...

I shook my head realizing she was no longer looking at me.

"Well when you're wearing that tights and you know what your ass does to me then I can't help..." I trailed off as she set him down, slowly moving closer towards her but before I could grip her hips she stood up.

"Randal!"

I chuckled but wrapped my arms around her from behind while she sighed and stared at me through the mirror we were facing.

"I happen to be thankful for you, Nicole" I said seriously and she knew I meant it by the smile on her face.

"You think that's going to get you a kiss?" She narrowed her eyes at me.

"I know it will" I shrugged. "But... Not now" I winked and unwrapped my arms deciding maybe I needed to head out and help John but felt my hand being gripped.

"Only because you gave me a cute birthday gift"

"Mmmm so now I am cute?"

"Forget it!"

"Come on Garcia..." I slowly shook my head pulling her against me, while I wanted to be the better man she had pulled me back and I needed her. "Don't you miss my lips against yours? I mean if you're dreaming about me all the time you must be..." I whispered into her lips.

I felt her lips on mine and immediately tightened my arms around her and pushed my tongue past her lips, restraining myself had never been an easy task. She should have learnt that from our first night together many years ago...

"Ra..."

I cut her off and forced my tongue past her lips again lifting her legs and wrapped them around me as I pushed her up against the mirror. Her hands gripped my face as she returned it, maybe she did love me as well. I certainly felt something being returned and that something wasn't just her allowing me to kiss her.

Maybe she does, but is she in love with you?

"What were you saying?" I smirked as I slowly broke the kiss and leaned my forehead against hers.

I heard a throat being cleared and sighed as I looked into the mirror spotting John in the doorway and set Nicole down.

"I have to feed this little guy..." She avoided looking at him while I reluctantly let her go out of my embrace. I didn't blame her, my best friend and his wife had been more like parents lately. Giving lectures here and there when things were already complicated as is.

I watched as she left the gym and he closed the door behind her before moving further into the room.

"You know, I won't be seeing Nicole for the next few months. One would think my best friend would allow me a few private moments with her." I tugged on my trackpants before sitting down needing to calm myself and forget about the view of Nicole that had so many men weak and she didn't even realize it.

Why would she when she was screwing the King of Kings?

"Don't you think you have had enough private moments with a taken woman?"

I sighed not needing a reminder of who I was sharing her with. I admit when I am alone with Nicole I tend to purposely forget but they were always there ready to fucking remind me. Remind us that what we were doing was wrong simply because it wasn't the normal way of doing things...

"Colby is not here." I sighed running my hand over my face but frowned as he rolled his eyes.

"We both know she isn't sleeping with Colby.."

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"Mama Bella, how would you feel about having a snake as a son-in-law?" I heard Paige in the distance as I approached with cocktails, handing them each one before taking some juice for myself.

"I wouldn't mind that, Nikki has been single for two years now. I think her heart is ready" My mom answered, she was certainly a fan of Randy. She figured he was charming and seemed to have a good bond with Nicole, she had her suspicions about them and of course knew of their night together but hadn't bothered questioning my sister about it.

I guess our arguments about it led to her refraining to saying the minimum.

"For two..." Paige frowned seeming confused considering my sister had stupidly gone on about her heart being torn in two, but this was Paige who didn't care to run around telling secrets to the world. But she didn't know the other man in Nicole's life was meant to be one. "Don't you mean.."

"Randy and I are just friends, Mom" Nicole whispered.

"Friends who happen to want each other" I saw Randy place a kiss on her cheek before pulling her closer to him.

While it was normal behaviour for the two I could see my husband frown slightly behind me reminding me that he now knew the secret I had been keeping for my sister for the past two years. Apart of me was relieved that he knew, so my lying could stop but the other knew he was disappointed...

"He wants me, I do not want him" She giggled as he held his heart feigning hurt. She had been on a high ever since she became champion and while her and Hunter seemed to be on one of their distant spells, Randy was there reeling in her bliss.
Something that of course was common over the last year, it was the first time I was seeing them together after he admitted to knowing about Hunter.

Nothing seemed to have changed, he was still on a mission to claim my sister which led to me believing his intentions were true. For now...

"I would believe you if you hadn't slept in my bed last night" He said casually causing my mom to giggle most likely not believing him when it could have been true with how comfortable they were with sinking into each other.

"Randal!" Her eyes widened.

He chuckled, "I'm kidding, let's blame 'shortage of rooms' in this mansion"

"You guys need to stop kidding around, you aren't getting any younger" My mom shook her head while Nicole elbowed him and stood up to get a refill as he continued to playfully reply when only my husband and I knew how the entire situation was anything but playful.

