[ANOTHER VERY LONG CHAPTER.

SOO NOT EDITED.

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Cara's POV

It was perfect.

No, it was more. Much more.

It was like kissing him for the very first time.

Life fire exploding within my bones. Like my soul had finally found its peace. And that every part of me that was dead, came back to life again.

The movement of our lips took a short pause, our eyes connected, no words were uttered, yet our eyes were lost in a deep, very deep conversation.

His were darker, full with need, full with so many unsaid emotions while mine was melting due to his intense gaze.

The only voice my ears registered was the hard pumping of our hearts. The ones we once thought were broken, but together they seem to unite as one, their broken edges fit together like nothing else.

He lowered his head and took me again, i wanted more, i needed more.

But the moment his lips left mine and traveled to my neck, the moment when I didn't see his eyes anymore, is the moment where my body acted against my own well.

Is when so many unwanted memories came rushing back, with so much force, penetrating through every part of me deepening the wounds more.

He was going gentle and my heart knew he'd never hurt me.

But my brain screamed for me to listen, my brain pulled away before my body did.

Because my brain knew, he was always gentle at first.

But Alex is not him. He is nothing like him. My heart whispered brokenly .

But I couldn't seem to listen.

Because when his hand traveled way down, when it reached my pants, i lost it all.

My breathing fastened, I wasn't feeling Alex's hands anymore, no i was feeling his, and that did something to me, that hit me so hard and left me unconscious from inside.

"No." I whispered as i felt the tears forming in my eyes.

I placed my hands over his head and i pushed him away. I just wanted him to stop, i cared less about anything else.

I felt him pull away, my accelerated heartbeats took a short pause, i brought my hands and covered my face, ashamed maybe, "I can't - please don't continue."

I didn't hear if he said anything, i was in a war with myself trying to take over and not let a mere memory let loose of my brain.

I felt his hand around my face before he helped me sit down again. I heard him calling my name.

I covered my face again, i kept my eyes closed, my head casted down, I didn't want to look at him, I don't want him to see this part of me, the tainted part, the ruined one, the disgusting one.

I no longer felt his hands around my face, i no longer felt his warmth.

Did he finally see me the way i see myself sometimes, did he see that i will be no benefit for him, that i am so broken to even move on.

Sometimes, i feel nothing, but other times, they all come rushing back, so hard, too fast to be stopped and i drawn in this dark pit again.

A loud thud pulled me out of my trance, I lifted my head up, i opened my eyes to see Alex's fist collide with the car's window.

The glass cracked, so he hit it again, and again. My eyes widened as i saw the blood over his knuckles, every other thought fled away, i immediately stood up, my hand wrapped around his arm to stop him, "Alex !"

At the sound of my voice he stopped, his breathing heavy as he slammed his hand over it one time before he looked away, away from me.

His palm pressed over the cracked window, i stood just right beside him, i titled my head to have a better look at his face. His jaw tight as he closed his eyes and casted his head down. My heart stuttered as i saw the single tear that trickled down his cheek.

My lips parted but nothing came out, my gut twisted painfully, I didn't know what to even think at the moment.

How do i keep hurting him like this, intentionally or not, i keep on killing him over and over again.

I felt myself inching closer, I stood between him and the car, my hand went to his cheek as i turned his face to me. The muscles of his jaw relaxed underneath my palm before he opened his eyes.

I swallowed hard and gulped in air, tears welled up in my eyes again at the pain that reflected from his.

Another tear fell and trickled down his cheek.

My heart shuddered within my chest, tremors seared into me; hot and cold, they went down my spine ripping through my limbs.

A subtle convulsing shook my chest pushing me to bring my shaking hand up as i tried to wipe his tears dry.

"It's okay." I whispered. I gasped for breath to ease my convulsing lungs.

Clenching his jaw, he shook his head, "It's not." He said, the rage in his voice was indescribable.

I nodded, "I am okay."

Lie.

Big fat lie.

I am way far from okay.

He shook his head again, "You are not." Grinding his teeth, his voice raised, "Fuck Cara didn't you see what just happened, you are not okay !" He added slamming his hand against the window beside my face.

I flinched and involuntary closed my eyes. His raging breath was filling my ears, he was beyond angry, and i've never saw him like this.

I slowly opened my eyes again, his were casted down, his hand no longer pressed against the window as he tiredly rubbed his face before raking his shaking hand in his hair, his fingers tightly wrapped around his light brown locks.

"I am sorry, i just couldn't do it now, i-" I couldn't give him what he wanted now. I would've drove myself to the edge, I would've sank in the darkness again.

At my words, he lifted his head and met my eyes, his eyebrows furrowed together, "You think i care about that !" He shook his head, "The fuck with that, I don't care, Cara i just - i fucking can't wrap my mind around it, I can't even - " A scream threatened to rise and interrupt his words, he was furious and i can see it, he let out an angry groan before he slammed his hand against the window again, "Fuck !"

"Please calm down." I said, I couldn't see him like this.

"I can't." He shook his head before he kicked the wheel of the car with his his feet, he snapped, "I fucking can't !"

Seeing this part of him for the very first time scared me a bit. When he looked back at me, at the fear that reflected off my face, his raging eyes softened for a bit, he brought his hand to my cheek as he tried to wipe my tears away, he weakly said, "I am sorry."

He closed his eyes as he face inched closer and our forehead pressed against each others, his hand traveled to under my ear and his thumb gently stroked my cheek, his chest heaving with every breath he took.

"I just - i just can't believe it." He said, his voice low and a bit hoarse. My eyes were still opened looking at him, and even with his eyes closed, the pain was imprinted all over his features.

Nikolas ruined me, that's true. But what he doesn't know, is that he ruined Alex too.

He opened his eyes and took in a long deep breath, his hand still cupping my cheek, genuine concern filling his voice as he asked, "Why - why you didn't tell me ?"

My gaze dropped down, "I couldn't."

I didn't want you to see me like this. I didn't want of you to think i am disgusting, that i was touched by other man. No, not just one man.

I couldn't let you know that he let one of his men punish me, take me against my well, and one time he made him hit me.

That he mercilessly took me after, played me and I didn't stop him, because the less i fought, the less painful it was.

I just didn't want you to see the weak me. The words clogged my throat, but they never made it out.

So i brokenly whispered as i tried to pull away from him, "It wasn't easy."

I felt his fingers travel to under my chin before he lifted it up, his eyes softened more, "Why he did this to you ? I don't understand why ? All Just because of a stupid deal ?"

