My dad has two kids with my stepmom
I haven't seen them in over three years

My brother turned 6 this month
My sister is turning 4 this year.

My dad has manipulated them. That I didn't care. That I was the one who left them because I hated them

They don't know I exist, at least not in a good way

It's my fault
It's my fault for not staying
For not fighting back
For not going there
For putting my mental health over them having a brother
For giving up

I have so much love to give, but it doesn't matter anyway

They probably hate me, and that's good
They should
How could you not hate me if you were in their position? I deserve it