(This is all going to sound really sappy but *shrug* that cuz it low-key is)

I just want to preface how sorry I am to do this. But I am afraid that DOTAB and the rest of the AAD universe is going to be discontinued. Or at least put it on hold for a while.

And I'm leaving y'all on such a cliffhanger, I know!

This story has been my everything for the past four almost five years. I started AAD when I was only 14, and I'm almost 19 now. Crazy, huh?

This story was my crutch. My creative outlet with a kind and amazing audience that felt real. My whole life was not real until I started writing. However, I've reached a point in my life where I just cannot bring myself to create things anymore. At least, not in the way I used to. I used to write, draw, etc simply to get away. To be anywhere but my home and my sick mind. I was depressed beyond the sense of the word and this story become the only thing that woke me up in the morning. I am not exaggerating in the slightest.

I have reached the point in my life where there is more to my life. Not where I feel content, but there is more than my single end goal. I have not been able to write anything of value for the past three months nor do I have the interest of writing any more. It makes me stressed and anxious in a way that is foreign to me and doesn't bring me comfort anymore. But nothing really does. This story is just... not working for me anymore. And that makes me unbelievably sad. I love Amalia. I love Ruy. I love the world that I have created and I have taken so much pride in my work. Even if it's just a silly fan fiction that got me through high school.
Most of all I'm sorry to say goodbye to you all. Your comments and support have been monumental and genuinely life-changing. I want to not only thank those of you who have joined Amalia's story recently, but those from the very beginning. It doesn't matter who you are or when you joined my writing journey, all I can say is thank you.

I am setting off to be on my own. I am moving out of my parent's home and into a place with FOUR other people (fuck me, lol). But I'm excited. I have hope. But I feel like a piece of me is missing without my comforting vigor for the creativity I crunched on my entire childhood. And I pray that I find it again. I find a muse, a passion, a drive for this love of mine. Maybe it will drive me back to this story. Maybe it will allow a beautiful new story to spring to life. Maybe it will never come back. But that is how life works. How growing up works.

So thank you. And if you wish to take this story over or craft one of your own, I encourage it! You'll never know how much something as insignificant as a lil' ol fan fiction can change your life. I'm sorry to say goodbye, but I'm not going to disappear. I'll keep my Wattpad account up so you all can continue to enjoy the story so far and my Instagram is still active. I post and check it from time to time with little fanart or private pieces.

I hope I can return to you again with the honeyed words we both so sorely miss. But until then, goodbye :)

Sibylline <3