I shook my head, I didn't notice i was actually crying again till i felt the wetness over my cheeks, "He said the deal was just a way for him to get what he wants."

The rage came back to his eyes, "What the fuck does he want ?"

"Revenge." I simply answered.

"For what ? What in hell is your fault ?" He said, bewilderment behind his words.

I shrugged, I don't know. "He said his purpose is not hurting me but --hurting those who ruined his life."

At that all the softness his eyes held suddenly went away, his hand left my face, he furiously ran it over his jaw, he looked away as his hand traveled to the back of his neck, his teeth digging in his lower lip before he bitterly muttered, "I don't care who ruined his life before because now i will. I will make him pay for everything !"

His words held a promise, a one he looked so intent to keep.

And that scared me even more.

He ran his hand over his face before he looked back at me, it was obvious that he is trying his best to regain control and calm down.

My eyes traveled to his bruised hand, i swallowed hard before i took it in mine and inspected it, my fingers ran lightly over his bloodied knuckles before i met his eyes again, "Look what you did."

He shook his head and pulled his hand away, "I feel nothing." He said, "That doesn't matter, I don't matter."

But you do Alex. You matter.

"What matters now is you." He added.

I fidgeted with the hem of my shirt, my eyes looking anywhere but him as i said, "Will you see me differently from now on ?" I don't want him to pity me or treat me as if i am glass and he's afraid i may break.

I am not that strong, i know, but i am trying to be. I am trying to fight the demons who ruined my inside and i am trying to take over and regain my control.

For Lilly, for this child i am carrying, even for Alex, i have to be strong.

"What ? No no - of course not." He said, my gaze drifted back to him, the anger was slowly fading away, but i know it is still lurking there, i know he is just trying to not lose it now in front of me.

He brought his hand and removed the hair from over my face before his arms went around me pulling me to his chest.

I held into him as he hugged me tight, "I am so sorry." His voice hoarse as he whispered those words to me, "Please forgive me."

My eyebrows furrowed and I directly shook my head, "It's not your fault." I said in his chest.

"I was your husband for god's sake, i was supposed to take care of you, i was supposed to protect you not - not the other way around."

I shook my head again, "You didn't know."

"I should've known." He sounded helpless.

I pulled away then brought my hand and held his tightly in mine, i looked him in the eye, "I don't blame you for anything. I started this, it's my fault, I should've had faith in you and stayed."

He shook his hand, "It's not your fault, none of this is, you didn't have a choice, now i see it clearly, you did what you thought was the best for us.

Cara you cared less about yourself to protect us, I really can't understand how you can be that strong." He shook his head, "I don't even have that strength, the scars over my arm say it all."

"Don't say that."

He shook his head interrupting my words, "Pain changed me, it ruined me, and i couldn't fight it. But you, you said Nikolas broke you, no Cara, he didn't, no one have that kind of power over you." His words so genuine, he was restoring the faith i had for myself, "Because even after everything that have happened, you are now here standing and trying to fight.

You are the best mother Lilly could have, you are a great friend. You still smile, you still laugh and you keep on stealing my heart with every passing second."

He smiled and my heart pulled itself together, "You are not broken -" he shook his head, "Instead you are breaking through. You are breaking through life and through every damn obstacle."

"It's true you have few cracks here and there in your stubborn mind." He said, his tone playful, i chuckled at his words, his eyes melted as if the sound of my laugh soothed him, "But i know how to handle them."

He brought my hand up and left a kiss over it, he was the one talking whereas i was silent, speechless, "I promise that i won't let anyone ever hurt you again." He said, "Neither would i."

"I will make you forget everything that have happened. I will make it up for you, i promise."

I don't understand how he can do this, how he can change my whole mood in a mere second, how he can flip my thoughts from negative to positive.

How he always distort everything in my life, how he searches for my smile in the deepest part of me and how he easily pulls it out.

This man had ruined me in the most beautiful way possible.

And I would want him to ruin me more.

He held my face in his hands and pressed his lips over my forehead, "I will bring my feisty girl back."

I smiled and nodded, "You only can do that."

He smiled back, he blinked before he lifted his face and looked up at the sky, my eyebrows furrowed and i looked up as well.

What is he looking at?

"What are you doing?" I asked as i looked at him.

A beautiful smile crossed his lips, "Wishing upon the star above."

I couldn't hold my chuckle at that, he is so cute sometimes like i want to eat him or just like pinch his cheeks.

Wait -- what did i just say ?

He looked back at me, i raised my eyebrow, he chuckled, "I am kidding, i think i felt a drop of rain fall, it's weird, it's still not winter yet."

At his word i felt a drop of water fall over my face as well, I blinked and looked up, "You are right."

"Hey but what's wrong in that, let's wish upon the star." He said ever so seriously.

I shook my head, "This is no fairytale." I said as i looked at the dark sky with few stars lightening here and there, "There is no magic in this world."

"You are right but -" i looked back at him, "But I believe our love is stronger than any magic."

I smiled, he is so cheesy in an adorable way that softens my heart, "Is it actually that strong ?"

He nodded, the beautiful smile still over his lips, "It survived through everything, didn't it."

He is right, it did.

"Not even death was able to break it." He added before he placed his arm around me.

"So nothing else can." I added. Not even Nikolas can.

He opened the car's door for me to enter, but I couldn't help but sneak a look at the sky before.

I couldn't help but stupidly wish upon the star above.

I shook my head with a smile at that silly thought.

Even though, I couldn't turn off how right were his words. Our love is strong.

There is really a powerful magic when two hearts are one.

I was never more hopeful to what lies in store. I am not scared, not anymore.

My eyes traveled to Alex, he gave me a questioning look, i bit my lip and felt the need to say, "I love you."

He smiled and pulled me closer, "I love you too."

Now i know, no, i am sure that our love will withstand the battle that's about to come.

