happy reading 

So as I was too curious, I hid the book and read it as soon as Neil left to office. It's Sunday yet he has a Conference today, see even universe wants me to read this diary...

try all you can to justify yourself- again my subconscious taunted,

so, as soon as he left I opened the first page of the diary... 

to find a photo of a beautiful girl in it...

So this is Vedika... 

Today she came to me, well technically to meet Sid...

Those innocent eyes kept searching for something and It didn't take me much to know that it was me whom she was looking for, but before anything I wanted her to be sure about her feelings... because if it's just her mere attraction then I don't want us to get hurt later, I know I like her but...

I still remember the day I saw her all drained walking towards a shelter as she carried a small child with her, initial I thought this might be her kid but she looked too young to be a mother of a small child, that's when I saw another lady walking up to her and thanking her for getting her child who had been lost in hustle bustle...

She pecked the boy and slowly pinched his cheeks and told him to hold his mother's hand never wander off like that, also handed the boy a pack of chocolate.... after they left I saw her looking at the watch and she seemed like she was waiting for someone....

Soon I realised I was just watching her like creeps, I averted my eyes, but my mind kept admiring her actions, As even I was waiting for Sid to arrive, both of us were in Bangalore missing our home badly, I was working well technically doing my internship here as I wanted to be independent from dad, and even dad was with me in this, he always thought us to value what we are having and always ask to make ourselves worth all the luxury we hold , and Sid was doing his college, he had taken my car for repair and has not yet arrived; I took time and again observed the girl, don't she has anyone to pick her up...

Soon I received a text from Sid, asking me to wait for sometime as his friend will also join us, I replied an okay to that, but then I saw a car wait ain't it my car, why is that girl getting in it,

and my doubts got cleared as Sid introduced the girl, whose name I learnt to be vedika, as his friend, and as she was stuck here with no way of transport because of the heavy rain she had called Sid so that he can drop her to her hostel, soon we left to her hostel, and I was like did I just watch my bro's friend like creeps I think my mind has reached gutters, I need to get it back...

Soon days passed, I once again met her, this time I started a conversation, are talks grew, so did our bond, what I liked the most about her was her innocence, but I wanted to be sure of my feelings and hers before getting into conclusions, I knew she liked me but was it anything more?

I don't know what to feel now, is it normal, if I say that I am jealous of her..., No juhi this not right, you had a past and he respected that you need to do the same, But what had happened she seems to be a good girl, I mean I could very well relate to her, with that thought I decided to read the diary ahead......

As I reached the last page a long tear left my eyes, he had gone through much more than what I have, at least I had a closure on my matter, Aravind was courteous enough to tell me, what he had thought of and how all he had done was just toying me for his so-called revenge,

 but with him, they decided to get married, and she just backed off the same  day when sid and he had arrived at the registrar with just a call, how could she have done that, I don't, I can't believe she could do that, from this account what I had got to know was she never knew about his financial status, and yet she loved him, proposed to him, everything went smooth, she was the one who suggested that they had to get married because, her parents back home would never agree for this alliance, though Neil, was against this both sid and vedika was able to convince him, if everything was as per her will then why did she back off at the last moment,

I can't even Imagine his condition at that time, when you have taken a strong step to be in a committed relationship like marriage, the dreams you have built, everything might have just drowned that day, being through a break-up myself I know it's intensity, but this is just brutal...

No, a girl could have never done that, there is something more to this, She doesn't seem to be someone who could cheat someone and what was the motive, what did she gain by this...

As I was about to close the book my eyes went to the last page were something was bulging up, and then I flipped the book to see my photo their with, and their was these writing written in that page and my hope shattered as I read those lines...

" today I met her, she seems to be exactly like her, I can like her but will I ever be able to love her??"

those words hit me hard, he hasn't moved on from vedika, he still loves her ...

you know what hurts more than your husband never loving you, it is this fact that he loves me because I share some traits of her of vedika, he loves me thinking I am someone,

I am hurt , hurt badly.. but I decided to not be weak this time, maybe love is not for me, but I want him to get the love he deserves, I am ready to let him go, if they were meant to be together then I am no one to stop this, It's better I leave before, the situations get worse; I know it's gonna be tough for me but I know; I love him enough to let him go to let him be happy; I have to find about vedika, I don't think she would have done that, there is some sort of misunderstanding.

I promise to get your love, love; I wiped off my tear with a firm determination.

so guyss how is the chap..

how did you find Neil's past, so he had gone through something realy bad...

and what about juhi's decision...

do you think Neil will let her go?

curious...

you need to wait till tuesday for the next update..

till then do check out my new book, I am sure you guys are gonna love it

till the next time we meet

take care, stay safe

love sreeku