Harry p.o.v

I stood over the sink looking in the mirror a razor in hand. All I could think about is that there is something wrong with me.
Me and Draco have been fighting all because he is not acting the same as he used to. He never got mad he always understood and gave me his attention all the time.
Yes I understand he is busy. But he just does not understand what I am trying to say.

Flash back.

"It's the same shit all the time Harry. I am busy okay. And my fainly needs me." Draco said.
"But u used to pay attention to me with them. U said I'm more important and that you don't even like them." I replied.
"Harry I love you you know that." Draco said angerly.
"Why are you mad you said you wont get mad. I even said I don't want to talk about this." I said almost about to cry.
"Well I was not mad but it's always about the attention always the same fucking thing." Draco replied.
I just sat on the couch thinking then said, "you always tell me to tell you my problems and don't wear a mask. But it really seems like you want the to. You are right it always turn into attention. But I just want to feel wanted. You changed the game on me. And I don't like it. You always said I am more inportant, I always asked if I was bothering you. But you said no. You want to talk to me. That I'm more important. But now you don't. You basically don't want me to bother you."
"No I don't want you to wear a mask and I want you to tell me your problems. And j do want you." Draco replied.
"Well then act like it. You always yell at me." I said.
Draco breathed deeply and said, "it's always the same dam thing."
"Not in the begging when I tell you my problems. It just turns into it. I said I don't want to talk about it but you told me to you said you want get mad." I said.
Draco just got up and started walking to the door. "What fucking ever I'm tired of your shit." He said.
"We're you going?" I asked.
"For a walk." He replied.
"Love you." I said.
"Yah love you." He answers.
"Love you." I said but he just walked out to leave me feeling even more alone and crying.

Now.

So I decided to wear a mask and just keep my problems to myself. Yes I understand what he says but what's the point in telling some one your problems and they don't listen. It's not attinion it's wanting to feel love.
He used to want my attention when I was doing things but now that it different that I can do that for him but Him not to me. And I basically do what he did. He don't like it.
It just seems like he don't want me.
I try and try and try but he still don't want me. He says he does but he would just ignore me if he has the chance. He has gone two days ignoring me for no reason. And some days he is barly there.
So he does get time away from me he does things without me there. He has texted when he was with freinds and family before and said that he want to that I'm more important. And now it's different.
So why not wear a mask when your not understood and unable to talk about things. I'm only doing what he wanted.
But if he can just throw away attention and not feel guilty what's the point.  I went to bed and began crying just wanting to feel wanted and understood. But no one listens no one wants me.
I just want my old Draco. Maybe the only way to get him is to act happy.
A happy mask always makes others happy. You don't need to tell people your problems and they never know.
Unless of course they use a legeminis on you.
But if Draco don't know I'm upset he won't get mad. He will have nothing to be mad about.

When I woke up dracos was still asleep so I made breakfast.
When be came downstairs he grinned and I smiled saying good morning. Acting as though nothing is wrong.
He responded and I asked the normal questions of how he slept and if he remembers his dream.
Then when he asked me I said no dream and did not sleep good. Though I have sleeping disorder even if I was happy id still not sleep.

Throughout the day I got almsoy no attention from Draco and he never relized anything was wrong. I'd even hint to it and he never said a word about it.
No matter how many cracks are in a mask people still won't relize. Kind of sad to be honest but. It won't go any were if some one relized.
I guess I just got so good at hiding no one can see. Or they still don't care or wanf to see.