Because true love is -- the most powerful magic of all.

~~~~

Alex's POV

"Answer the goddamn phone !" I hissed as the line went off and he didn't pick up.

I was trying to call him since last night and still, the old fool is not even picking up.

I dialed the number for the umpteenth time, hoping he'd pick up this one.

"Hello."

"Finally !" I said, annoyance filling my tone. "I was calling you since yesterday."

"I was kind of busy son." He muttered.

I rolled my eyes, he doesn't have to always remind me with ugly fact that i am his son , "Whatever." I said, "Please do tell me you started working on our deal."

I am growing impatient.

After finally realizing what that fucker did to Cara, I can't even rest. I can't when he is still out there not getting punished for what he did.

I have to kill him.

No, Fuck it, even death he'll have to earn it.

"I did." He said, "I am doing my best don't worry."

"But you are taking so long." I said irritated, "I came to you because I thought you'd do this quickly."

"Alexand-" he cleared his throat, "I mean Alex, i am doing my best, but this shit isn't easy, i am breaking rules for you."

"Since when you care about rules." I snarked, "Didn't you once tell me, that we make rules."

"We do, but not against each other." He said, "You do understand we are starting a war by this."

"We are killing one of them." He added, his voice hardened, "We are killing one of us."

Us my ass.

I never understood this stupid family is not by blood thing.

"So you don't want to do it, if not then-"

"I didn't say that." He interrupted me, "I am just saying we need to be careful."

"Okay. I just can't rest with him free out there." I said with clenched teeth.

"Don't worry son. You'll have him." He said, you can't miss his proud tone, "He'll meet an end so cruel he won't even see it coming."

"That's all i want."

"And you'll get it." He said, "Tomorrow I want you to come to me, to discuss few more things and get you ready."

I swallowed hard, "Okay."

Our conversation got interrupted by the opening of the room's door, i lifted my eyes up to see Anna popping her head inside, she gave me a smile, "Can i come in ?"

I nodded to her, "I'll talk to you later." I said over the phone before i hanged up.

Anna closed the door behind her before she walked in and sat beside me on the bed's edge.

"What happened hot shot ?" She said, her eyes inspecting me. "You look terrible."

I sighed and ran my hand through my hair, "Life happened."

Her hand rested over my arm, "You look so stressed."

I turned to her and shrugged, she smiled and gave me a wink, her hands traveled to my thigh and i ignored that, she tapped her hand over it, "It'll be okay don't worry." She said.

"I hope so." I said. I shifted away from her letting her hand drop off my thigh. If old Alex was here, he would've kicked my ass and told me how whipped I've became.

I scratched my neck, "By the way Anna, you can go back to LA you don't have to stay here, like if you have work and all-"

She frowned at my words, "Are you kicking me out ?"

I chuckled and shook my head, "Well let's face it, I know you are here just because you want to fuck me."

Yeah i am that blunt. But she's that obvious.

She smiled and bit her lower lip, "Is it that obvious ?"

See, i told you.

I shrugged, her smile changed into a smirk as she tucked her hair behind her ear, her eyes held that twinkling look. "You can't blame a girl if you can't be easily resisted."

God, this would've been such an easy lay.

Old Alex is probably cursing me right now.

Like she is not ugly, it's the exact opposite, she is pretty good and those boobs - woah - like damn - like holy sh-

Alex back to earth, back to earth.

Ahem - You got what i mean, but even with that, she doesn't turn me on. Whereas on the other side, just one look from my cupcakes and i get a boner.

Seriously, there is something wrong with me.

I am probably sick.

Fuck.

"But you see i can help you-" she said, her tone, too familiar to me, as she ran her fingers over my chest.

My hand circled over wrist stopping her, my eyebrow raised, "Anna." I said with a warning tone.

She smiled, "I love it when you call my name."

God she doesn't give up easily, does she. Girl just get the message and go.

I cleared my throat and removed her hand away, "This can't happen, you know that."

She fake frowned, "I am not asking you to love me." She said, "I don't do love. It's just a little thing that we can do with no strings attached or whatsoever -"

Old Alex wants to kill me now. I am sure. I can hear him whisper, fuck you.

I shook my head and looked away trying not to fall for her game, her fingers rested over my cheek and turned my head toward her, "I can help you with your problems, with your stress." She added, her eyes fell on my lips then back to my eyes.

Can you get me that fucker ? That's what would relieve my stress.

"Can you make me forget ?" It wasn't even a question, no one can erase how dangerously my life had changed in the last few weeks.

"I can try." She said before i felt her lips over mine.

My eyes widened, I didn't see that coming. I surely didn't mean it that way. My hand immediately went to her shoulder as i pulled away.

But damn wasn't i late.

"Ale-" Cara's word stopped midway when she entered the room and her eyes landed on us.

Oh fuck me.

Of course she'll get the wrong idea now.

I saw her swallow hard, i saw the hurt that flashed in her eyes before she masked it away.

I immediately stood up, "Cara-"

She gave me a blank look, "No it's okay continue, i just need to get my phone." She said before she walked to the counter and took her phone.

Why life hates me so much why ?

I walked after her, "Cara liste-"

She turned me, her eyes widened a bit, "What the hell Alex you have no manners, how you leave a girl like this-" she gave me a fake smile as she looked at Anna, "Go back to her."

My eyebrow raised - What. The. Actual. Fuck.

What is she trying to do now ?

She flashed me another fake sweet smile, she took her stuffs, "I will leave you guys now, sorry for interrupting."

My jaw tightened before I wrapped my hand around her arm stopping her from walking, "Anna can you leave us for a moment." I said without turning to her, my eyes looking only at this crazy girl in front of me.

"Okay." Anna said before i heard her footsteps fade away.

Once the door closed, Cara's eyes fired up, and the whole sweet act dropped, "I will kill her." She said with gritted teeth, she tried to walk away but i pulled her from her arm, "Leave me i will kill that bitch, LEAVE MY ARM !" She snapped before she hit my arm and tried to walk away.

I pulled her back again, "Cupcakes-"

"Where is my gun ?" She said looking around, her eyes fuming, she lost her mind, i am pretty sure, "Leave my arm i said, i want to teach that bitch a lesson !"

I wrapped my arms around her waist and pinned her to my chest, her back pressed against my front as she struggled to get away.

"Stop !" I said beside her ear.

"NO LEAVE ME ! " She said trying to break free but i just tightened my arms around her, "YOU ASSHOLE LEAVE ME." She snapped before she bit my arm - SHE FUCKING BIT MY ARM.

I flinched and she took that as a chance to walk away, i grabbed her again, I couldn't hold my chuckle, "Cara stop."

She looked at me, her eyes raging, "You don't laugh, it's not funny !" She said, she clenched her jaw before she hit my chest, she hit it again, "One day you tell me you love me the other day you are with her !" She snapped, hurt flashed in her eyes and that hit me hard, "What are you trying to do Alex ha ?"

"No no it's not like that listen to me." My hand went to her arm and she pulled away as if she couldn't handle my touch.

I saw tears forming in her eyes. Fuck it.

"Cupcakes listen-"

"Don't call me that !" She snapped. Her glassy eyes shooting daggers toward me.

"I will." I said back with a raised eyebrow, my lips twitched up as i tried to hide my smile.

She narrowed her eyes and crossed her arms over her chest, i inched closer and wrapped my arms around her waist and pulled her to me.

She tried to fight, "Just listen -" i said, "Nothing happened i swear, she probably just misunderstood what i said."

Cara lifted her angry eyes, "Oh really, she misunderstood them over your lips." She uncrossed her arms and placed her hand over my chest to push me away, "Leave me ! You've always been such an asshole."

"God when you're angry and jealous like this, it's so hard to resist you." I said as my hand traveled to her cheek, she immediately slapped my hand away, "I am not jealous !"

