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When YN woke up in morning she didn't spot Jay beside him. Everything from last night started to hit her so badly. She instantly got up and ran to his room and as she entered she found him packing his stuff. "Are you going somewhere?" She was almost panicking but internally praying for him not to leave her atleast not in this condition. "Some business I need to handle in abroad"

Her eyes widened and she instantly ran to him grabbing his arm. "Jay, please don't leave me like this. I don't feel good about it. Please" he zipped his bag taking his cell phone as he turned to look at her with apologetic look.

"YN, I have something really important to do there. Moreover look at yourself. You look so weak and I guess you should give time to yourself. Take this time so that When I come back you are completly fine too." He sequeezed her hand that was on his arm and gently removed it walking out of room leaving her alone. She was speechless at this point. There were millions of thought clouding her brain.

So he left her cause she was acting weird. Instead of helping her at this time he just simply left her alone that's what she was thinking and at some points it was completely true. But he also went there to handle the business.

She felt so weak. This is what she feared, they might start thinking of her as crazy and that's what was happening. The fear inside was growing more and more. Fear of losing people beside her.

Whatever happened to Jungkook was wrong but none of it was her fault. He used her and now what she feared what he was going to do with the rest of her family . She wanted to protect her family but no one was going to believe her.

Her eyes wandered around the room feeling so empty without Jay. A shaky sigh escaped her lips as she was about to walk out of her room but her phone rang and she looked at the caller ID - 'Soyeon'

*****

She was at her friend's home along with Soojin and Mia who were drinking like crazy and singing songs standing in front of a big screen. It was a karaoke room that Soyeon had in her home. Everyone was having quite fun but YN looked so off she only kept on drinking and didn't once get up for her turn.

"C'mon dude try something or you really getting wasted tonight ?" Soojin said trying to drag her off of couch to middle of room but she stayed there . "No! Let me... Let me drink. You go enjoy, I am fine here."

"Tsk okay fine" she said as she went back to singing with Mia. Both girls were drunk af to notice anything but Soyeon surely could feel something was off. YN usually never drinks that much. Infact one or two sips that's also during her business partys at home just to show the audience around her.

She drank and drank feeling all the pain burning inside her. She felt like someone was gripping her heart and the grip was so tight it felt like its going to crush any moment. It hurted so badly. Nothing was her fault to begin with. Why did it had to happen to her.

Suddenly she threw the bottle away harshly and it broke in pieces. The girls let out a scream as it nearly hit Mia. Realizing what happened they looked back at YN who was hardly sitting supporting herself.

Her friends tried to ask her what happened but she started drinking more. At this pount she was completely wasted.

*****

It was morning and she woke up with feeling an extreme headache. Instantly running to restroom she started throwing out. It was so painful she thought she is going to die there . Her tears flowed down her cheeks as she tried to calm herself down after throwing out everything.

Flushing out everything she got up supporting herself and her slow steps reached the counter. Looking at mirror she tried to remember what happened last night but couldn't. All she remembered was her friends were singing and she was drinking like crazy.

Closing her eyes she took out a new tooth brush from the cabinet since she was still at Soyeon's home and freshened up. She was getting slimmer, there were dark circles around her eyes and skin colour got so pale . For some seconds she couldn't even recognize herself.

...........

Soyeon was preparing breakfast while YN was sitting on counter stool lost in her own thought. "Soyeon, I want to tell you something . Will you believe me?" She looked up at her and for a second didn't took it seriously but looking at YN how she looked dead serious.

She picked up the plates and places it in front of the two and took a seat opposite to YN." What are you upto now a days YN. You don't look too well."
Taking a deep breath she told everything to Soyeon from the start to the end. Making sure not even one thing was missing.

Her friend was completely taken aback. For quite good minutes she couldn't even say anything. She was left speechless. None of it made sense but YN looked so desperately serious. . In need of someone to believe her.

"YN ah" said Soyeon sighing defeatedly but YN was first to cut her. "Why- why do you look like you don't trust me either . Please Soyeon,do I look like I am lying or do I look crazy. It happened to me. I can prove it. Once granny comes back home I will ask her myself."

Soyeon bit her bottom lip and put a hand on YN's hand. She didn't want to say anything wrong. Then it didn't matter if it was truth or her friend's hallucinations." Even though nothing of it makes sense. But I will believe you hmm. I won't leave like your jerk fiance. I will give you a chance. Let's wait till your grandmother get better."

To her she looked so weak. She believed her friend must be going through alot to look like this. She never saw her drinking before and that much. She didn't want to leave her at the time when she needed her the most. YN instantly stood up and went to her friend and hugged her tightly. She was desperately in need of someone to believe her. To tell her that she is not crazy.

"I am with you Okay, Relax up now. Eat something you are getting so weak." she hugged her back patting her back and made her sit and made sure she ate well. Her friend kept of drifting somewhere and she couldn't understand how this all can be possible. Another world? A dead soul? Bracelet? What was all that. She have seen Jungkook but he is a little, cute and shy kid who blushes even when someone calls him cute.

"How's your granny By the way, When is she coming home ?" they were done eating and now Soyeon was washing dishes which were no more than two plates and 2 cups of coffee. " I am going to see her today. Honestly I am getting so impatient . I want to ask her everything what happened back then. But I want her to get better ...... What if she get a heart attack again. We won't be able to save her."

She looked down fiddling with her fingers and Soyeon came near her sequeezing her shoulder telling her that everything is going to be normal." She will be alright and according to you that Jungkook have the bracelet and he is not under any curse. Look it's been two days and he did nothing. Nothing will happen hmm. It was a bad chapter and it's gone now"

Her friend tried to comfort her but no she didn't know anything. She have not faced what YN did. She couldn't comfort her at this topic atleast. Swallowing a limp down her throat which was so painful to digest. "You also think I am crazy right."

"Hey No. Hey, look at me, You are not crazy okay. I said I will wait for your granny to get better right so believe me on this."

*****

She went back home. It felt so empty, there was no one around. She had a big family but even if they were around it felt like there was no one. No one there to look at her, to hug her and tell her they are with her. Her heart was sinking. It felt like in this whole universe she was the only one left..... All alone

Her heavy footsteps took her to Jay's room as her eyes wandered around the empty room. Was she regretting.... Letting him go like this? He cheated on her. He was rude to her. He never treated her like she was supposed to be treated. But no matter what happens at the end the blame is all on hers.

She wished she could turn time back. Where there was no Jungkook. Wished she hadn't tried to stay away from Jay. Just one mistake.... One regret brought her here.

Her shaky hands dialed Jay's nunber pressing the call button waiting for him to pick up. Her inside was a mess. She couldn't react properly to what her inside was feeling. Everything seemed to be crashing down. Like strong waves came out of nowhere in a peaceful occean and took her beautiful castle away with in them.

"The nunber you are trying to reach isn't available at the moment. Please try again later."

A drop of tear fell over his name displayed on phone screen. Sometimes you can't turn time back. All that left is regret and guilt that kills you inside every second, make you revive and the pain continues.

I might have cheated on you. But I loved you...... Truly .