The next day as I walked to my locker I couldn't help but think about what to expect from Jayden. We hadn't talked much since we kissed and I wasn't sure if he was going to think we were exclusive now or not. I hoped we would be. I trusted him with my heart, as much as I hated him at first I surely did not feel that way about him now. 

My heart beat fast against my chest, threatening to burst forth onto the ground in front of me. Sweat was forming on my palms and I had to wipe them on my pants several times to clear away the moisture. Why did I have to be so damn nervous? It was just Jayden, I tried to tell myself. No matter what I thought my nerves still didn't settle. I was just about to turn down the hallway that my locker was located when the urge to bolt rushed through me. So I did. I turned and ran... right into Jayden. 

I thought my heart had been beating fast before, now I was having a borderline heart attack. His gorgeous face was starring down into mine and he was smirking because he knew I was nervous as hell. I tried to smile at him and act as if I didn't just turn around and try to run away from where I figured he would be waiting for me. Look how well that plan turned out for me. 

He lifted his hand and stroked my cheek while staring at me intensely. I had a feeling he was trying to make me more nervous, he was the type of guy to love making girls nervous or tense. As I stared back into his emerald green eyes I couldn't help but feel comforted by them, I wanted to be wrapped in his arms. There was only a mere three inches of space between us and that was just too much for me. 

I stepped forward, closing the gap between us and lifted my head slightly so I was still looking into his beautiful eyes. His smirk only widened as he bent his head down to kiss me. It was soft, not rough and desperate as it had been the night before. I enjoyed the gentleness of it because I had never expected Jayden to be the gentle type. It sounds bad but I always pegged him as the rip your clothes off and throw you on his bed type. 

"Hi." He said softly against my lips. I didn't want him to stop kissing me but I could sense people staring at us and assumed he could too.

"Hi." I said back smiling at him. Remind me why I had been nervous again? What was so nerve wracking about this? Nothing at all actually. 

"Did you dream of me last night?" He said cockily pulling his face away from mine and wrapping his arm around my shoulder. I blushed at all the people staring at us, was it really that much of a shock to them? I mean how often did they see us together these days? Wouldn't they have expected this to happen?

"Nope." I said confidently.

I had no idea if I had or not. I rarely remembered my dreams. He led me around the corner that led to my locker and kept his arm firmly around me, guiding me out of the way of people. 

"I think your lying." He whispered to me softly. It sent a chill down my spine which caused him to chuckle slightly. 

"I am not lying." I pouted as we reached my locker.

Amanda and Cali were standing there chatting with Jason and Alex. I wondered when Alex and Amanda would finally just get together and call it a day. They had been going on dates for weeks now but still weren't boyfriend and girlfriend. 

"Don't listen to her Jayden, if she says she isn't lying she probably is." Alex said flashing me a smile to alert me that he was totally kidding. I rolled my eyes and laughed at his stupid joke. I'm not a liar, and if I was lying about dreaming about him I wouldn't know because like I said I never remember my dreams.

Later that day after school we were all planning on going to a movie together. Considering the last time we went to a movie it was extremely awkward because I hated Jayden, I was really looking forward to having a good outing with my friends. This time we were going to see Thirty Minutes or Less which had one of my favorite actors in it, Jesse Eisenberg. I spent the majority of the ride to the Princess Theater bugging Jayden by talking with Cali about how much I loved Jesse Eisenberg. 

When we arrived at the theater I could tell that Jayden was throughly annoyed by my gushing about the actor. I pulled him aside before going into the theater and gave him a long kiss that I might have enjoyed to much. When I regretfully pulled away from his lips he looked a bit shocked by my boldness. I smiled up into his dazzling green eyes and sighed deeply. 

"Don't worry Jayden, your probably a much better kisser then Jesse Eisenberg anyways."

"Probably?" He growled, before smashing his lips against mine again. I leaned against the wall for support and let him push himself against me until there was no space between us. Without even realizing I was doing it my hand snaked up into his dark hair and grabbed on tightly, the yanking made me moan slightly against my lips. He tickled my bottom lip with his tongue asking for entrance, I of course allowed it. 

"Ahem." I heard to the left of me. Unwillingly I pulled my lips from Jayden's and looked at who was interupting us. "Are you guys going to make out or are you coming to see this movie?" Cali said with raised eye brows. 

"Coming." we both said with huge grins on our faces. He slipped his hand into mine and we followed Cali into the theater. 