I scoffed, "Of course you are not." She never admits it, even when it's clear as the sun.

"You're waking up Alex junior right now." I said.

She glared, "I hope he dies."

I couldn't hold my chuckle, "Who ?"

"Alex junior." She said, ever so seriously, "Like he get cut off or stops working or something just so you can rest."

I chuckled and shook my head, "You don't mean that." She nodded her head, i raised my eyebrow, "How you gonna get laid then ?"

"I don't want to get laid." She snarked.

"Liar." I said, she is crazy, she drives me crazy and that just makes me fall deeper for her.

"Cupcakes believe me I didn't kiss her." I couldn't let her think i would ever touch any other girl but her, "I was pushing her away and then you entered." I said to which she just glared, "She is just a girl i used to hang with for the past two years nothing more, she is just a friend-"

She pushed herself away from my embrace, "Well we were friends and look where that took us."

My eyebrow raised, "No we were never friends, i wanted to pound that pussy since day one."

Her eyes widened and she slapped my arm, "You have no manners !"

A smirk came to my lips, "That's why you love me."

"I don't love you." She said.

I traced my lower lip with my thumb trying to hide my smile, arching an eyebrow, i asked, "You sure ?"

"Yes, i hate you." She answered ever so confidently.

I stepped forward making her take one backward, "Really ?" I asked.

She nodded her head, I took another step toward her, her eyes widened a bit as she stepped backward and her back came in contact with the wall.

I pulled my lower lip between my teeth trying to suppress my smile at her uncomfortable position.

Her eyes fell on my lips and she swallowed hard before she looked back into my eyes.

"What do you want ?" She asked, her voice came low.

"You won't handle what i want." I said, my voice came low too. Oh god, what do i not want would be a better question.

"Who said I won't." She said, trying to sound confident but she miserably failed.

I brought my hand and lightly ran my fingers over her neck and i couldn't hold myself back as i slowly said, "I want to wrap my hand around your throat as my cock slips in and out of you."

She gulped at my words, i felt the muscles of her throat work underneath my fingers, her eyes widened a bit, and heat rushed to her face giving her cheeks a light pink shade.

My fingers traveled to her chin then to her lips as i ran my thumb over her soft lower plump lip. God why i keep torturing myself like this.

"Not so confident now are we ?" I asked teasingly with a wink.

She let a low shaky breath, she licked her lips and i would be lying if i said I wasn't surprised when her arms suddenly went around my neck as she took my lips in hers.

Woah-

Her action startled me at first, Alex junior clapped his hands feeling accomplished and i kissed her back.

My palm pressed over the wall behind her, my other arm wrapped around her waist before my hand traveled up her side over the soft fabric veiling the perfection beneath.

How can she be jealous when i am only hers. When it's always going to be her and no one else.

She should know, she should be sure, I belong to her, heart and soul.

Because i only exist in her presence.

Blood thundered through my veins, my pulse pounding so hard as she possessively kissed me and i devoured her. Nerves rushed as an unfound need crashed through me.

She stripped my sanity, she set me on fire. That's what she always does when those delectable lips of hers touch mine.

Every inch of my body tightened, i was fucking hard. Again.

Fuck.

I kissed her deeper. She moaned and my mind lit up. I pinned her weight to the wall with my hips, i dragged my hand up her arms, unlocking them from around my neck, i grasped her hands and pinned them over her head.

I knew if I didn't stop myself now i would go far. And I didn't want to.

I can't force her, I can't let what happened last night repeat again. She is not ready.

So i slowed my movement before i broke the kiss.

Alex junior screamed at me with frustration but I didn't listen.

I will wait till she is ready, I can't force her. I will wait forever for her. 

For a second, we just stood there, staring, our breath heaved into the thick air.

"You say i am yours right, so you have to put on your mind that you are only mine too." She said, her swallowed lips made my dick twitch harder as they moved.

"I have the right to be jealous." She said, i smiled and nodded, "But you don't need to be."

She bit her lip and i did my best to suppress my groan, "I am selfish, i want you all to myself, is that wrong ?"

I shook my head, "It's not. Because i am only yours."

She smiled, and all I thought about is the possible ways i can take her right here right now.

"Cara come on, i am waitin- ugh you two hormonal adults, get a grip, there is children in this house."

And here goes nothing.

I let an irritated sigh, "Katherine there is a door for you to fucking knock." I said angrily before i turned around to see her standing by the door.

She gave me a smirk, "It's my house, I don't have to knock."

"I can't wait to leave here and never see you again." I muttered before i ran my hand in my hair. Gosh is it suddenly hot or what ? I need a shower, as soon as possible.

She glared at me before her gaze flicked to Cara, "Come on, you don't want to go."

Cara nodded as she tried to fix her shirt, "Yeah yeah - i will fix my clothes then follow you."

Katherine nodded, she gave me a bored look, "I hate you." I muttered.

"I hate you too." She said giving me a disgusted look, "By the way Alex, you have lipstick over your mouth." She added before she left the room.

Cara chuckled lowly as i wiped my lips, she inched closer, "Let me." She said before her thumb brushed over the corner of my mouth.

I kissed her thumb before i asked, "Where are you two going ?"

"We gonna go shopping, i need to get few things for Lilly and me, we don't have much stuffs over here."

I frowned, "Don't go, Katherine is no fun, i tell you."

She chuckled and shook her head, "Seriously, i am way better, i can give you things you can't buy outside."

"Like what ?" She raised her eyebrow as a smirk crawled to my face, i gave her a wink as i sneaked my arms around her waist, "Something that starts with org and ends with asm."

She shook her head as if she gave up on me, "Lilly didn't want to go with me, she will stay here, so take care of her."

I nodded before i kissed the tip of her nose, "Of course. I just need to take a shower first."

"Oh." She said, i can see she is trying to not smile.

Oh indeed.

With that she walked out of the room, i went behind her as she went to Katherine.

"Ugh come on, you always make me wait." Katherine said with an annoyed expression.

Cara rolled her eyes before she took her purse.

I saw Anna walking toward them, "Oh where are you guys going ?"

"Shopping." Katherine answered with a smile. While Cara was shooting daggers toward her.

"Oh can i go with you guys, there is few things i need to buy." She said, smiling sweetly.

Cara ran her hand in her hair as if trying to keep calm before she said, "No."

Oh. Poor Anna, what did you get yourself into.

I smiled as i leaned against the door frame and watched them.

Katherine's eyes widened, "Cara !" She hissed.

My cupcakes ignored her as she walked forward toward Anna, she pointed her finger toward her, "Look here, don't think that fake sweet smile or that innocent act you are trying to pull will work on me."

She narrowed her eyes, "It may work on everyone else but i can still see behind your act, so be careful."

My smile widened, god i missed this side of her, "Don't ever think you gonna get what you want, all the i am not gonna be a threat to your relation bullshit speech you gave didn't work on me." She inched closer to her, Anna was silent, an annoyed expression over her face, "Alex will never see more than just a friend, so quit playing and go back to where you came from-"

"I don't know what you are talking about-"

"Oh believe me you do." Cara interrupted her, a fake smile over her lips, "Step away, for your own good." Her tone threatening as she said, "Because you really don't want to test my anger."

"Okay whatever, i will go by myself." Anna said with a bored tone before she turned around and walked away.

Cara's eye flicked to me, she gave me a confident look, i traced my lower lip as i tried to hide my smile.

My girl. Yup. That's my girl.

