I think I finally understand the words of Shim Yun-Hee, my girlfriend... ex-girlfriend who broke up with me two weeks ago abruptly.
"A broken vase is still broken even if you use glue to fix the pieces. You can still see the cracks. A vase like that is of no use to anyone. No one can hide the fact that something is broken and useless even though it is loved or... used to be love"

My mind was numb. I did not know what her words were supposed to mean.
I hated her. I did not understand where she was coming from.

I gave her everything I could ever give her... everything in my power.
I knew she was almost always stressed with her workload and family problems which have been weighing her down. That's why I tried my best to make her forget it...
I've always been bad with expressing which is why I never bothered to tell her about my feelings, but always assumed that she knew how much I loved her by buying her fancy stuff whenever I could, hence we hardly talked about sensitive topics.

Something I knew I did well was... listening...
Whenever she rants, I would keep my mouth shut because, one... it was the safest thing to do and two... I did not know what to tell.

She have always been someone who hardly acted according to her age; she was always mature and her definition of fun was sitting in a corner at the public libray listening to soft instrumental music.

And now... now she was showing me what she meant by the "broken vase".
It just broke me to see her like this. To see that she had no hope left and no will to live.

It just made me wonder how much of a bad partner I might have been to her throughout the time I dated her, although I do know that her actions and decisions are not completly my fault.

Although I am not together with her anymore, I still love her... and I think she loves me back too but it's her insecurities that are preventing her from feeling loved.