Levi's PoV

Ten years ago...

That day was just like any other rainy day. Maulan, at walang tigil ang bawat kulog at kidlat.

Napalingon ako sa likuran ko ng marinig ang boses ng aking nanay. "Come Levi, dito ka kay Mama." Sambit niya.

I walked towards her and touched the hand that she used to reach forward to me. "Is my little boy scared?" Tumango ako sa kaniya.

I hate storms. I hate thunders. I hate rainy days.

It was like this very day when my father was taken away by God.

The day I first saw my mother lost herself. "What do you think Levi? Is daddy watching us now?" Isang tango ang ibinigay ko kay mommy.

It has been four years ever since my dad came back from war and was strucked by lightning right in front of her.

Sinubukan pa si daddy dalhin sa doctor but no one could save him. Not even the priests, or the wizards.

That was also the day that we lost mom. "Ma..." Munti kong usal habang pinapahiran ang luhang nahuhulog mula sa pisngi ni mama.

Mukhang hindi padin mawala-wala sa kaniyang isipan ang sinapit ni papa. I breathed and hugged her in her wheelchair as her tears fall like the raindrops that cascades by.

"Leondro..." She cried the name of father while hugging me back.

My heart falls apart into a thousand pieces to see my mother breaking.

"Queen Azturias, it is almost Prince Levi's bedtime." I just silently look at Butler Vien when he said those words. At kahit ganoon pa man ay hindi padin ako umaalis sa pagkakapatong ng aking ulo sa balikat ng aking ina.

I don't want to leave mom.

But it seems like mom wants to leave me.

Inilayo niya ang ulo ko sa kaniyang balikat, she caressed my face and made me look at her tear-stained face. "Mommy?"

Dahan-dahan itong ngumiti saakin.

"Don't frown baby. Always smile for me, please." She said while lifting up the two corners of my lips.

I gave her a gentle smile. "Okay mommy, I love you." My mother's feather light lips made its way towards my small forehead.

"Mommy loves you too." She said which made me smile genuinely. I know mommy is not completely happy, but I hope she is feeling better now. Even if it's just for a bit. "Now go to your room."

My lips pouted. "Where is my see you soon?" I said. Mommy always said that to me, day after day, after day.

It was only at this time that she only gave me a smile instead of words. But that smile doesn't mean 'See you soon' it's more of an 'I'll see you'.

"Now go Levi. And sleep tight. May God bless you with the sweetest dreams." She said and once again hugged me.

Her pale cold hands not only touching my body but reaching up to my soul as well.

"You too mommy." After that, I walked towards my room hand in hand with Butler Vien.

And then it was alreay 11:00PM.

I was supposed to be asleep but I was tossing and turning around my bed, cold and alone.

I miss mommy.

I want my mother's warmth.

I closed my eyes and suddenly remembered the days when I would get scared and I will go to mother's room and sleep with her.

A sleep with her always turn the rainy days into happy ones.

Surely.

I pulled out my favorite pillow.

It's a great thing that mommy made it a rule that lights in the castle can't be turned off. Sinabi niya iyon so that me and my big brother wont feel scared in any circumstances.

Mommy always wanted to make us look at how positive life could be.

When I was almost at my parents' room, I heard a cry mixed with a disoriented laughter.

"I'm afraid Queen Azturias' doesn't want anyone in right now. Anyone who'll disobey will be accounted with the act of treason and will be hanged by the palace's towers." I heard two maids talk. They weren't able to see me since they were in a corner, talking to themselves.

My heart beats faster as seconds gone by as I walk towards my mom's room.

Why do I feel afraid??

When I reached her rooms big brown door which was slightly opened, I took a peek.

Right then and there, I saw mommy drank colored water from a small tube.

Before I was able to react, she muttered: "Levi?"

She gave me a smile.

And all of that before she started vigorously shaking.

"Mommy? Mommy!!" I yelled and ran towards her. Not minding my most beloved pillow as it fell down the room's carpeted floor.

At that moment, all I could think of was poison.

"Ughhh...." She screeched in pain. She coughed, and then blood gushed out from her ruby red lips.

"Help!! Help!!!!" I screamed. I touched my mother's face. "M-mommy..." I cried. The coldness of her blood was slowly covering my two little hands.

Her agitated flailing arms hit me again, and again, and again...

But I never let go of her.

Mommy will live.

"Prince Levi!" The loud shout of Butler Vien made me face the door.

At that time, the mostly stoic face of Butler Vien, for the first and last, showed fear and discomposure.

With my hands that were quivering, I looked at him. "P-please help." I pleaded with horror, and words almost a whisper.

As soon as I said that, it looked as if Butler Vien came back to his senses.

"Call the Doctor!!!" He shouted and ran outside. I looked at my mom once again and held her hand.

"Mommy.. please hang on." I told her. "H-help... help is coming." I added behind the hiccups.

Mother's hands are cold.

"Ahhh!!!!" She shouted which caused an increase in my tears. "Ahhh!!! Ahhhh!!! Ughhh!!!! Arrghhhh!!!!"

I tried hugging my mother. Baka sakaling mabawasan ang sakit niyang nadarama.

"L-Levi..." My mother's disoriented voice rang.

Her suffering voice was like the sound of the bell that seemed as if it was getting closer and closer.

That loud, monotonous, earsplitting sound.

"Y-yes mommy?" I questioned behind the anxiety and fear. I bit my lips when I saw my tears being mixed up with her blood. "H-Hold on. P-please?"

Dear God, I know that I don't usually call out to you but please help my mommy.

Please help her...

"L-Lev—Hnggg!!!!!"

"Mommy!!!" Sigaw ko ng muli siyang sumuka ng dugo. My mother hugged her stomach. She looked as if she were in deep seering pain "I'm here..." I said and held her hand tightly.

Using my right hand, I gently patted her cheeks.

It's cold.

It's freezing.

The thoughts that had been eating me all disappeared when mother held my face. "Mom??"

"P-Please..." Please what?

Help??

"W-What is it mom?" I asked, trying my hardest to sound clear. "What is—"

Mother stared at me. Her blue orbs looking directly at my red eyes. "Please be kind." Kind?

"Please kill me."

When she said those words, my world shattered.

I didn't understand her.

I didn't want to kill her.

I never did want that. I don't even want to hurt her.

Back then, everything became hazy.

All I remembered after that was Butler Vien looking at me with a face as white as paper.

"What happened Levi?"

Was the question he asked.

"I killed her."

I answered whilst hugging my blood-stained favorite pillow in my hands.

At that moment, I realized one thing.

I can't kill someone I love because they are better off dead.

I can only kill them because they begged for it.

Because they are happier dead.