~~~~

After taking a much needed long cold shower, i walked out of the room searching for my little bug. My eyes landed on them standing on the hallway.

Chase was crying, his hand clutching on his arm, while Lilly was looking at him with fear in her eyes. What the-

I immediately walked to them, "What's wrong ?"

Chase lifted his teary blue eyes, his lips pressed in a pout, "She pushed me. Look." He said as he showed me his arm, there was a cut over it and blood covering it.

My eyes widened as i looked at Lilly, "Lilly why you did that ?"

At my words, she bursted in tears, my eyes widened more, "No." she said, her fist rubbed her eyes as she cried more, "Sowwy."

My heart ached and I immediately crouched in front of her, "Shush, don't cry." I said softly before i looked at Chase, "See, she didn't mean it."

He stopped crying as he looked at her with furrowed eyebrows, he brought his small hand to her cheek, "Don't cry." He said.

He removed his hand away, he looked at it to see her tears over his fingers, his eyebrows furrowed more before he wiped his hand with her shirt.

Lilly sniffed, her eyes at his arm, "Woo." She said.

"It's okay." I said, she looked scared.

She sniffled again before she inched closer to Chase and she - WHAT THE FUCK - she kissed his cheek.

WHAT ?

"She kissed me." Chase whined, he gave her a disgusted look before he pushed her away, "Go away."

My eyes widened, "What the fuck !" I took Lilly in my arms, "Why you kissed him what the hell !"

I looked at Chase and shot him a glare, "You go to your father before i kill you."

WHAT THE FUCK JUST HAPPENED.

I looked at Lilly and glared, "What did we say before, you just hit guys, no kissing, you gonna drive me crazy i swear." I wanted to scream. She kissed him, this little bug kissed him.

Lilly's eyebrows furrowed as she looked at me, "She kissed him." I said, still not believing this.

I walked away from Chase before i kill him. I sat her over the couch, i gave her a warning look, "Don't do that again, okay ?"

She nodded her head. I sighed before i ran my hand in my hair, "Fuck she kissed him." Someone make me understand.

I liked it better when she used to hit him. What the fuck.

I kept on glaring at her while she just innocently looked at me with her big brown eyes as if she didn't understand.

She crossed her very short legs over the couch, she scratched her hair as she smiled at me as if to test if i am still angry or not.

I narrowed my eyes at her but couldn't help but break into a smile after. This little bug got her ways with me. I inched closer and kissed her head.

"Do you want to watch cartoons?" I asked, she immediately nodded.

I turned on the tv for her before i walked to the kitchen to grab something to eat, i was too lazy to prepare anything, so i just poured myself some cereals.

I took the bowl and went and sat beside Lilly. And i ended up watching cartoon with her. Yup. What have happened to my life lately is beyond me.

"Is that yellow thing a sponge ?" I asked before i placed the spoon in my mouth, "Why would a sponge live under water ?"

My eyebrows furrowed, "They also have a pool underwater ? What the fuck!"

"Cartoons these days have no meaning i swear." I said with a sigh as I continued eating.

I felt a couple of my eyes on me, i looked down at Lilly to see her eyes fixated on the bowl in my hand, she eyed me as I placed the spoon inside it then lifted it up to my mouth.

She swallowed and licked her lips, and i was trying my best not to laugh. Her eyes went back to the bowl, and she involuntary parted her lips when i lifted the spoon up to my mouth.

I wanted to tease her more but I couldn't, i chuckled, "Do you want some ?" I asked.

Her eyes shimmered and she eagerly nodded, "Shawing cawing." She said seriously making me burst in laughter, i really forget that she is young sometimes. "Sharing is caring." I repeated her words with a smile as i fed her.

She chewed on her food before she gave me a big bright smile, she then inched and hugged my arm before she laid her head over it.

I kissed her head, "I will give you my life little bug not just my cereals."

When she finished eating, she laid her head over my arm and continued watching TV.

After few minutes, when she was silent and not moving around, i looked down to see her fast asleep, i carefully took her in my arms making sure not to wake her up, her hand immediately fisted around my shirt as i walked her to the bedroom.

I smiled. Just like her mother, they both hold into me whenever they are in my arms.

I placed Lilly on the bed and covered her small body with a blanket. I kissed her forehead before i pulled away and left her to sleep.

The rest of the day went in blur, Cara and Katherine were still out and Ashton and i had some work to finish.

It was nearing evening when we had all the work done, i felt my head about to explode as i walked back to the room.

I heard low sniffs coming from inside as I opened the door, Lilly was sitting on the bed crying. I immediately walked and sat beside her, "Hey, don't cry, i am here." I said as i stroked her cheek.

She pursed her lips in a pout and rubbed her eyes, "Mommy." She said.

I nodded, "Yeah she i coming back, don't worry."

