September 26 2013
Right now I'm at church, writing away. I thought I should keep my future self updated about the 25, Saturday. Nothing happened, we couldn't go. Except I missed my period so my mom is.asking me questions. I haven't been to church in many years, but my mom thought that I needed God in my life. I don't, I'm just having a baby mother.

She keeps bugging me, asking if I truly love Jason, which I do, she just doesn't believe me. And guess what future me?! I'm going to the doctors so they can say weather or not if I'm having a boy or a girl.

I want the baby to grow up knowing how much I love it. Things are looking pretty weird senice I missed my period. My dad is questioning Jason and my mother is talking to me about the birds and the bees. I'm 17 and she doesn't think I know about things like that.

My life has gotten a lot better senice I moved here. I hope I can live to be old and die pretty, and.peacefully. One day I'll marry, and have another child, and live with Jason. Dreams are the only thing that keeps us alive. Alive. Something we all need to do, live, not die, live, not hate, live, not hide.