It's been almost four months since Hayley has kidnapped me and forced me to go into labor with my sweet baby boy Noah.  I am now a vampire.  Scary thought.  It's been harder on me than I had expected it to be.  I sometimes lay know bed for days on end and don't move.  I never really understood what I was getting myself into.  I know that I had wanted this.  I practically begged Klaus a year ago for this. I just never knew how hard it would be to adjust.

       Hayley is no longer a problem for us. As much as I want to be happy that she is dead.  I just can't be.  Hope is now without her mother.  I have been there taking care of her. I just know it will never be the same.  Klaus ripped her heart out right knee front of me as I woke up from my death.  He seems fine but I know deep down he is mad at himself for it because it will only make hope upset with him when she's older. 

          Today I feel as if I can move around more.  I can get up and at least step out on to the balcony of my room.  Enjoy some of the sunlight. It never occurred to me that I would need a ring to walk around in the day time.  I'm not much of a jewelry person. I so wish I could take it off. But I don't want to burn to my death in the sun. 

        I hear footsteps behind me as I soak know the warmth of the sun.  I don't even look behind me.  "I see your up today love. " I hear Klaus say.

           "Best day I have had so far. " I admit to him as he walks up behind me and raps his arms around my shoulders.

        "Glad to see that. " he says as he gives me a small gentle kiss on the back of my head.

        "Will it get better? It's been four months. " I say to him.  All I want is to feel better.  Feel more like me.  That shouldn't be to much to ask for.

         "Life is what you make it love.  If you want to get better, you make sure that you get what you deserve " he tells me.  With that being said I turn and and face him now.  Our faces barely an hunch apart.  I swallow a small lump in my throat before I say that words that I am not sure if I should say.

         "Then marry me.  Now. " I say nervously. We have been engaged for a whole now.  With everything that happened we haven't really discussed anything about our wedding.  I need to be Mrs. Mikaelson.  That way I know for sure that he just won't go anywhere. 

        "Love, I would so adore to marry you this very moment. But I know that you deserve the proper wedding. "

         "So when is that? A month from now? Two years? Two decades?" I day to him with more anger than I had hoped would come out of my mouth. 

       "I understand your upset.  I promise I will marry you.  " he tells me as he kisses me on the forehead.  He starts to walk away.  I just couldn't let him do that.

        "you don't get to do that this time Klaus.  You don't get to walk away with vague answers and expect me to be content.  I need to know that you do truly love me. " I say to him sounding as confident as possible. 

        He stops in his tracks. He hesitated for a moment before he turns around and walks a couple of steps back towards me.

         "I know I have been very distant and short with you love.  But that doesn't mean that I don't love you. " he tells me.

         "Then what does it mean? Because from what I'm getting is that your feelings are not what your mouth is saying. " I boldly admit. 

        "Jade." he says to me.

         "Don't you dare Jade me right now.  I deserve awnsers. Remember you said I have to take what I deserve.  I'm doing that now. So come on Klaus,  tell me. " I say with anger.  This point I'm getting annoyed.  I just need to know.  If he doesn't want this then I can so happily take my kid and go my separate way. 

        "I'm scared.  Is that what you want to hear? That I fear once I marry you,  that you and Noah will no longer be around.  That your affections will fade.  Is that what you need? To know that I actually fear something?" he yells. 

       I swallow the lump in my throat and walk towards him.  I couldn't speak a word.  All I could do was plant my lips upon his and give a passionate kiss. 

          "I needed it. I got what I deserved. I love you Klaus. "

         He looks down at me with a tear coming from his eye.  I wipe it off his cheek.  I kiss him knew more time. 

           "I'm in love with you. "