But that didn't sooth her, she kept on crying. My eyebrows furrowed, I didn't know what to do, her tears break my heart in a way I can't explain.

"Come on please don't cry." I tried to wipe her tears, she closed her eyes and more tears fell as she cried loudly, "What should i do fuck -" I muttered to myself, "Come on please little cupcakes-"

At my words, she opened her eyes and looked at me, she sniffed, "Cucakes." She said.

I smiled and nodded, "Well yeah, your mother is my cupcake and since you look so much like her, you are my little cupcakes, so basically you are like a muffin."

She looked confused at my words but at least her tears stopped, "God i like this muffin thing, i am so genius aren't i ?" I pursed my lips and sighed, "Too bad no one is here to hear this joke."

Her eyebrows pulled together, she is probably whispering from inside what the fuck is this man talking about.

I smiled and wiped her tears dry, "You are my muffin from now on, okay."

"Muffin." She repeated the word after me.

"I think i saw some muffins in the kitchen. Do you wanna eat some ?" And like that, all the tears stopped and she excitedly nodded.

I shook my head, "Food is always the cure." I said, she extended her arms toward me, i took her in my arms. My heart melted more when she laid her head over my shoulder and her arm went around my back.

I walked her to the kitchen and sat her on the table as i searched for the muffins, I placed one in a plate and poured her a cup of milk and placed them beside her.

She started eating and i just stood there and took her in, she looked at me and inched the muffin to my mouth, she smiled as i took a bite from her before she continued eating again.  

I tucked her hair behind her ear and my heart felt heavy all of a sudden. If anything bad would happen to this girl, i will surely lose my mind, she brought light to my life and she gave me a better reason to live.

I swallowed hard as i thought about my conversation with my father. How i can protect her from the mess i am dragging myself into ? She'll be in danger -

No, I can't let that happen, i will protect her from everything no matter what. I will try my best to giver her a normal life.

When she finished, i took her and placed her down as i removed the plate away.

When i turned to her, she was pulling at something from over the table, my eyes widened when i saw the cup over it almost falling over her.

"Lilly !" I said in alarm before i launched forward and pulled her away. I tried on the same time to catch the cup with my other hand but failed, it crashed over my hand before its shattered pieces fell on the ground.

"Ah fuck !" I groaned as i felt the glass piercing into my skin, into my already bruised hand from before but i cared less when i heard Lilly's loud cries.

With my eyes wide, i turned to her, "Baby girl are you okay ? Did you get hurt ?" I asked, fear coursed inside of my veins as i inspected her.

She shook her head, she hiccuped a sob as her eyes traveled to my hand, "You hurt." She cried out.

I hided my hand behind my back, the blood probably scared her, i stroked her cheek with my other one, "Shush no, it's okay, nothing happened, i am fine."

She pursed her lips, more tears escaped her eyes, "Sowwy." She said.

"No no don't apologize, it's not your fault." I said before i wrapped my arm around her body pulling her to my chest.

She pulled away and held my face between her very small palms as her teary eyes looked inside mine. My heart warmed up, i smiled, "Are you scared i may get hurt ?" I asked, she sniffled and nodded.

My smile widened and my heart never felt more full when she wrapped her arms around my neck, i closed my eyes and hugged her back, "How can you make me love you more with each passing day."

After i cleaned the mess and bandaged my hand because Lilly would tear up whenever she looks at it, i played with her and tried to busy her mind with something else.

When she got sleepy, i went to bed and held her in my arms as she drifted to sleep. And without noticing i fell asleep as well.

I woke up when i felt some movement beside me, my forehead creased as i opened my eyes to see Cara kissing Lilly's cheek.

Her eyes flicked to me and i gave her a sleepy smile, i pointed my finger over my cheek, "Here too."

She chuckled before she inched closer and kissed my cheek.

"Can i sleep here ?" She asked, I immediately nodded, "Of course."

She carefully laid down beside me, between us Lilly. With one arm under Lilly's head, i used the other to hug them both.

Cara smiled as she gazed at me, "Looks like we both fit in your arms."

