<Wednesday, 5:15 pm>

Other people began to filter in and out of the apartment at the night went on. Dallon popped up to give Tyler a hug and goodbye before he moved to New York. Debby and Rafaela hung out for a little while to announce that they were engaged.

Jenna called Tyler to say merry Christmas, resulting in an emotional explanation about what happened at the water tower. Patrick called too, thanking him a second time for saving Pete.

Josh and Abigail's parents showed up at around six for an hour and didn't speak a lot, but they bought Josh with an electric drum set and an apology card.  Tyler suspected they made up, because Josh was grinning long after they left.

They exchanged gifts, ate and drank a bit too much, and played Monopoly at least seven times before Abigail lost her mind and flipped the board. Everyone had dispersed not long after. Chris and his girlfriend Diane were asleep in the next room, and Nick and Millie had gone to her apartment.

"You regret trying to clock out early yet?" Josh asked, handing Tyler a mug of hot chocolate and sitting beside him on the floor mattress they were sharing.

"Every damn day, babe." Tyler tucked his feet under himself, leaning against Josh.

Their shoulders touching, Josh turned his head to kiss Tyler gently. Tyler deepened the kiss immediately, all his leftover fear and anxiety melting away. He placed one hand on Josh's chest, blinding setting his hot chocolate onto the nightstand.

"God, I missed you so much," he whispered.

Josh smiled against Tyler's lips. "I missed you too."

They shifted their positions so Tyler straddled Josh and Josh had his hands settling on Tyler's stomach under his shirt. Tyler wrapped his arms around Josh's neck, grinding his pelvis down. Josh breathed out a moan, gripping Tyler's hips tightly.

"F- fuck, Tyler," he threw his head back and bucked his hips up, making Tyler lose his mind.

They froze when they heard the door to the bathroom open and close. Tyler smacked his hand over Josh's mouth, both of their hips stalling.

After ten minutes, they both let go of their breath. Tyler dropped his head into Josh's chest and let out a sigh of release. "That was close."

Josh let out a barking laugh and pulled Tyler down to kiss him.

"Make love to me," he whispered.

Tyler pulled away. "Woah. Like, right now?"

"Like, right now."

"O-okay."

Josh kissed him again, softer this time. "Only if that's what you want."

"Dude, I've wanted this since senior year, don't cockblock me now. Your place?" He asked.

Josh nodded. "If you can last that long. Abby's staying the night Debby and Rafaela's."

Tyler smiled and nodded, his mind still catching up to his heart. This was really happening. Holy shit, they were really doing this.

The drive to his apartment was the most awkward and tense moment of his life. Partially because Tyler was too distracted by Josh's hand on his thigh the whole drive, and also because Josh decided to blast Arctic Monkeys and if making out with Josh didn't make him excited, the music did.

The car barely stopped before they were both at the door, Josh fumbling with the keys and Tyler fumbling with his belt. Tyler impatiently pushed Josh against the door, kissing him roughly.

"Merry Christmas. Josh Dun," he giggled.

Josh smiled, pulling him closer as he jammed the key into the lock. "Merry Christmas, Tyler Joseph."

"How is it that, even when I'm at my lowest," he muttered, faintly hearing the lock click open but not registering the sound. "You somehow make me feel like I'm on top of the world?"

Suddenly the door swung up and they stumbled awkward into the living room. Josh kicked the door closed behind them. "You tell me, Stanford."

"Not that again," Tyler chuckled breathlessly.

They both kicked their shoes off, avoiding as many obstacles as possible. Josh hit the corner of the coffee table with his foot. and took a swan dive to the floor, nearly taking Tyler with him. Tyler laughed as he helped him back up, kissing him over and over.

"Ow, that is not what I thought would be sore in the morning," he groaned, grinning.

He walked Tyler back into his bedroom, both sitting of them down on the bed. Tyler watched as Josh pulled his shirt over his head, following his actions. They pulled their pants off and Josh crawled on top of Tyler, kissing his shoulders and neck.

"Just a warning beforehand," Tyler breathed, letting out a sigh when Josh ran his hands down Tyler's chest before stopping at the hem of his boxers. "I have never done anything like this before."

Josh kissed him softly. "That's okay. I can guide you if that's what you want."

It was meant to sound sensual and "in the mood," but it just made Tyler smile. Josh settled himself between Tyler's legs. Tyler couldn't help but laugh at the absurd position the two were in. Josh looked up and frowned.

"What?"

"Nothing, it's just- this is insane. We have no idea what we're doing. Like, who's going to fuck who?"

Josh froze. "I- oh shit. Do you want to or..."

"Dude, I have no clue what in the hell we're doing right now."

They made eye contact and bursted out laughing.

"Okay, okay, so. What if I top." Josh tried to keep a serious face, but it only made Tyler giggle more.

"Have you ever before?"

Josh's lips pressed into a thin line. "No."

"So you want to fuck me, someone who's never fucked nor been fucked, when you've only ever been fucked. Jesus Christ, this is the most ridiculous conversation I've ever had with someone."

"Okay so," Josh held up the lube to Tyler. "You want to fuck me?"

Tyler didn't even consider that option. "Uh-"

"Look, neither of us know what we're doing, and we're still horny so someone's gotta do something."

This conversation was so insanely stupid. But it was also one of the funniest things Tyler had ever experienced.

"How about-" Tyler pulled Josh on top of him, Josh bracing himself by planting his hands on either side of Tyler's head. "-you top-"

Josh held his breath as Tyler pushed both of their boxers to their knees. "-and we see how we feel. If we don't like it-"

Tyler hooked his arms around Josh's neck and kissed him. "-then I'll fuck you into next week."

Josh popped the cap of the lube open, the sound sending a shiver down Tyler's spine. Tyler reached into the nightstand drawer for the box of condoms Josh bought.

"I like that idea."