It was like 3 days before I graduated, and I was starting to feel more and more anxious about it, probably because Dream couldn't be there as he would be graduating the day afterwards, (plus I had always imagined that I would get to celebrate my graduation with my Dad, ya know).

I was laying on my bed, staring at the ceiling, wishing that Dad was here, as I knew that he'd be proud of me, (like God he would have been so proud of me), I then fell asleep, (because being in a sad mood does that to you my dudes).

I was in the clouds, (I don't know why, as I wasn't even in an aeroplane or anything, like I was just straight up chilling in the clouds like Jesus would do), which kind of freaked me out a bit to be honest with you here, (as I wasn't Jesus therefore I shouldn't be able to straight up chill in the clouds here), (heh, 'straight', God I need to stop making that joke).

Then this not so tall man came over and that was when I realised that it was my Dad, (I know that it makes no sense to you, as it doesn't even make sense to me here), which freaked me out a little bit more, (I mean no shit Lacey, it's your dead Dad), as he was dead, (like super duper fucking dead here).

"Holy shit, am I dead?"
"Hello to you too Lacey Lou, and no, you're not dead"
"Then how come I can see you?"
"Because it's in your head"
"Fucking fabulous, I'm now hallucinating shit"
"Just because it's in your head, it doesn't mean it's any less real"
"How very Dumbledore of you old man"

So after Dad pulled a Dumbledore on me, Dad then pulled me into a hug, which felt nice and warm, even though I knew that it wasn't even real, I then started to cry, (because it felt so fucking real to me, like so fucking real to me here).

"I miss you so much Dad"
"I miss you too Darling, it's ok"
"But it's not ok as everything's changed and I don't know if I can even take it anymore Dad"
"(Kisses forehead), You, Miss Lacey Lou, can do anything that you put your mind to Sweetheart"
"But it's so hard though Dad"
"Oh God don't I know it Baby, (sighs), life's not easy Lou, I mean raising you and your sister by myself was the hardest thing that I've ever done, but God I'm so proud of the person that you have become Darling"
"Why?"

Dad looked at me like I had 3 heads, (like that weird Greek mythology creature Demon thing), I guess it was because I was about to shit talk about his kid, even if I myself was his kid, (yeah he was really not ok with whenever I talked bad about myself for any reason at all, but I guess that means that he cares).

"You've gotten what you wanted through working your ass off, that's fucking hard for anyone to do-"
"Well yeah Dad, but it's not impossible-"
"I will not be listening to any slander about my Baby, even if it comes from my Baby, ok?"
"(Laughs), Ok Dad"
"Good, (kisses top of my head), look after your Aunt Sharpay for me when you get back to New York-"
"Of course I will, Aunt Sharpay is the closest thing that I have to a Mom here Dad"
"I love you Darling"
"I love you too Dad"

I just hugged him tighter as I knew that I couldn't stay there forever, as I'm not a sprit or anything, (but I really wanted to stay here with Dad as then I wouldn't have to miss him at all), (that might sound a bit you know weird but, uh?, it's how I feel about it Babes).

"Right, you go kick ass and take names"
"(Snorts), Dad!, I'm studying to be a forensic scientist, I'm not becoming a marine"
"It's still a big deal Baby, as science as an industry is disproportionately male dominated"
"(Snorts), You're a total feminist Dad"
"Yeah well you have 2 daughters and you're a man, you want to make the world a better place for them"
"You're cute Dad"
"Thanks Baby, you're cute too"
"Ugh!, Dad!"
"What, you always have been cute-"
"To you because you're my Dad"
"I'd find you cute regardless of that fact here Baby, I love you"
"I love you too Dad"

I woke up, which really made me sad, as that meant that I wasn't going to see Dad again, I know that he wasn't physically there, but it felt like he was actually there, (maybe it was a weird lucid dream or something).