How could I ever be so dumb?
Think that anyone would ever love me
How anyone would ever want to stick with me

Maybe I don't deserve it
Maybe I just don't know
Maybe I'll never understand

But I'll never understand how I could believe that
All these lies
All these stories
How could I be so dumb and believe them

The words
The art
The books
They're the only ones who get me

I'm sorry
Sorry to my pillow for soaking you in so many tears

Sorry for my blanket for making it hide me
Sorry that it had to watch so many things

Sorry to my mirror, for that I hate it so much
Just because of who and what I see when I look at it

Sorry for my phone for making it take these bitter words
Word for word, I keep on typing until my soul is calm again

My mind and body are like an ocean
It's all seems calm and pretty
Until one thing drops in and every wave starts hitting, harder and harder and harder
Until it's a storm and no longer a calm, pretty ocean
But a death trap for anyone who dare to come near it