"Okay so are we sure about this? What if it doesn't work?" I asked softly.

"We have no other choice, we have to stop Abaddon." Sam said softly.

"Fine... I'll go see what I can find... make sure Dean doesn't do anything stupid." I said as I turned and walked out of the bunker.

It had only been a two months since I left my family and I still wished I was home, but my brothers needed me, and I couldn't abandon them to deal with this alone.

"Okay so I think Crowley might be able to help us find Abaddon." I said as I plopped down beside Sam.

"Know where he is?" He asked softly.

"No clue.... but I'll try giving him a call." I said as I pulled my phone out.

I dialed Crowley's number and let out a groan as I got his voicemail.

"Voicemail." I said as I put my phone down.

"We will try later. Right now you should get sleep." He said softly.

"You're right. I'll see you in the morning." I said as I stood up.

"Night sis." He said softly.

I nodded my head and and let out a groan as I plopped down on my bed and pulled a picture out of my wallet. I smiled as I held it in my hand, I put it down and picked up the phone in my drawer. I went to my contacts and smiled as I found the person I wanted to call.

"Mommy!" Millie exclaimed happily.

"Hey gummy bear. How is your day?" I asked with a smile.

"It's good... daddy is having me be home schooled... a group of kids tried to pick a fight with me at school."

"Did you kick their butts?"

"Always." She said happily.

I laughed as I talked to her and she told me what she had planned for the day.

"I miss you mommy."

"I miss you too.... but it shouldn't be long before I'm back home with you... how is daddy?" I asked softly.

"He doesn't talk much about you being gone... he isn't happy you left."

"I know... but your uncles needed me, and what do I always say."

"Family is the most important thing, and we never abandoned them."

"That's my girl. Give a kiss to daddy.... I love you." I said softly.

"Love you too Mommy."

I smiled as I hung up and laid back on the bed. I held my picture up and smiled as I saw my daughter beside her father. She had her brown hair up in a hair bow, she had on a blue dress and her father had a suit and tie on and his brown hair was combed.

"I miss you both so much." I whispered as I put the picture under my pillow.

I rolled over on my side and let out a sigh and closed my eyes and fell asleep.

"What do you mean you are leaving?" My boyfriend asked angrily.

"My brothers need my help back in America... I have to go help them." I said softly.

"What about me and Millie?" He asked as he set down.

"I won't be gone long... I'll be back before you know it." I said as I gently grabbed his hands.

"I'd rather you be here.. America... I hate it there. It's full of monsters." He said softly.

"I'll be fine... I promise, I'll call every chance I get." I said as I sent him a smile.

"I love you." He said softly.

"I know..." I said softly.

He nodded his head and let out a sigh.

"We have been together for over six years... and you still don't say I love you... why?" He asked softly.

"I can't... I have to go." I said as I turned and walked out of the room.

I made it to my daughter's room and smiled as I walked up to her and set on the side of her bed.

"I don't want you to go." She said softly.

"I won't be gone long... a few months at most." I said softly.

"Promise." She said as she looked at me with a pout in her face.

"I promise to come home as soon as I can... I love you." I said as I sent her a small smile.

"Love you too." She said softly.

I kissed her forehead and tucked her into bed before I walked out of her room and up to my boyfriend.

"I'll call you when I land." I said as I grabbed my bag.

"Don't bother.... I won't answer." He said not looking at me.

I nodded my head and walked out of the house and to my car. I looked back at the house and saw him watching me as the car drove off. I let out a sigh as I looked forward and continued to drive. I soon made it to the airport and after awhile I finally got off the plane and pulled my phone out. I dialed my boyfriend's number and frowned when I got the voicemail. I went to call again, but stopped myself.

"I guess he was telling the truth." I whispered as I put my phone away.

"Harry!" A voice yelled.

I looked up and smiled as I saw both my brothers waiting with a sign in their hands that read "welcome back from rehab Harry!" I laughed as I shook my head and walked up to them.

"We missed you so much! How was rehab?" Dean asked playfully.

"Go to hell... again." I said as I sent him a smile.

"Missed you too." He said as he hugged me.

"Hi Sammy." I said as Sam pulled me into a hug.

I opened my eyes to the sound of my phone ringing and I let out a groan as I looked at the clock before I rolled over and grabbed my phone. I smiled as I looked at the caller ID and then I answered it.

"Hey gummy bear." I said with a smile.