I always feel like I start off with "Okay so,...." And go on and on and on so okay (Got eem ;3) umm.... Yes, happy me I have been updating a little more if you haven't been able to tell.

The reason I've been updating? Isn't really as happy XD

And... This is a little awkward but if you've read the shit in this book you shall know that I am changing schools..... That kind of started a few things.

So umm... One, it triggered a side of me I don't want to be shown as well as a few other things that helped it shine through.

And I am really afraid of tumbling down into a pit that took me two years and a half to crawl out of and even today I am not one hundred percent out.

I don't want to slip back in, because I regret a few things of what I've done. And no, I do not cut myself. If you cut yourself, hey, I won't judge.

I'm always here to help <333

But yeah.... It's been tough to say the least.

Two, I'm happy to go to the school but I am afraid that my friends won't talk to me anymore and call me a traitor for trading schools and not keeping in touch.

Three, I have had no sleep. And let's just say it isn't insomnia, at least I don't think it is, but Uhh... Sleep and I just don't make a good fam.

I've been needing to take anti-stress medicine. What I have is like, I'm in bed and as soon as I try sleeping is everything isn't the way I prefer I have a panic attack.

So I guess you can say I'm afraid of the dark, but it'll just help me make you afraid of me :P

(OH MY GOSH MOM LOOK! A LAME THREAT!)

Four, I don't actually have a fourth I just want to be a greedy little buggy and tell you all my problems so you can deal with it.

And yes mother, I am relying on the Internet to tell me how to live my life. Don't judge me. XD

In all seriousness though, I'm telling you because I trust you. I appreciate you. And if you comment guess what. Imma make anotha one XD

Nah, I love you guys. Thank you for being my favourite Internet peoplez. <3 Love you all gummy bears

(No Amber I will not suck your dick right now)