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Looking at my pride an joy sleeping, the tears rushed to my eyes, it's been propably eight weeks since i've seen him, and he just seems to get more handsome.

The Birth of Ryder, isn't something that i'm proud of , but yet ill never regret having him, i mean in all my songs, i encourage my listeners, to be strong and independent and wise in your thinking, don't et a guy seduce you with words, but then that's exactly what happened to me.

It was A gramys after party, and i'd just won an award, i mean come of heck yeah i was excited!

Flash back.

With tears in my eyes i smiled and spoke through the microphone.

"I am honored to stand tonight before you to recieve this award, let me tell you i am truly shocked, and i would like to thank my Family and friends who has supported me on this journey. I just wanna thank Mr. Allen, you guys won;t know him, but he was that teacher at detention who really pushed me and made me who i am today, i mean who would have know that because of a detention i would be recieving an award tonight. And A most of all i would love to thank my fans, You guys have been truly amazing throughout the yearsm you have supported e through it all and i want to thank you all, because i probably wouldn't of been here tonight if it wasn't for you guys, I love you, and Thank you!" I said grinning raising the award in my hands before moving away and heading back to my seat.

A assisant helped me down the stairs.

Which they really hadn't to do.

I wore A a long flowing dress that covered up my pink converse well.

when i got back to my seat i was showered in kisses by Trishaun who sat next to me, followed by my dad and Carla.

"You did great sweety, i actually thought you were about to cry." Carla laughed and kissed me.

"I was, i swear. it's just that i remembered how much trishaun treathened me to take care of her precious master piece of a make up." I said causing them to laugh.

other celebrites congratulated me.

"Okay people, i want you to help me put your hands together as we bring on the one, the only ROSS LYNCH!" the annoucer, nick cannon shouted causing the crowd to go wild.

Besides me trishaun stood on her seat screaming her lungs out, as the kids all around cheered for ross.

with a weak smile i gave Carla my award to hold as her and dad left to put it away for me.

what i'm still a kid you know.

The intro of his latest hit song Perfect Strangers began playing as the crowd became even more wild.

"How y'all doing, looking find as ever." He laughed throught his microphone.running a hand through his hair. before he began singing.

"OH MY GOD THAT'S MY JAM!" Trishaun screamed over the music haking my viciously.

"Okay, i get it, he's your favorite and not your best friend." I said laughing

"You betcha." she laughed dancing away

"You been lookign at me like you wanted to stay

when i saw you yesterday

i'm not waisting no time i'm not playing no game

I see you

Who knows the secret tomorrow may hold

we don't really need o know

cause you're here with me now i dont want you to go."

"Come on sing with me!" He shouted.

"Maybe we're perfect strangers

maybe it's not forever

maybe intellect will change us

maybe we'll stick together

maybe we'll run away

maybe we'll realize

we're only human

baby we don't need no reason."

I'll have to admit, ross was an amazing musician and singer, always was, but i just think it's what happens to us back then that really hinders me from bring out my through fan girl. I honestly was a fan of ross's work, again always was even when we were back in highschool together, writing for the musical.

Then night went on amazingly and Ross himself won an award.

the people adored him.

After the Award, we went quickly o change clothes for the party.

"Laura, i don't know about you but i plan to get my boggy on." Trish laughed as we made our way to the club.

"Yes, and that's only because your man will be there." I laughed as i tweeted a picture of me.

"Of course girl hell! atleast he's mines. You need to go out tonight find someone to get drunk with, you've been working yourself for these past few, it's time you had some fun!" She said already soundign like she was drunk.

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When we got to the party, it was on full swing, there were so many celebrities here. and it was so packed.

"I don't know about you, but the first thing i wanna do is find Alex, then you can do whatever you wanna do." she said pulling me along.

It was extremely crowed

when we found Alex he was on the verge of being tipsy.

"Baby, the love of my life, my everything, my sexy milk choclate."He said hugging trishaun before kissing her hard.

"argh." I groaned, causing them both to turn o me.

"Don't hate cause you're single." Trish said laughing.

"It's her own fault that she's single, i told you numerous times laur send a pic to a random stranger, it does wonders i tell yah, i mean just look, Kanye watched kim's sex tape, fell in love with her and waited years to marry her. Donald Trump saw melania's nudes, fell in love with her and finally made her first lady of the united states of America, My sister, you never know where your nudes might take you, Suprise A brother today! and that is a miracle coing your way!" He said holding my shoulder with a grin on his face.

I blinked at him numeroush times well trishaun cracked up before telling him to shut up, and flipping him off, before walking away.

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A few hours later i can officially say , i was fully and hardcore drunk.

The Music blast throught the speaker as i danced with no one in particular, my hands in the air as i gyrated my waist.

suddenly i felt a presence behind me, tall as hand gripped my waist.

"Mind if I join you." His voice whispered in my air, causing my skin to tingle were his breathe touched, anhis fingers traced my bare skin.

"No i do not." I giggled. trying to see his face but his hold on me plus the darkness wouldn't allow it.

Blame it on the liquor or what, but this man had a hold on my had me capitvated even without looking at him.

remembering what Alex said I, began shaking my waist and gyrating against his front.

"You keep doing that, i won't be responislbe for my actions, little lady." He slurred causing me to realize he was probably just as drunk as me.

"Oh yea.." I slurred laughing,i giggle hard.

Who knew i had this part of me?

"Jesus" He breathed hard into my air.

With one strong hold on my hands he began pulling.

"Were are going, can't take the heat?" I laughed as i willingly followed behind him.

"How about we take this somewhere else.would you like that" he said though i couldn't see his face i could see some of his features, strong jaw, muscular, but not over the top muscular.

"Maybe.." I giggled.

Stupid dumb liquor.

Stupid dumb me.

Why are you going?

though i fought in my head something about him pulled me towards him, begged for him.

he guided as stumblingly to a room, it wasn't occupied, or anything.

i kicked off my shoes an jumped on the bed as he followed me.

End flash back

And two months later, i found out i was pregnant for a complete stranger, someone that I probably wouldn't see again. the next morning i had woken up with a splitting head ache and an empty bed.

The only thing I remember after from that part of the night was his tattoo.

I Tattoo on his waist that said

Blondie.