I smiled as well and nodded, "True."

~~~~~

Next day..

I hopped inside the car to get back home as fast as i can. I can't handle to stay with my dear father that long.

My phone started ringing, i pulled it out of my pocket to see Katherine's name flash through the screen, i sighed before i pressed the answer button, "When you go back to LA, I don't want to see your face for like a year, because you are everywhere here !"

"Hello to you too." She said sarcastically.

"What do you want ?" I asked with a bored tone.

"I just wanted to tell you that Ashton and I went to his sister to spend sometime so-"

"Ah finally !" I said with a relieved sigh.

"Shut up, we are coming back tonight." She said and my hopes went down. "Anyway, Cara stayed at the house, she didn't feel like coming with us, so go back home, she doesn't like to stay alone."

I smiled, finally some alone time with my cupcakes.

"Okay go away now." I said, "I hope you trip and fall."

"Hey !" She exclaimed, "Ashton is telling you to fuck off."

"Ugh that bimbo. I hate you both. Go away now and don't let me see you or hear your voice bye." I said before i hanged up not waiting to hear her response.

The weather was so bad today, it was raining all day long, i even heard there is a storm coming. Looks like winter is on the doors.

I couldn't be happier when i finally arrived, i had to take another route since the original was closed because of the heavy raining.

I went off the car and immediately made my way inside the house.

"Damn i am so wet." I said as i took off my jacket. My eyebrows furrowed, "Well that's a sentence i never thought I'd say."

I shook my head and looked around, "Cupcakes." I called out as i walked further inside.

"Cupcakes where are you ?" I said as i walked to the living room then to the kitchen and I didn't find her.

I went to the second floor and checked the other rooms, she weren't there as well. I called her name again and no answer came.

My heart dropped in my stomach as a familiar feeling seared within my inside, i swallowed hard as i went back down. My heart pounded against my chest. Where is she ?

Did she -

An uncomfortable feeling settled at the pit of my stomach. No. She didn't, she can't leave again, she wouldn't do it.

The tightness over my chest increased, i rubbed my burning throat before i whispered, "Cara ?"

I closed my eyes trying to control the sudden feelings that surfaced over my hearts. I rubbed my palm over my face and blew a breath from my lungs.

"Alex ?"

I opened my eyes when my ears registered that soft voice, i immediately turned around, and she was there, oh god, she was there.

Sudden relief washed over me, she gave me a smile, air punched from my lungs before i walked to her, few steps and i met her at the center of the room, she was about to say something but i swallowed her words when i grabbed her face and swept my mouth across her.

Seeing her here lit a frenzy in me and I couldn't hold myself back.

She was shocked at first, but it didn't take her long to react to my kiss.

I kissed her deeper, my tongue dipped in to taste the sweetness in her, and she met me, her tongue all soft and welcoming.

And damn if just that little brush didn't cause every last inch of my body to harden.

Deep satisfaction penetrated into my bones and my nerves skittered, i broke the hold our lips had but I didn't break the contact of our bodies.

"Woah-" Cara muttered breathlessly.

I smiled and nodded, "Woah indeed."

She shook her head and bit her lower lip, "Is there something wrong ?"

I shook my head, "I am just enjoying having you in my life, is that wrong?" She shook her head with a genuine smile, her hair flying around her.

My eyes traveled to the bunny hairband over her hair and i chuckled. She looked so cute.

"Where were you ?" I asked as i tucked her hair behind her ear.

"In the backyard." She said. Damn I should've checked there too.

"And where is Lilly ?" I asked as I didn't see her as well.

"She wanted to go with them, i couldn't say no so i let her." She said, "Why didn't you go ?" And i am so glad she didn't, so i can have her all to myself today.

She shrugged, "I didn't feel like going." She said, "And you weren't there so-"

"Yeah you can't live without me can you ?" I said. She rolled her eyes in return at my cockiness.

It was raining heavily, the sound of the raindrops hitting the window was clear in the house. I felt Cara's hand wrap around my shirt as a lightening snapped the electricity off, then it was followed by the loud noise of the thunder.

"What the hell." Cara said and i felt her inch closer to me.

"Yeah i heard a storm was coming." I said. "Looks like it even messed with the electricity."

I tried to walk away but Cara held into my shirt more tightly. I chuckled, "Cupcakes are you scared ?"

"What no, i am not." She said. I shook my head, "You and Lilly are the same, you both act so strong but then the smallest things scares you."

"Shut up i am not scared okay." She said, irritation in her voice.

"But your hand is saying otherwise." I said as i held her hand that's over my shirt.

"Alex do you want to get slapped ?" She said ever so seriously.

I winced, "No thank you, my cheek is still hurting me from last time."

I am pretty sure she is glaring at me right now, but the darkness around the house made it hard to see.

"Come let's light some candles." I said before i dragged her away with me.

I used the flashlight of my phone as i searched for the candles and lighted them.

"I am gonna go take a shower, do you wanna come with me as well?" I asked teasingly.

She shot me a glare and shook her head.

"You sure ? I can use a hand here and there." I said with a wink, "Well mostly there."

She chuckled and shook her head, "Are you hungry ? Do you want me to prepare you something to eat ?"

I nodded, "Yeah actually, i would love to eat your-" I couldn't complete the sentence when she pressed her hand over my mouth.

"I know where this is going." She said. Oh yeah, she knows me very well.

I kissed the inside of her palm and gave her a wink before i went away.

~~~~~

Cara's POV

I turned on the fireplace to warm the room before Alex comes, good thing it doesn't work on electricity but on gas or we would've froze right now.

I felt big arms sneak around my waist from the back making me gasp. The asshole. He always does this to me.

He kissed my neck, "Katherine called me, she said they won't be able to come today, it's dangerous because of the storm, so we got the whole house to ourselves."

I turned around in his arms, he gave me a wink, "I can only wonder what we can do here all alone, i can only wonder."

I frowned, "But Lilly ?"

"Don't worry, she is in safe hands and Katherine told me she is having fun with the kids there." He said, i nodded, i know she is in safe hands.

Alex's eyes roamed around then landed back on me, "It's so romantic over here, isn't it."

I smiled and nodded. True it is, with the candles, the fireplace and all.

"Come here." He said as he pulled me the couch, he sat down, his back against the arm rest and he made me sit between his legs, he wrapped his arms around me and pulled me to him, my back pressed against his front.

I sighed and laid on him, my eyes first connected with his bandaged hand, i ran my fingers over it, "Is it still hurting you ?"

"No not that much." He said.

My fingers moved from his hand up to his forearm, they lingered over the scars and this time he didn't flinch. I swallowed hard as i gazed at them, just one look at them kills me.

A moment of silence settled between us until he broke it, "I was twelve years old when i first did it." His words came out of the blue, my eyes widened a bit surprised by the fact that he is actually talking about this.

"I first did it because-" he cleared his throat, "Because the voices in my head didn't stop, they used to drive me crazy, the - the screams and-" he tripped over his words, he sounded uncomfortable so i turned around to face him.

He sighed and shook his head, "I did it to get rid of the pain and it used to work but then it became more of a habit I couldn't break." He shrugged and i noticed he was trying his best to not meet my eyes, so I turned around and laid my back against his chest for him to talk comfortably.

"Ashton and I were roommates back then, so he saw me do it once and then he helped me overcome it, and it actually worked, that's why i owe that bastard my life."

I held his hand in mine as he talked further, he was opening to me about his past for the very first time, "But you were so young, you were a kid."I said. I still didn't understand why.

"True, i was a kid, and i saw things no kid should ever see." He said confusing me more.

"What did you see ?"

He didn't answer immediately, he sighed, "People being tortured in front of me, people being killed as i stood there and watched."

My heart pounded against my chest. What ?

I faced him again, "What ? What happened ?"

His jaw tightened, "My father happened."

Father ?

Does he mean William ? His uncle, the one who raised him when his mother died ? He refers to him as his father sometimes.

"William ?" I asked.

He shook his head, "No Cara, my real father."

What ?

"But- " i started.

"But i told you before that I don't know who my real father is, i know, and that's a lie, everything i said about my past is a lie."

Being shocked due to his words is a complete understatement, worries i had tried to suppress pushed their way to the forefront. I was scared of what he was going to reveal next.

"Cara my mother didn't die when she was giving birth to me -" he shook his head, "My mother abandoned me at a foster-care doorstep when I was one day old."

My eyes widened, his words weighed heavily on my mind and even heavier on my heart.

He didn't meet my eyes as he continued, even with the darkness, i saw the pain that reflected off them, "I stayed there for three years before William and his wife came and adopted me." He swallowed hard as he continued, "William isn't my uncle Cara, he is my adopted father."

I didn't understand. He is saying things so different to what he once told me.

He sighed, "When i was five, my real father showed up and he took me with him, he said he didn't knew that i even existed, that my mother never told him about me and when he figured out he did his best to find me."

