a/n: If we are doing a Read for Read please skip this poem. This was more of an emotional rant, not looking for criticism/feedback.

I would like to take this opportunity to welcome back an old friend.
Here it goes. Welcome back, friend.
It's been a while since our last goodbye.
It's been a while since I even let myself think of you.

I'm not welcoming you back with open arms.
How could I after everything we went through. I'm sorry, friend.
You have to take responsibility for the pain you caused.
You have to know I would never want to go through that again.

I want you to know a lot has changed since you left.
I'm not the girl I was. I must thank you, friend.
Because our time together taught me how to love life.
While my time without you taught me how to love myself.

I would like to show you how far I've come.
Granted you give me the chance. Come on, friend.
I'm not sure you'd even recognize me anymore.
I know I wouldn't recognize the girl you knew.

I tried to forget you and everything you gave up on.
And maybe I did for a while. But, friend my question is simple.
Are you truly here to stay?
Because I could never face the pain of losing you again.

My forgiving heart will yearn for your return.
It'll believe 'friend' will inevitably turn to 'lover'.
Trusting you without hesitation.
In hope of finding a happily ever after.

My new found sense of judgment will beg for me to reconsider.
It'll remember the way you once deceived me.
Unable to trust your intentions.
There's no such thing as happily ever after!

My intuition has me questioning why even the thought
of your return has sparked something within me.
As if I was numb all this time. 
Suddenly feeling alive again.

Surely I'm getting ahead of myself.
For now I'll say: Hello, welcome back old friend.
You were missed but not forgotten.
I look forward to the fated chaos ahead.

Yours,
Evangeline.