Our small group of friends were waiting in line at the concession, we got several rude glares as we cut in front of people to join our group. Amanda and Alex were holding hands, bickering cutely about the difference between margarine and butter and how they both tasted on popcorn. I really wanted them to just make it official already!

"Delanie?" Jayden said from beside me. I snapped out of my thoughts and looked up into his concerned face. "What are you thinking about?" 

There was no need to lie about what I was thinking about but it would be really weird to just blurt it out loud. Amanda would probably kill me if I did. I smiled at him and darted my eyes down to Amanda and Alex's intertwined hands and hoped he would get the idea. He nodded knowingly and smirked at me. We all agreed a long time ago that they should just ask one another to be exclusive but it never happened. 

Thinking about Amanda and Alex not being exclusive when they should be made me think about Jayden and myself. Here we were doing the exact same thing as they were, holding hands and going on dates but we still weren't actually 'together.' I wanted to be. I wanted to be the girl that tied down the player and made him faithful. Jayden wanted to be, I could tell he did, but maybe he was just nervous because he wasn't use to actually being somebody's boyfriend.

To my disappointment the thoughts of Jayden and I not actually being a couple haunted me throughout the entire movie. I couldn't even enjoy it because I was too busy be cautious about where my hands were and if I was leaning to close to him. I knew that he liked me but I didn't want to come across as clingy and scare him away. I always over think things, I hate it so much.

"What, no comments about your favorite actor?" Jayden nudged me as we drove back home. 

I smiled a weak smile and shook my head. Bugging him about it had been really fun earlier but now I was just too worried about making him mad and not talking to me. Why is it that my brain has to be such an over analyzer? How could he not see that something was wrong with me? Couldn't he feel the sadness and panic radiating off of me? It wasn't until we pulled into my drive way and he had shut off the car that he commented on my behavior.

"What's wrong?" His eyes bore into my own, trying to dig out an honest answer. 

"I feel like a hypocrite." I said boldly, I even nodded my head to make myself seem more firm. 

"Why is that?" he chuckled while tucking a piece of hair behind my ears. I pulled away at his touch and this made his face wash over with hurt. It broke my heart to see him look like that, but I just didn't want him to touch me. Not unless he was really interested in actually being with me. I didn't want to just be his make out toy like I had been with Josh, that didn't turn out so well for me last time. 

"We bug Alex and Amanda about not being a couple even though they act like one, when were the exact same way Jayden." I spoke quietly not wanting to look him in the eyes. The way I said it seemed a little selfish so I was surprised when a smile broke out on Jayden's face. Then he started laughing, a genuinely happy, ecstatic, excited laugh, what was so funny?

I felt tears start to burn in my eyes. Why was he laughing at me? Coudln't he tell that I was quite upset about the fact that we weren't a couple? After everything I knew about him I still gave him a chance and then he laughed in my face when I basically told him I wanted to be more then just friends. I did the only thing I knew how to do run.

I laughed with happiness. Joy. Exhilaration. She wanted to be with me? After all these weeks of trying to show her that I was a really nice guy she finally gets it. I wanted to scream at the top of my lungs because I was so happy. Delanie Swift finally wanted to be mine. After weeks of wanting her so badly, of craving her and lusting her, she finally wanted me back. Then why was she bolting from my car. 

Instantly I ceased my laughter and threw open my car door. She was fiddling with her keys at the door, her hands were shaking and I could see tears falling down her face. But why was she crying? Oh, duh. Maybe I shouldn't have laughed so hard. I ran to her and wrapped her in my arms. She struggled and tried to get away. She screamed through her tears, telling me to get off of her but I wouldn't allow it. 

"Delanie calm down. Just listen to me." I whipped her around and hugged her as tight as I could. She sobbed into my shoulder and I felt horrible for making her cry, it was all a misunderstanding. "Babe shhh." I tried to calm her. "Listen to me baby please."

"Don't call me that, you don't even want to be my boyfriend!" She tried pushing me away again but I was too strong for her. 

"I do Delanie, I wasn't laughing at you. I was laughing because I am so happy that you finally want to be with me." Her whole body stopped trembling in that moment. I loosened my grip and pulled her back to look into her beautiful blue eyes. 

"Really?" she sniffed. I smirked and wiped away her tears, the tears that she was crying because of me. 

"I'll never forgive myself for making you cry Delanie, but I think I can try to make it up to you." Her blue eyes were still shining with tears, it was the saddest thing I had ever seen in my life. "Be my girlfriend?" She never answered my question, but I guess the way she pulled me in to kiss her was answer enough for me.