Okay time for some salt.

"Names im using to replace the real names of the people i talked about":
Garret
Mirabell
Alexander
Noel
Addie
Dessie
Andy
Domo
Lilo
Hays
Juliet
Bunny
Gillian
Destiney
Clara

I just want to one day walk around campus without fear filling me up to the brim because of the way everyone looked at me. I had previously broken up with Hays, a 3 month relationship i put my soul into, only to be replaced not even a day after the breakup. No kidding i was 50 shades of hurt but did that really matter at the time? No. Because other things had my attention.
See for some reason i get lucky enough to have my heart broken but then have someone there to ease the pain. That person was Noel. Me and Noel had been friends since 3 years ago, we met in the 6th grade and never forgotten about each other, and as my life had seemingly felt like it was crumbling he was picking up the pieces behind me without me noticing. Celebration, graduation day.

Okay so here it begins.
First thing i did was i woke up, and got dressed into a white dress for the award ceremony in the morning before the celebration field trip. Okay so usually i look like shit but on that day i didn't look that bad and honestly i was a little surprised. I did my hair and then had breakfast, the usual, then got in the car and headed to school. The last few weeks of school were absolute hell for me as usual, because for some reason Satan likes every school year to go out with a big bang. Everything was slowly piecing itself together but i was still broken and hurt. Anyway every morning and night, to keep myself in line id been texting Noel and for some reason he kept a smile on me 24/7. I was beginning to realize why i had such a huge crush on him in 6th grade but again was too young and couldnt comprehend my feelings very well to begin to express it. He had helped me through so much and i was so grateful.
So im a office runner 1st period so i was constantly running stuff to teachers and staff on different parts of the campus and sometimes i get serious anxiety due to the fact i could run into someone that didnt really like me any second of the time out.
As i was running that morning i ran into Hays, again my hoe of an ex, walking with her emo friend and acting a fool. I attempt to avoid only to have my stomach turn tides and have me almost vomit (again).
I walked back to the office, grabbed my change of clothes and my phone and high-tailed my ass out of there to my assigned award room.

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Award room buzz,
Luckily found myself in the same award room as Domo and Gillian, and Destiney who were good friends of mine, and also unfortunately Lilo who is Domo's sister who apparently was attempting to ruin my life and start rumors about me all school year and other great stuff aha shes a ray of sunshine, or no maybe she's the reason 9/11 happened. Or maybe shes related to Hitler. Either way ok she hated me very much for reasons that are unknown.
Anyway for about an hour i sat in there listening to Domo be a pervert and hearing Gillian ramble about memes and other stuff but surprisingly on my mind there was a clear image of Noel.
His arms around me, his voice in my ear, i couldnt think straight.
Time passed and we all got into an alphabetical ordered line to walk up to the stage to claim academic awards. Each line was sliced into A honor roll, A-B honor roll and the other ones that attempted to be good at something. I kinda forgot but thats okay im legit writing this at midnight so dont mind me. In that alphabetical ordered line we headed for the cafeteria. As we headed there i felt my pulse start to speed up a little. In the line i pressed my palms together and kept my eyes low to the ground. Some type of nervous adrenaline pulsated through me and i looked up for a split second and saw Noel.
Of course i was completely and utterly suprised and to my shock and suprise i turned ultimately red in the face and smiled a little towards him.
I wish there were enough words to describe how handsome he was that day, on all days.
Tall, curly dark hair and sweet hazel eyes.
The hazel that you can describe almost perfectly.
The warm, complete feeling you get gazing into them.
I looked away, too mystified and red-faced to facture any feelings at all.
Theres been that small piercing feeling inside when he'd text me saying "you'll find someone that you deserve, you'll find someone that will treat you right"
Because deep inside, since the first memory of 6th grade id been hoping that person was him.
So when his line moved up i let all the air escape my lips in an audible sigh and let that be that. Nerves didnt settle before or after i walked the stage but instead, of course, remained.
I just couldn't control my heart anymore.
