I've already seen this inscription somewhere, it was the day Dazai skipped the meeting to go and pay his respects at a grave, so this Oda was also part of the JNA? He must probably be a former friend of Dazai. On the dresser there is also a note resembling a letter that I decide to open, I don't recognize the writing but it's addressed to Dazai, I start to read "Dear Dazai, everything must seem quite sudden and senseless to you and I'm sorry but I'm just going to write you my last words before leaving because it's probably the last time I'll have one occasion. I have always loved literature, ever since I knew how to read I have read lots and lots of stories of all kinds. The people I knew almost thought I was crazy from reading all day but I didn't care about their reproaches, as long as I could immerse myself in a pleasant story. I was happy. But at the same time, I had my job in the mafia. Behind these magical moments where I immersed myself in beautiful novels I had to kill, even kill innocent people just for money because that's how this world is made, if you don't have money you die . At the time I found it normal or at least I didn't pay attention to it until the day a man changed my view of the world. I had forgotten his name but now that I remember it, I will never forget him again. This man was called Sôseki Natsume and I met him one ordinary day when I was reading volume 2 of my favorite series, I was never able to find the rest but this man gave me the very last volume of the series telling me it was bad but it didn't matter, I had finally found the rest of my series. Unfortunately the last pages were missing, and that's when this man told me I could write it myself. Writing, I had never thought of this alternative, inventing characters to bring them to life, writing their story and their adventures. That made me want it. This is where my dream of becoming a writer came to life. Then I inherited this house which became the landmark of this organization that I created and once the house was renovated I set up my office in the library where I was able to put all my books as well as my notebooks. to write my novels. But my dream can never come true from now on, I stopped killing to be able to write and give life, but after what happened to the child it is impossible for me to be able to create, I no longer deserve to be able to create, These children, it's as if I was the one who killed them. I could never forgive myself for that. As you know, it was me who created the JNA but I never had the plan to make it a super-powerful group that is capable of crushing any enemy, basically I just wanted to create a group where all its members could help each other and count on each other. I don't like the way the JNA has turned out , now this group inspires just terror and its members are just violent and destructive among themselves. But I don't worry about that because I know it will get better thanks to you. Dazai, I entrust the JNA to you. I know that you are capable of putting this group back on the right path because I want you to become someone who saves people. This is where my life ends, I'm sorry I will no longer be there physically to guide you but I will always accompany you in my thoughts. It's a lot to ask but I
Don't want you to be saddened by my death, I want you to be happy that we were able to meet. I wish you good luck - Odasaku"

I'm taking a pause to think after reading this, I don't really know how to react, this man was a close friend of Dazai and from what I understand he committed suicide, then there is this story of the JNA, this Odasaku was the leader of the JNA but he passed the torch to Dazai so that means that normally Dazai is the leader of the JNA? I'm lost even though what the letter was talking about was very clear. De decides to take the letter with me for my report then I inspect the room which is apparently Oda's old room. The bed is well made and as in the library there are books everywhere as well as a few photos of Odasaku accompanied by Dazai or by young children who are undoubtedly the ones Odasaku spoke of in his letter, suddenly I feel a little bad telling me that they all had a tragic end and then, there is Dazai who seems very complicit with this Oda, at least he was. This makes me think of all the times Dazai went to the cemetery to pay his respects at Oda's grave, if only I had known. The room looks rather ordinary but after reading this whole story the atmosphere seems quite gloomy, I search the drawers but nothing special apart from a small diary
"June 14: bring the files to the boss
June 17: buy candy for children
June 19: Dazai's birthday"
Dazai's birthday, he even wrote it down, he probably didn't want to forget it. That year, Dazai celebrated his 18th birthday. Odasaku had to give him a big gift. I find myself smiling then my smile quickly fades. Dazai's birthday is the last thing on Odasaku's schedule. This means that he died shortly after or even before. I sigh, I'll go discuss it with Dazai if we see each other again. I decide to look at Dazai's notebook "Odasaku was my dearest friend, the best friend I ever had to be honest, as you know, he was like my father to me. He asked me to become the new leader of the JNA , and I did. He asked me to be on the side that save peoples, and I did. But, there was only one of his requests that I couldn't grant. I couldn't help to be sad when he left. I can't count the number of days spent thinking about what I could have done to prevent this, to allow him to live a beautiful and long life, because he deserved it, he really deserved it. Probably much more than me. I felt guilty for his death. In reality, I still feel guilty even though I know he wouldn't want me to think that but it's stronger than I can't help but tell myself that if I had been up to it, if I had been there for him, if I had been a good friend, I could have saved him, but I can't I didn't do it."
The more I read Dazai's words the more I feel my heart sink, I have never seen Dazai write such things, I have never seen him so sad. At least that's what I'm trying to convince myself, maybe deep down he always thought of Odasaku and he never got over it. But we may have preferred and I was the first to ignore all this and pretend that Dazai is just Dazai with his suicidal and self-destructive behavior but did we only try to understand where this behavior came from? I have to stop torturing my mind it's too late now, Dazai is no longer in the agency. But when I see him again I would like to have a heart-to-heart talk with him even if it's something I should have done a long time ago.
I continue my mission.