"Mind if I sit here?" Kurapika appeared by my side, and I gave him a smile.

"Sure." I mean, I don't want to be the bad person if I told him no.

Thinking back to everything, I used to be in love with Kurapika. Now that I've seen this dark side of him, it made me look at him differently. Especially when he killed Uvogin and the number of times he tried to kill Feitan, who had done nothing but save my life.

"By the way, I just want to say that... I'm sorry." He trailed off and I looked at him. "I was driven with revenge that I've said things... I shouldn't had said and umm... I know that I haven't made a good impression lately and I apologize for that as well."

"Umm... it's okay...?" I told him in a more questioning tone.

I mean, I don't really know how to respond to what he's telling me now. 

"What I'm trying to say is, and the reason I'm telling you all of this is because..." His face suddenly flushed red, and he became shyer. "I... I like you Y/n, I've always had."

"W-what?" Was all I could say.

What the heck?

"I-it's embarrassing really, but from the moment I saw you, I fell in love with you. It might be what they call love at first sight, I know it's sounds cringey but, I am telling the truth. I've never really had experience being in a relationship so, forgive me if I say anything that might not be to your liking." 

"Ohh... no, you're doing fine... I think." I told him while thinking the last two words.

I looked at the mirror, where I can see everyone at the back and saw Feitan looking out the window. Ever since I've been with him, I became confused of my feelings. Sure, Feitan saved me lots of times, but that wasn't the reason why I want to be with him.

Wait, I want to be with Feitan? Did I really think that? I mean, I didn't really like him because of the number of times he saved me, I liked him because this is a Feitan x reader book and not Kurapika x reader. Just kidding.

I like him because underneath all of that selfish, mysterious, midget, tough acting, brat is someone who is soft, caring, handsome... handsome, nice and brave little man. I wanted to get to know him more and be with him.

Kurapika is nice and all, but his driven with revenge. I know it's not easy losing your little brother, heck I might even do the same, but everything changes when you only have one enemy in front of you, the zombies.

I still have feelings for Kurapika, getting rid of that is never been easy but if I get to choose between Feitan and Kurapika...

"Y/n?" I snapped out of my thoughts when Kurapika called my name.

"H-huh?"

"I asked if you would like to be my girlfriend? I know it's too sudden and out of nowhere, but I can't wait to make you mine." Kurapika said and I was beyond dumbfounded. "No pressure."

Oh, but I am all pressured! Do you only get confessions when the world is ending? 

"Umm... well, I do like you." I was cut off when he suddenly pulled me into a hug.

"I knew it! I knew you like me!" He said happily.

For some reason, I saw the troupe became disappointed? I saw Feitan and there were... sadness in his eyes?

"What I mean is..." I pulled away from the hug and looked down the ground. "I did use to like you, but now I'm not sure. I think I'd like to mainly focus on surviving the zombie apocalypse first before thinking about these relationship stuff."

"BAHAHA!" Shalnark made everyone jump with his sudden outburst. "You got rejected in college, I don't think you'll be able to get it!" 

I saw Kurapika glaring at him as if his words had hit him, but he quickly closed his eyes and sigh.

"I respect your decision, you did say you used to like me, so I'll wait for the time that you'll like me again." Kurapika smiled at me and I just nodded.

There was a time when his smile would make my heart pound and my whole body crazy. Now, I feel nothing. Is that even normal? I've liked Kurapika for so long and now that I've finally heard what I wanted to hear, I don't feel anything.

"Excuse me for a moment, I'll go talk to Leorio about our next plan." Kurapika said and left. 

I held my heart and try to feel if it was pounding, not really. But the next person who sat beside me did made my heart pound.

"Yo Y/n, Feitan belongs here. There's no space at the back." Shalnark forced Feitan to sit down beside me.

Feitan glared at Shalnark, but didn't complain anyway. I looked back and saw each troupe members taking one whole seat to themselves and I mentally facepalmed.

Are they still shipping me with Feitan?

I looked at Feitan, who was already looking at me and we both looked away. I didn't realize that my hand was still on my chest until I felt my heart pounding. 

Eh? Is this for real? Do I really like... Feitan?

"How you brat?" Feitan questioned and I cleared my throat.

I used to fight with him before, annoy him or even have endless arguments to the point people around us would call us a couples who always fight. Why am I finding it hard to speak now?