Throughout those 3 months and while before them i had eaten so little, and did so much work, and hurt myself to keep others okay, and pretended i was fine for others benefits.
But one thing that suprised me about Noel was that he cared so deeply about me even if he had no interest in me at all.
And i just wanted to give all of myself to him.
I had been cheated on, disrespected, stabbed in the back over and over until i couldn't feel much love or happiness anymore, and he was picking up and bringing back the happy feelings i once had.
So after the awards ceremony ended, all the parents met up and took pictures of all the other students and their friends, and obviously i move too fast to have anyone even try to catch me for a picture so i scurried out of the cafeteria and was stopped by my friend , (Bunny oddly enough) and she gave me 3 small yellow roses and honestly it was so sweet of her. I thanked her then made my way to the other hallway to collect my phone, and as i did my friend Destiney followed and we both skipped all the way to the girls bathroom the next hallway over. I went to my bus room before i went and changed, and said hello to my guy friends. Garret and Alexander and Domo and Clara were there to greet me and i gave them all nice hugs and told them i was going to go get changed and i would be back. Out of the corner of my eye i saw Noel standing there talking to his friends and i felt my cheeks turn blushed again. The girls bathroom was literally changed into a girls locker-room. There were girls throwing clothes at each other and passing perfume and jewelry. I stood close to the door and slipped off my dress in front of all of them but felt awkward so i kept my hands covering my top half, and then the door opened and guess who stepped in.
Yeah and the air was sucked out of the whole room as i put my hand to the side and i was flashed the angriest glares imaginable. I dusted myself off and said " well dont just stand by the door, more people are coming in and if you want to get naked in front of all the 7th graders then dont mind me" and i walked out of the bathroom, my hair sticking to my face and i ran with no shoes, up to my assigned bus teacher and said that the bathroom was full and any other girls that had to change should use a different bathroom. I came back to all my friends literally guarding my stuff like it was blocks of gold. I sat there and chatted with Garret (that at the time i had no idea had a crush on me, and i didnt like him in that way because he was like a brother to me) and waited patiently for everyone else to arrive.
We were all crammed into the computer lab so i sat next to one of the keyboards and my friends crowded around me but my eyes fixated on Noel at the back of the room, his smile radiating and glowing like a thousand stars. When he began to walk over to me i swallowed my nerves and said "hi Noel!!", and tried not to blush as much as usual. I had no idea how much i was falling for him when he smiled at me with his adorable freckles and curly brown hair and his voice when he said my name made my heart melt. We chatted a little but i just felt so awkward because i just wanted to be all he wanted.
He stood next to me and his shoulder touched mine and i literally wanted to hold his hand so much but some reason i was so flustered and smiling and awkward to even think about it at the time. He was so warm and you know that feeling that you want nothing in the world but to be in someones arms? Thats how i felt.
So i sat there trying to be cool and talking with Alexander and Garret and trying to keep my cool around Noel. Alexander decided to do some arm wrestling with others and Noel joined and i cant quite remember who won but all i know is that Noel seemed like he was trying to show off which was so adorable and i was falling so hard over and over again. When he got back up he stood next to me and i looked up to him smiling because hesss soo taaallll , but out of the corner of my eye this other boy was angrily walking up to another guy and actually started punching him, which sent the other guy spiraling backwards and knocking over Domo which was kinda shocking and funny at the same time because Domo looked like he had lost his shit and as the two continued their "fight" one of the history teachers came in and screamed at both of them, and soon the dean came in and took them away, and we didnt see them at all during or after the feild trip.
After all that commotion everything kinda settled down and then this girl
Dessie walks up and asks Noel if he'd like to sit with her on the bus and to my ultimate surprise, he declined and said that he wanted to sit with ->Me<- on the bus and i legit almost lost my shit because that made me soo happy..

