The police came knocking on my door,
Asked me, if I'd ever seen her before.
When The reason I asked
She's killed someone he said.
She's not innocent she's put a bullet through his head

I wondered how I was different from her
But I replied, I haven't but I believe
She must've had her own reasons sir
So she did what she did and took her leave

With that I smiled and closed the door,
And felt the cold seeping from the floor,
Towards the room on the end of the hall,
Where I had had all my crazy falls.
Up I went so high,
Down I came so low.
It was all a sweet lie.
And it took me some time to know.

It's the killer,
I've been nurturing, and it felt like a thriller.

The sweet girl I was, was dying inside,
Instead an emotionless persona was slowly replacing her under my hide.

One week later I realised that the poor sweet little girl had died.
Against the pressure and reverse the tide
She went, so she had to hide
Who she was and what she wanted
Her own fakeness was what she hated and yet it haunted
Her to choose what others, and not what
Was good for her but what
Everyone else got
For themselves and what
Was good for her she thought
Was that and not
She would've bought.

Pink pumps and glittering jewelry,
She wore to fit in amongst them, who were all almost same.
Pink pumps and glittering jewelry,
She wore along with them, so she wouldn't feel the shame.
Pink pumps and glittering jewelry,
The sweet little girl had kept on crying inside.
Pink pumps and glittering jewelry,
Everyone liked her but not the girl in her mind.

It was just a crazy craze.
To please them all. Kinda like the haze.
The fog which looked beautiful, but was deadly.
Her mind killed the sweet girl so she could be a part of the haunted medley.
Her mind created a lie, for the beautiful medley.
Of what she wanted but could never.
Have, the peace of mind, ever
But instead had her mind broken into pieces forever.

She had cried herself,
To sleep each and every night,
But even then she could never feel alright,
She'd wake up shouting and crying from fright,
The night was a devil and every night,
She fought and learnt to fight,
Her fear of herself with almost all her might,
Her presence itself was enough to constrict her breath tight,
She kept her mouth shut and bit her tongue
So she couldn't disturb not a single soul, no one,
Didn't gasp to breathe, until each part of her lungs,
Felt like it was burning after being soaked in gasoline,
She knew she was hurting herself,
But she could never hurt someone else, no she could never be that mean,
So she kept on hurting herself.

Pleasing everybody,
But being loved by Nobody,
Liked by everybody,
But important to nobody.
She was sick of feeling sick of herself,
Cause she had tried loving everyone but herself.

So,
Smiling through her tears,
Even though she fears,
That everybody would hurt her more,
Fears so hard from her cracked core.
So she smiled through her tears,
Didn't show her fears.
To nobody
So everybody
Thought she was fine,
She just needed more time.
And in a little while,
She'd again smile.
Like she always did,
The one which everyone thought was legit.
So they didn't much care,
And that's how we got here.

Where,
She's crying her eyes out
Repeating all those insults which came from their mouths,
Useless, shameless, careless and senseless.
All these words and many more
Made her numb though she was emotionless
She had changed herself completely but still her cracked core.

So now when the door bell rang again she knew who it was,
She got up the floor,
Rolled down her sleeves, and smiled behind the door,
When the police man asked her of the woman she had killed before,
She shrugged it off saying stop trying to bore,
Me you know the new me,
Not the old me.
As you can now see
The girl who died, was the old me
The one who killed her is the new me.

By: Deepshikha Sain.

Hi to everybody.
My loveliest of lovely and my precious and sweet readers.

Sorry I had been inactive for sometime (exams)

And I give/serve to you all one of my recent creation which, I think is kinda crude right now.

I'll edit it and I'll publish another chapter tomorrow.
Heads up!!!! ;)

How are you all?

Take care you all, or I'll nag you to boredom.

Stay safe loveliest of my lovelies.

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Love you all.

Yours forever,
The_Warrior_Girl