A ripple through time and our hearts entwined
A drop of tear mingles with a cry for help
Blood drips from pricked hands slower than a hapless yelp
Threads of red and gold twine to make a tapestry of our lives.

Crying at three a.m. for things I have lost
I feel your ache too, a delicious hurt, in between my frayed ribs
So wipe off these teardrops from my cheeks, sun child
Teach me how to rebel against fate.

I am manacled by these wreaths of thorns
My limbs bleed from years of misuse
Midas touched cages with inlaid gems keeps us prisoners
To a life we never chose, life weathering storms.

My father is a cruel man with a penchant for abuse
That is why I fear love yet want it badly too
A paradoxical dilemma, that's what I am,
Was it just the same for you?

There are moments where I feel so giddy
It's like floating on a cloud amongst the gods
Then there is bottomless despair
Which has sucked out all my tears.

I found you six years ago on a mundane evening
A mere footnote in someone's life but everything to me
I wrote your name with trembling hands and kissed it everyday
I wish you were so I could say these things which I keep hidden.

My heart's a vault whose key I have thrown into the sea
Perhaps it has reached you, carried by the waves
If you have found it, please keep it safe,
My darling reine, my only friend.

You held back my hand each time I tried to end it all
I swear I believed the phenol would taste just like the nectar of the gods
But it was you, always you whose thought made me halt
How can I leave this world without confessing my love?

We could have been a fairytale told to children through the ages
If only we had been born together, raised in the same land
Perhaps I'd be the one with whom you could be free
I would have been your confidant, a keeper of your mysteries.

Yet in these swirling sands of time,
We have been thrown apart
Turning into poetry of brooding melancholia
Thus I will always find in a song, a poem, or in an esoteric joke
Till we stand face-to-face, an exile returning to her homeland.

I love you like a knight's oath, unwavering and true
I will be your seeker until I find you
Give me the chance to prove my worth and bless me with your consent
That may I know you for who you were, not as a fragmented fable.

As I stand in front of the mirror tonight,
I see you etched within my eyes
Ma dulcinée has bewitched my soul
Even death shall not sever this bond.

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