Even after I had just faced a stupid, narrow-minded conversation back in my grandmom's room, I managed to keep myself sound. I didn't wanna jeopardize my party at all.

'Ahana, Riya, I and Ryan can be in the same team.' Abhiraaj called out. 'We're Jeff Bezos, as the owners of Amazon.' He laughed. His hand brushed through my legs. I felt my heart clench, and my breath stop. My brain started releasing more dopamine, as it usually does when Ayum touches me.

And he touches me a lot.

This sounds awkward, given the fact that he has a girlfriend. Even I don't understand why he does that. It's probably not because he has feelings for me, because, if he had, he wouldn't have a girlfriend. He's usually very vocal about what he wants.

Every time we've ever met, I've felt his hands around my body. I strangely don't protest (not so strangely). The way he rested his shoulder on my lap in my mom's birthday party to the way he clung to me on a movie night at his house, the way he caresses me, the way touches, it feels heavenly to me. But I know it's very wrong because he's technically cheating on his girlfriend and also playing with my feelings, but who knows what's in his mind? Maybe he thinks of me as a sister he loves to adore, or something explanatory. He might like me even.

Also, I used to like it very much.

It's drastically reduced now because ever since I've decided to move on (which was like fifteen days ago), somehow he's not doing it either. I don't know how's that possible. I mean, does he read my mind or something?

But then he'll know I loved him, right?

I have no idea what's my status quo with Abhiraaj Kapoor. It's hard to figure out.

The 'monopoly feat never have I ever' was a blast. We all hooted and drank coke, and everyone was on top of their worlds. Abhiraaj brought pizzas in between. After we finally finished the game and pizzas were still left, we decided to watch the 'Kissing Booth' on Netflix. It followed hootings and awkward glances as well. It was one of the best times I had.

And I didn't wanna trade it for anything.