Christmas.

Possibly my favorite day of the year.

But I guess I would spend that day with my family.

Going back to my hometown was a big step,considering the complicated relationships i have with my parents.

My dad was either hot or cold with me,depends on what situation you find him.

As for my mom..

Let's just say she doesn't think I am the golden child in the family,always comparing me with my bigger sister Marilyn..

Marilyn was always,perfect.

In school,straight A's and also in her examinations about the university she succeeded with such an amazing score.

She is simply everything i have ever wanted.

Beautiful,smart,successful.

That's why my mother gave up on me,knowing that I would never be like her.

That's the problem with my family,they have lowered my self-esteem to the ground,my confidence too.

They think that through that I will get tough and prove them wrong but..sadly I am not that kind of person..

I am that kind of person that takes it so personally and blames my pity self to the end..

I am basically invisible in this family,and only when I mess up they notice me..

Dragging myself out of bed,I wrapped the warm blanket around me,about to go downstairs to get my dinner.

"Now you got out of bed?You do nothing but sleep,eat and then back to bed!Don't you have a big project for your work since you got that promotion?"

Mother as always complaining about my laziness..

"Honey,please." Dad mumbled as he was looking on the laptop,reading articles..

And there we go again.

My mom complaining again and again,and how much i will fail again as my dad either agreeing to let the conversation to end or just shrugging it off..

After eating with a bitter mood my dinner I got back upstairs and rushed into my room,grabbing my phone as I curled up..

But a small smile managed to appear on my lips..

A message from Devin.

Since that day at Mike's place we have grown closer together,even though we have been talking for almost a week now..

We have talked nonstop,getting to know each so much more..

I opened myself to him so much that I am afraid he will get scared and leave..

That always happen.

But he says that no matter the situation,he will try to help and make me smile again.

Having another person talking about that really helps to sooth my pain since Sam and Scott are spending the holidays together.

Hopefully Scott will finally confess to her.

A little buzz from my phone made me snap out from my thoughts..

It was Devin again,sending me funny pictures and memes..

He have become my meme dealer.

Chuckling to myself I quickly started typing..

"Awe thank you for that,I will make sure to repay you."

"No need to,I just wanted to cheer you up a bit from what happened with your folks again.You can always talk to me,you know that right?"

I smiled,but couldn't help but sigh too..

"I just don't want to affect you in a bad way and ruin your mood,but I always tell you what's up,I trust you."

Letting my phone rest on the bed I wrapped my arms around the pillow,hugging it tightly on my weak body as I nuzzled against it.

Slowly closing my eyes,memories from high school started rolling into my mind,making me cling the pillow..

No,no Kat those are bad memories..those are the past..

Feeling my heart racing,I tried to take deep breaths..

Name calling,cyber bullying and also bullying in school,parents and teachers lowering your inner world and destroying it to the ground.

Burying my face on the pillow,small tears started forming on my eyes..

How do you know that these stuff won't happen in your work place too?Not everyone in the company likes you,others want to bury you into the ground,the boss pities your pathetic existence as your friends don't have a choice than be with you..and your parents,even after you showed them what you can do,they still don't believe in you.

Opening my eyes again,the tears escaped,wetting the pillow as I looked with a blank expression at my wall..

The past will always chase me,and I can't avoid it.

Feeling empty and useless once again,I reached my phone,noticing texts from Devin..

"Kathleen Victoria Latrom,your problems are mine too,and what I want to do is solve them and see you happy,you have been through so much,you didn't deserve that!You don't deserve that treatment,you are such an unique person,so precious yet people treat you like shit.I want to change that,I want to give you the confidence you never had,I want you to wake up every day and smile and not wanting to end it.I want you to love your life.Because,Kitty Cat,life is beautiful."

My trembling lips formed a sad smile as I clung the phone close to my chest and exhaled happily..

"Where were you when I was younger and broken..not that I am not broken now just..you know what I mean.."

I stared at the conversation like an idiot and waited for his reply,as his message pop up..

"I wasn't there when you were young and vulnerable,but I am here now.Its never too late Kitty Cat."

I smiled a bit..

"Don't call me that."

"I will call you whatever I like,little kitty cat!"

I softly chuckled,rubbing my cheek against the pillow seeing his message as we kept that silly conversation going for quite a while..

Better that i changed the subject before we could get deep and personal and emotional shit would start to pop up and make the whole situation worse.

But then I guess..

He wants that.

He wants me to tell him everything so he can help.

With another buzz from my phone I snapped out of my thoughts and pressed the message..

Only that..

It wasn't Devin.

"I know you are back home for Christmas,and I want to talk to you,please.Its about us.-Val"