I stood up as well and followed her to the other side of the pool leaving quite a distance between us and everyone else. She enjoyed some strawberries before getting ready to head back until she noticed me and sighed.

"Its Thanksgiving.. "

"You know what's weird to me Nicole?" I cut her off leaning back against the wall.

"What Brianna?" The annoyance was clear in her voice but I didn't want her trying to get away from me like she seemed to be doing all too well these days when not on a championship victory high.

"The fact that you so easily admit to falling in love fast and easily but yet deny any chance of that having happened with Randy" I slowly folded my arms as she frowned slightly.

"Because you know who my heart belongs to Brie." She mumbled setting her champagne down.

"I've told you so many times you think you love Hunter but you don't" I said truthfully, yes she fell in love with him. But at some point she stopped but she was too in it to distinguish what she felt.

"And you also said I'm leading Randy on, so tell me Brie what else can you point out? And then change whenever it suits you?" She rolled her eyes and I knew it was only a defense because if she didn't love Hunter what excuse did she have?

"My opinions change because your actions do. You're confusing but I do know you and just because I said you used him doesn't mean you don't love him. Why are you trying so hard not to love the man who genuinely loves you?" I moved closer to her briefly glancing past her to make sure we weren't loud enough to be heard.

"Do you think he genuinely loves me? Because I think he does but then you know what Brie? I thought Nick genuinely loved me, I thought Hunter loved me. And then he comes in and tells me he loves me when for the last two years nothing has happened. So maybe I'm fighting it because even though he says it, even though I hear it. Even though I can see it, I don't believe that someone can be like me, fall so easily for someone. I'm so used to people not giving what I give that Randy is just too good to be true and I'm not ready for it yet." She croaked and sat down causing me to sigh and move in front of hoping they were too oblivious on the other side.

"Its weird, Randy makes you so happy and I don't even think you realize it." I admitted which caused her to stare over at him as I ran my hands through her locks.

"I do realize it. He makes me happy, so happy. He keeps making me happy and I wish he would stop but then I wish he wouldn't. I think..." She paused, shaking her head and then reached for a glass with a sigh.

"You know I was thinking, when Stephanie attacked me, you just stood there..." I wanted to get back to the more important topic but I guess now wasn't the time and the place.

"Hunter blocked me."

"No before that, you stood there and let them hurt me. You didn't say anything in defense of me... You still hate me don't you? Randy was right you're by my side out there but deep down... I'm sorry okay, I'm so sorry I just keep adding this uncertainty to your life and that because my life is a big confusion it leads to yours being as well" She whispered but I slowly shook my head and sat down beside her. I saw the hurt on her voice as he tore her down with words. I think the words that hurt most were the ones by Stephanie while he stood there smiling. I knew it hurt me witnessing it but I couldn't risk them doing something to me if I had spoken up.

"Nicole, you are my sister I don't hate you. I didn't do anything because I couldn't"

"What do you mean you couldn't?" I felt her eyes on me.

"I .. " I stared over at my husband engaged in conversation with my family. "John and I.. we're expecting.."

"What?" She blurted out loudly which led to me briefly glaring at her.

"We found out a couple weeks ago.. I mean we're not sure I took a test I doubt I'm far along but.." I began to ramble with a smile recalling John's huge grin weeks before.

We had agreed to wait but she was my twin and the last thing I wanted her to believe was that the things I had said out of anger were my thoughts of her or that I wouldn't be there to defend her. Her actions were wrong but all she wanted was the love she always dreamed about but had been tainted by every man who claimed he did.

"Oh my gosh I'm so happy for you" I felt her squeeze into a hug and prayed my child would forgive me for using him/ her as a defense for what I needed to tell her.

I closed my eyes briefly holding her tighter since our hugs were rare.

"There's something else Nicole..." She slowly let go and stared at me.

"What? "

"John knows..."

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So I posted the books that I mentioned in the previous chapter :) The Randy + OC is called Kitty and the Nikki Bella Ship is called Shelter ( check it out to find out who she is paired with, hopefully you like!)

Thanks so much to those who have already checked out, voted, added and left amazing feedback! It means a lot and makes me look forward to working on it and can't wait to start this whenever this one ends<3

But for now! Hopefully you are still enjoying this book even though my mind is such a mess shoving ideas everywhere!
Thoughts on Nikki's never ending confusion?
Brie's thoughts?
Paige trying to play matchmaker