It was a couple of weeks before I graduated from high school, and honestly I was scared, (as adulting is fucking hard), but I was also excited to begin to live my life the I wanted to live it, (since there was this whole ass mess with Mom and New Mexico going on at this time), (though I wouldn't have met Jane if I didn't move to New Mexico and I really do appreciate Jane here, so take that as you will).

Anyway I was doing some stuff in the living room, as you do, (vague I know, sue me Karen), when the doorbell rang, so I asked my Grandma if she wanted me to answer the door, since it wasn't my house, (and it would've felt weird to just straight up answer the door), (heh heh, 'straight up', heh heh, I need to fucking chill).

"Grandma do you want me to get the door for you?!"
"That would be nice thank you Lacey!"
"Ok Grandma!"

So I answered the door, (as you do), and my Mom was at the door, which made me feel angry, (for obvious reasons), which might seem like I'm just holding onto a grudge because of teen angst, but that's not why I'm angry with her.

"What are you doing here?!"
"I wanted to ask you when you graduate-"
"Why do you want to know that for Mom?"
"Because you're my daughter-"
"Funny, that didn't make you want to come to Savannah's graduation-"
"That's not fair-"
"Well neither is going to one daughter's graduation and not the other daughter-"
"I wasn't back-"
"Savannah is the daughter that wanted you there for her graduation, I would rather stick a pin in my eye than have you at my graduation Gabriella"

Yeah my Mother was not impressed with that, but 17 year old me did not give a flying fuck about what she wanted or not, I just wanted her to get the message that I didn't want her at my graduation, ya know, (or maybe you don't know that, I'm not assuming what you do and don't know).

"You can't say that-"
"Yes I can, I want nothing to do with you, when will you understand that Gabriella?!"
"Lacey, I know that I haven't been the best Mom-"
"That's the understatement of the fucking century here"
"But I'm trying here-"
"Absolutely not, I'm not not doing this with you, I'm really really not doing this with you right now Gabriella, now piss off!, que me jodan la vida, (fuck my life in Spanish), I'm done, I'm so fucking done with this bullshit"

I slammed the front door so hard that the room actually felt like it shook with my rage, (which was a fair achievement as I'm not actually that tall or strong), I didn't even mean for that to happen, as I didn't want to scare my Grandparents here, you know, but we all know that anger can be a spiteful bitch when it wants to be, ya know.

"I'm so sorry Grandma-"
"Lacey Lou what happened?"
"Mom was at the door and, and, and-"
"Alright, we'll get you a coffee to drink or something"
"Ok"

I don't know why we all thought that giving me coffee was a good idea here, (though I did temporarily forget about what coffee did to me when my emotions were off), as it really wasn't, it just made me off the walls emotional, (and that was not a good thing at all), (yes I usually did drink coffee, but for some reason when I'm not doing good, it makes me feel even worse).

"I can't do it, I just, shit I can't-"
"Lacey Lou, is something up?"
"What did you give her Daphne?"
"I gave her some coffee"
"Shit"
"What is it Jack?"
"Trey said that this could happen"
"That what could happen?"
"That Lacey could get a bit emotional after coffee if something happened before that"
"Shit, alright Lacey, how about we don't finish the cup of coffee"
"Ok"

So after that fiasco I literally just wanted to cry, (well more than I already had cried), so I just watched Looney Tunes, as that show was a comfort show for me, ya know, (plus what could be more relaxing than kids show?, ok a lot of things but I didn't have them at hand here).

So naturally because I was feeling like shit, Grandma sat beside me to talk to me about life and shit, (I honestly don't know how that woman is sane to be honest here).

"Hey Sweetheart, are you feeling any better?"
"Not really Grandma, but thank you for caring"
"That's my job, anyway, why don't you talk to your friend Dream instead of moping on the couch watching looney tunes?"
"Because New York is 4 hours ahead of us- ok fine, I'll go"