At the bus ramp>

So something amazing happened.
We stepped out into the light of the overhead on the doors and i looked over at Noel, and his dark brown eyes, as soon as we stepped into the light, they lit up like a lantern. It was mesmerizing to say the least. Its almost like when he was in the dark, his eyes were dull like ashes and grey like clouds, but when he stepped into the sun his eyes turned to warm fire and sun rays. I guess i really really liked him..

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Of course like the veryyyyy lucky people we are, we boarded last and i sat in a 1 seater area just behind this .. okay anyway Lilo, who, as ive said before she was planning to ruin my life all damn year, because some reason she hated me? It was probably all due to Hays but whatever that didnt matter to me anymore.
I just really wanted to sit next to Noel..

So we arrived and you know things didnt get more interesting, but kinda got dull. We got off the bus i had this moment of just complete loneliness. Like, everyone left me to go say hello to their friends which was okay i suppose, i mean i was used to it so i guess i didnt care much. I walked around saying hello to some people and started walking up to the main building where they had food and drinks but unfortunately couldnt get in. What else would someone with social anxiety do when they wanted friends but also wanted to avoid everyone? Stuff your face with chips and hope someone wants to start up a convo but also not. See the celebration was at this huge park, where there was one section with games and a playground, also with swings and benches, then there was a ice cone truck, and volleyball nets.
Finally after walking around like a sad person, Mirabell and Garret and all the others came and walked with me so that was strange. So when me and Mirabell walked up to the DJ to try and see if we could get drinks for the 2nd. Freaking. Time. I peered over to Noel and his friends. My heart kinda settled a little but seeing him happy made me happy too so i didnt beat myself up over it too much, to maintain a happy mood. Seeing at the time i was trying to heal, seeing that Hays had replaced me so quickly hurt more than anything else. Seeing her hold hands with someone else brought out bad vibes in me, i wanted to scream at her, asking why wasnt i enough. Hays is a cheater, a liar and one of the most heartless people i have ever met and it showed all over that sight of a face she has. While she was holding hands with her new little puppet i yelled out " CUTEST COUPLE AWARD EVER GOES TO YOU TWO "
And yes
I know
Petty
But listen to me, having your heart tugged at and soul ripped out of you by a goddamn demon takes a toll on your mouth just as it does your emotions.
I took Mirabell's shoulder and like a drunk lady with a ton of regrets, i stumbled over to a nice shaded tree and leaned on one of the branches, staring at the sky and talked to my friends that had followed me everywhere, about the future.
Class of 2021... just 4 years from cars, jobs, college, love, finally living.
I looked over to all the other classmates, my blue eyes starting to water a bit, thinking that life was about to get interesting. Each one of these guys and girls i had memories with, i cared for them, they were family to me. I sat up and dusted myself off once again. We walked up to the doors and went inside to get some pizza, and inside it was decorated so nicely, they even had a photobooth which i was actually a bit scared of because i was very self conscious at the time, but still it was quite pleasant. I got two pieces of pizza and a mini cupcake and sat down at a table with some people that were in my homeroom that school year. I peered over at Noel again, and he was surrounded by his friends, again happy , which made me happy too. Oh come on who am i fooling, i was jealous, i wanted to be one of those girls, but it was hopeless. He wasnt interested in me.
Or so i thought?
Anyway i took a small nibble at one of the pizza's, and then licked the frosting off of the little cupcake, but ended up spitting it out into a napkin.
I don't eat very much --
Out of the corner of my eye i saw Hays and her puppet walk into the girls bathroom and to make sure that no gay sex or drug deals happen in there i took it apon myself to walk myself in there to wash my hands, Mirabell close behind me.
I went inside, there stood them in a circle, thankfully fully clothed, but im not sure about the transaction of drugs. Eh.
I washed my hands in the sink and looked in the mirror.
My face was a little red, my hair was frizzy and my clothes looked pretty nice, for clothes i guess.
I walked out with Mirabell, who had previously spilled red cherry cone flavoring on her dress, and was complaining and asking me if i had a stain stick.
I didnt have a stain stick.
Who just plainly walks around with a stain stick.
We walked back out and explored around, and listened to the DJ play The Weeknd on full blast.
Got i cant even count the glares i recieved from Hays.
Seriously bitch, cry me a river.
Mirabell suggested we all group up and do a photobooth picture that, at first i was super against but then decided that it was fine and agreed to do it. Time at the celebration was growing to a close, so i had to get in as much fun with my friends as possible. We took a few pictures, and the little photobooth spit them out and we all grabbed one. ( i still have them and they're so cute)
And then guess who showed up again,
The handsome Noel, and even though i was a little sad he left me so soon, i was happy he was there at least, for the sweet ending.
I suggested we take another group picture, and i was thrilled that Noel joined in with us.
While we were picking out what props to use, i chose the fan to hold in front of my face,
Again im very self conscious so i mean even in pictures i had to pretend i wasnt there. Noel tried shoving it out of the way because i guess he thought i didnt need it but when i kept moving it in front of my face he kept peering around it which was so adorable and he stood so close to me and i was smiling inside so much.
We took the pictures and grabbed them out of the slot and "volunteered" ourselves to be the clean up crew.
Noel literally picked up and rolled a freaking table and i walked over and picked up 1 chair and set it down. I work too hard. Too much work. Work too much. Im just kidding i honestly just liked watching Noel move tables because he looked hot as heck.
When we finished moving stuff and they took all of it away, i looked over at Noel and said " you owe me a hug" and he hugged me. It wasnt as special as the one i got on the last day of school that happened after the celebration day, but it still was so nice and i cherished it. He was so tall and warm and i felt so so happy.
When we let go i felt cold but also i felt like my heart was smiling and so was i.
Garret and i decided that it would be funny if we snuck inside and stole all the red velvet oreos so yeah thats what we did and i dont think we were supposed to do that but we did anyway so heeeyyyy.
When we got into our buses i felt just, so so happy. The happiest ive felt in a while.
When we arrived back at school, we all piled into the library to wait till 6th period bell rang to dismiss us to that class. Noel sat in front of me and we both got on our phones and he sent a "hey" to me and we both looked at each other and smiled. It was such a sweet and wholesome moment i never want to forget it. We chatted a bit and i felt myself falling harder for him after each word he spoke.
Then the bell rang and we departed down different hallways.

Anddd that was basically my whole day summarized.
Honestly it was one of the best days of my life and i dont know why but it felt like an actual part in a movie.
The last day of school Noel gave me the biggest hug ever and he squeezed me to death and i was so happy and oml just, it was a great way to end our middle school journey.
Since then me and Noel have spilt our feelings towards each other and we are unofficially dating.
I mean after all that hurting i did, i am so grateful for him and i have loved him for so long it feels amazing to now be able to call him mine. He cares for me so deeply and that's all i ever needed. I love him,,, and theres not much else i can say about that to elaborate, its just,,, there.
I hope many good memories come soon, and they will because since publishing this, i have 21 days until i am a Freshman in highschool.
Im so happy and blessed

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I mean i would tell this story on camera but, again
Self conscious --
😂😂
Anyway i hoped you enjoyed.

-Ally