It has been one year now since I left south korea to finish my studies here in america. Life here wasn't hard, thanks to Tyler's family helping me with everything , and the best thing was that my best friend Ghalia came to america to finish her studies as well, I was so happy to have her, but I always felt something missing.

I kept in touch with the boys even if i promised myself to let them go, but I couldn't be selfish like jackson said, they needed me especially youngjae and Bambam. I sometimes sent messages to jackson but no reply, I knew he hated me, I knew he forgot about me. I was seeing shows where he participated in and he seemed happy and cheerful as always, his smile and his cute laugh could light up my hall day. ''Oh he died his hair blond again '' I said while checking my instagram, '' let me see ! oh he's so cute'' she said handing me a cup of coffee, '' so are you ever thinking about coming back ?'' she asked me suddenly, '' at one point I have to, since I m going to graduate this summer..'' I replied my head down. I wasn't sure if I would have the courage to look at him in the eyes once more, to apologize for hurting him for being a coward.

After I finished my classes the professor called me out with a large smile on his face '' Rita do you have a minute ?'' '' yes sir what is it ?!'' he said handing me some papers '' there 's a guy who came to our university searching for a fresh profil as artistic director assistant, and I recommended you among others ! '' I was surprised and happy! finally a job opportunity that could make me gain some money ! the professor went back to his desk '' he is meeting the candidates now at the library, it would be great if you meet him too'' I panicked looking into my bag '' but I m not sure I brought my cv !'' '' it doesn't matter for him, he said he wants to meet you first then arrange another official meeting with the company's headmaster , then you can dress formally and bring you cv and portfolio ''.I was so exited I went to the bathroom first to fix my curly long hair and put some make up before I could sit waiting in the hall way. After couple of minutes a girl came out looking a little anxious she looked at me and said '' good luck !''. I went in and I could see a guy standing next to the window, he turned around and I whined '' shit ! it's you ! the hell are you doing here?'' tyler looked at me with a sad cute expression '' this is how you welcome your best friend ?'' and he hugs me tightly '' I just saw you two weeks ago why the hell did you come back to america again ?'' I asked setting next to his chair '' Didn't you hear I am now the artistic director of the design department in JYP ! '' I screamed from happiness holding him again kissing him on his cheeks '' congratulation !! it's your dream'' '' yeah it is ...'' he stopped looking at me with a sweet smile and said '' but I can't do it without you ''. I let go of his hand and said head down '' Tyler I run away from them and now you want me to come back? '' ''Are you crazy ?'' Tayler said yelling his lungs out '' do you think you're the only one hurting, you have to see him Rita ! drinking every night ... asking me about you everyday... and you are torturing yourself for nothing you deserve each other !'' I stood up facing him angry '' what are you expecting me to do ha ? you want me to be his secret girlfriend ? putting him in a dangerous position ? not going on dates not holding hands in public do you call that a relationship?''. Taylor stood there silent, then added '' you won't find an opportunity as good as this one, at least do it for your family and...for me ''.  I hugged him tightly promising him to think about it .

We sat eating lunch with ghalia which Tyler didn't stop flirting with and she seemed to like it, my mind was exploding with thoughts fears and memories, beep beep my phone rang and it was bambam sending me a selfie with everyone from their concert in japan. '' when you have time to talk please let me know '' I texted back. Beep beep , '' we can talk now Rita ! I 'll call you !'' what ? calling me all the way from japan ? it could be very expensive. The phone rang and I got up leaving those two love birds chatting, '' heellooo hello'' youngjae said, again those three makane where fighting on the phone to talk with me, and it made me laugh. Finally when bambam took over his phone we started chatting:

ME : how's Jackson ?

BAM: he 's technically fine but I can't say he's the same as before.

Me: I see, I had a job offer in korea and I don t know what to do.

BAM: well you should take it !! we miss you so much ! you really are a dear person to us you know ! but I know you won't be comftorble with jackson around... but you know the best thing is that  you two  face each other again just to clear everything up.

Bambam was right I can't just run away from him all my life I need to know if he still have feelings for me or not ! 

JB : Oh hey! this little shit didn't tell me he was talking to you !

BAM : hung i m calling to america it's expensive.

JB : shut up ! i ll pay !

ME: oh hi Jb how are you ?

Jb : I m good as long as these kids listen to me everything is fine.... I miss you .

ME: I miss you guys too.

JB : ''laughs out loud'' hahaha same girl as always ! well i m hanging up now I ll text you later.

Beep.

I came back to the shop were those two were still flirting I grabbed my bag and pulled Ghalia's arm '' let's go I need you to help me pack my stuff'' '' what ? where are you going '' Ghalia asked confused '' I going back to korea as Tyler's assistant for JYP'' suddenly tyler rised from his chair screaming happily '' ARE YOU FOR REAL !!!''