A hot breath pushed from my lungs before i asked, "What did he do to you ?"

He met my eyes, "At first, nothing, he was the perfect father, he gave me everything, he was great."

But there is more to it than just that.

"All until I became eleven years old, all till the day i went to a room he ordered me not to enter, all till i opened that room door and saw him as he shot someone."

"Everything changed after, he explained to me what this is, what he does and why. "

Oh god this can't be true.

"He said that this is my future, that i was born for this and one day i will be the one holding that gun and i would kill who's on the other side." His voice was tight, lacing with disgusted amusement, "He told that to a kid, i was supposed to be learning alphabets when he threw on my face that i will be a killer when i grow up."

Noticing how uncomfortable he sounded, i turned around not meeting his face, i wanted to give him space to talk.

"From that moment he obliged me to always be there and watch." He scoffed, "Watch and learn is what he used to say."

"It used to freak me out, the blood, the screams, the knifes, everything, i started to have nightmares everyday but he cared less, he said i have to get rid of my fear, that he have to train me and toughen me up for what's to come. He said i have to make him proud."

Every nerve in my body fired, pressed and pulsed with a crushing pain at the pain he had to go through.

My heart ached, he was a little kid, and yet he was obliged to enter that cruel world.

Oh Alex.

"That lasted for a year and i was getting even worse. Instead of stopping, he said i have to try it myself, maybe that will teach me more, maybe that would kill the fear inside me.

He made me do it- he made me hurt someone-"

My eyes widened, what kind of father is this ? And i thought my father is bad.

"I - it was- " he stuttered unable to complete his words. I closed my eyes, I kept his hand in mine, i tightened my hold over it as i asked, "Did you -" I didn't even know how to ask it.

"There were two, and because of him i had to hurt them both, that was it for me, i broke down there, seeing the -" he stopped, he was having hard time letting the words free. This have messed him up so bad.

"You don't have to talk about it Alex." I said, if my heart was slowly cracking, i can only wonder what was happening to him.

He rested his chin over my shoulder, he sighed, "After that, it was hard to go back to normal, nightmares just increased, i would blackout a lot, there would be gaps in my memories, like even till now, those years are blurry in my mind - "

"So my father noticed how bad i was getting, so he gave me two choices, he said if i have to stay with him then this is what my future would look like, but if I don't want this, then he'll send me to where i was before him."

"The old fool thought I'd choose him. But I didn't. I hated him so much at the moment, I couldn't stay there. And that's when i went back to William. That's when i deleted them from my life like they never even existed. I didn't want to remember them, so I didn't tell anyone about that stage of my life."

Emotions knotted in my throat, i wanted to say something to make him feel better but i didn't know what to even think.

I turned around in his arms, my mind still trying to get everything in, "Why you are telling me this now ?" I asked lowly.

He brought his hand up and tucked the loosened strand of my hair behind my ear, he smiled, yet his smile held so much pain, "Because i want you to see the part of me i show to no one."

Air wheezed down my throat as i struggled to pull it into the well of my lungs. Few tears escaped the corner of my eyes.

He immediately wiped them away, "Each scar tells a story of how i gave up once." He said.

I shook my head, "No, don't say that, they tell a story of how you survived."

"Alex you see these scars as your weakness but they are not, it's the exact opposite." He shook his head, "No cupcakes, i did it again, that is not strength."

I swallowed hard, my gut twisted into the tightest knot, "You don't understand Alex, you don't, i wish you see yourself the way i see you."

He smiled, why his smile changed this badly, "It's enough for me that you see me like that."

A question crossed my mind and I couldn't hold myself from asking it, "What about - what about your mother ? Do you know anything about her, did your father tell you ?"

His jaw tightened and he shook his head, "I don't know who she is, or whether she is dead or alive, when i was with my father i asked him, he only told me i am better off without her, that she wasn't good, that he hated her so much for hiding me from him."

"You never saw her ?" I asked.

He shook his head, "I don't even know how she looks like, i know nothing but her name -" at the I internally slapped myself, what a stupid mistake i have made.

"She just left me wrapped in a blanket with my name over it." He scoffed, "She thought she had the right to name me."

"Alexander." I muttered lowly, and he nodded.

"That's why you hate your full name." I said finally making sense of it.

Alex exhaled as he pulled me closer, tension clotted the already heavy air, "I hate it, and i hate her, so much." The pain was covered by anger and that made me ache more.

"I don't want to know who she is, I don't want to know her. My father was right in one thing i am better off without her.

I spent all these years hating her for what she did."

I understood his pain like no one would, "You are scared." I said, "Of seeing her."

"Of finding the answer to your question. Of figuring out the reason." I added. "To why she abandoned you."

I was talking from my own experience.

"You are right." He said, "It scares me to death."

I felt how hard his heart was beating, "I spent years asking myself that question, wondering why, was it my fault ? Did she hate me this much that she was able to walk away from me like that.

What wrong can a little baby do ? And the more I think about it-" his voice was thick with emotions, "- the more i hate her."

I wrapped my arms around his neck, "I am sorry." I said, "For naming Lilly after her - I didn't know."

He shook his head with a smile, "It doesn't matter, Lilly is perfect the way she is."

"I deleted her from my life long ago, I don't care anymore." He added.

"But the problem is i never thought I'd go back there."

My eyebrows pulled together, "Back where ?"

"Back to him." He answered, "Cara the last time i went to the city and today, i was with my father."

Wait what ?

"Why ?"

He looked away from me, "I need his help."

"Help for what ?" He is scaring me now.

He looked back at me, his jaw tightened, "Help to kill Nikolas."

My eyes widened, oh my god, I didn't know he'd really go this far.

"He is powerful, and i need that power, but -"

Here comes the but-

"But he wants something in return."

"What does he want ?" I asked

Alex sighed, "A heir." He said, "Me. He wants me."

This is not good. I can feel it.

"H-heir for what ?" I already knew the answer deep down.

He didn't answer right away, his teeth dug in his lower lip as if trying to contain himself somehow.

"You know how Nikolas is the one taking care of the Italians business in London -" i nodded. I gulped as i felt the sweat forming inside my palm.

"Well, my father he-" he paused.

Oh god no. Not this.

A low humorless chuckled escaped his lips before he shook his head, "You see it's funny-"

Oh believe me it's far from funny.

"Your current husband is the Italians right hand in London and-

Your ex-husband is going to be their right hand in New York."

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In the next chapter, another storm is going to hit, if you know what i mean *smirks*

Alex is like :

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