Zhan was in his room sitting on his bed with his head in his hand thinking about what had happened.

He looked at his hands that were shaking and they were shaking because Zhan had this urge to use these hands to rip those people apart who had the audacity to blame him, raise their voice at him.

He was the alpha, he was a special alpha superior to them and he should be treated like god...Zhan once again closed his eyes and shook his head as he did not like his thought process.

Why the hell was he thinking like that? Why the hell were the thoughts like these coming to his mind and why did he find them so hard to control.

These thoughts were like drugs and forcing himself to not act on his thoughts was making him feel like withdrawal and this scared him so much.

Yibo who was worried for him, came to his room only to see him sitting on the bed with his shoulders slumped with head in his hands, Zhan looked tensed, so he knocked on the doot but Zhan did not reply, so Yibo called out his name, "Zhan?"

Zhan still did not say anything so Yibo sighed and walked inside the room carefully.

He came before Zhan and saw him staring at his shaky hand before he slowly took those hands in his hands and sat down before him.

Yibo noticed how cold Zhan's hands were and so he held them tighter and Zhan looke dat him Yibo gave him a faint smile, "you finally looked at me."

Zhan just kept on staring at him and Yibo asked, "hey... what's wrong?"

Seeing hus mate Zhan felt good however, his hands had stopped shaking and he felt rather calm, "nothing wehre were you?"

"I was just checking on Ziyi."

As soon as Zhan heard this he felt a bucket of ice cold warter was dumped on his head the tiny bit of warmth that he felt was gone and his heart that was engulfed with warmth clenched and for some reason anger filled his nerves.

It did not happen before when he had seen his mate with Ziyi, when Yibo was living with Ziyi but why now was he feeling so mad and betrayed alsmost like being cheated on?

Now was different he knew Yibo's reasons and Ziyi's condition then wehre was this anger coming from and why was it taking over all his senses.

Zhan had this urge to take Yibo then and their willingly or unwillingly but he soon came back to his senes and nealry slapped himself for even thinking of forcing himself on his mate.

Not that he can sicne Yibo is a guardian he was nearly as strong as Zhan if not more.

Yibo looked at him and Zhan's silence and the peculiar face expression was making him really worried, "Zhan...hey-"

However before he can even complete his sentence Zhan suddenly got up and took back his hand and walked a little ahead before he said, "I am fine Yibo...If... you don't have something else to say then leave."

Yibo did not expect this sudden coldness he felt like Zhan's words were like cold daggers that pierced his heart, he got up from the ground as well and looked at Zhan but was not able to approach him.

He was stuck at his place and was speechless wasn't he Zhan's mate? so wasn't he suppose to worry about Zhan? And shouldn't Zhan share his worries with him?

Why was he being so distant now? What did he do?

Ever since Yibo killed his parents and others that day he has been carrying this huge burden and guilt that was making it hard for him to breathe his pwn body made him feel trapped and his guilt made him suffocated.

There were only three reasons that he was going ton first was to find the person who made him go corrupt, seconf was Ziyi and the third was to meet Zhan.

Ziyi was the person that he had decided to dedicate his life to her and the other was Zhan, but now that Zhan behaved like this it made Yibo feel like he did something, like he was at fault and the fact that he hurt someone close to him someone he loves once again was making it hard to breathe again.

He can take anything but never the anger of the people he cares about and there were not many left in the world yes can be called a doormat or a pushover but after killing his parents who were his world by his own hands ans ruining Ziyi's life by killing her husband and family as well Yibo had no problem if people he cared about treated him like shit or use him because he thinks that he deserved it.

So he said again, "Zhan... I am sorry If I did something...but don't be like this ...I mean... I... are you angry at me?"

Zhan clenched his fists and said nothing because yes he was mad at him and for a reason that he himself thought was unreasonable but his mind thought that it was correct.

"Look if you are the-"

"Yibo." Zhan said firmly this time he did not turn back to look at him, because he was scared that he might lash out at Yibo or take out his anger at him and then regret it later.

Yibo has been through a lot and the last thing Zhan wants is to hurt him, he would rather die before doing that so he said, "get.out. I want to be alone... please."

Yibo froze at his place, as he looked at Zhan's back, his mouth opened as he wanted to say something but nothing came out so he sighed and said, "I am sorry If I have done wrong...but I am always there if yoy want to talk about it." he said before he clenched his fist and walked out of the room.

While Zhan saw him leaving but did not stop him, once Yibo was gone Zhan took a deep breath and once again sat on the bed thinking about this new problem.

Author's note: So... I just want to say sorry in advance if I am not able to update regularly.

A lot of things are going on in my life and all of that altogether, also I have recently surrounded myself with so much negativity that I have to take some time to become positive again.

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