TW: Suicide/Self harm mentions

          Virgil's POV

     I started down at the floor, trying to hide my tears. I knew they were bad, I just didn't immediately realize it! This is what I get for being too trusting! I let down my guard completely ever since I started dating Roman! I choked back a sob as I tried to take a breath, only to realize my state.

     My breathing was ragged, completely uneven and short. My body was shaking violently, I couldn't stand still for one millisecond. My eyes were clouded and flooded with tears. Meanwhile, they just spewed out words and phrases. Worthless, pathetic, nobody loves you, just to barely scratch the surface.

     I felt my knees buckle as I fell to the ground, violently sobbing and trying to keep my self deprecating words down. This is what I get. Every wall I had build was crumbling down, and it was taking me with it.

     My bottled up emotions were pouring out, every single one of them. I grabbed and tugged at my hair, not even bothering to hide the fact I was having an emotional breakdown. Everything was too loud. Everything was too close. Everything was too much! None of their words stopped. If anything, they had gotten worse.

     I fumbled with my hoodie pockets only to reach in and grab a familiar bottle. I desperately twisted open the cap bottle. Just one, Anx...just one and it could kill you...if it doesn't, you have more. I shoved the cap onto the floor and put the bottle to my mouth.

     The three stayed completely silent. I could feel their ice cold stares on me. Have they finally given up...? I felt myself start to calm for a minute before all of it was replaced with fear. They burst out in laughter, still staring at me.

     "You'd be so stupid if you did it!" "They'd praise us for trying to stop you!" "If you do it, they'll be so scared, and it'll be all your fault!" I couldn't even make out voices anymore. I could barely here a thing they were saying. "DO IT! DO IT! DO IT!" They repeated and repeated it over and over again.

     I took the pill bottle away from my mouth and let it just fall on the ground, little blue tablets scattering all across the floor and arranging themselves wherever they pleased. They kept spewing their insults, almost as if they would never run out. God, everything hurts. Everything. Everything is too loud and too much and too painful and I just want it all to STOP!

          Missy's POV

     Pranks and I walked into the living room, hoping to find some cookies. "Didn't the happy couple make some cookies?" Pranks asked. "Oh yeah, they did. We should ask them..." I said. "Well, we can't ask Roman, Patton, or Logan. They're all out with Thomas, and we can't go out into the real world for some reason. Let's just ask Virgil, I guess." He said.

     We strolled over to his room, discussing our card game a while back. I was about to knock on his door, only to be met with violent and shaking sobbing. "V-Virgil...?" I asked quietly. I scrambled to open the door, only to find it locked.

     My heart stopped. W...What? What's happening? Why do I hear other voices?! I pressed ear against the door and tried to figure out what they were saying. "Pranks! Come over here!" I whispered, using my right hand to motion him to come over here. He pressed his ear to the door as well.

     "WHAT THE-I'M GONNA KILL 'EM ONCE I GET MY HANDS ON THEM!" He shouted. "Look, just calm down! I know you don't like this but I don't either! We need to get him help, we can't break down the door!" I exclaimed, hot tears pricking my eyes.

     He let out an angry sigh as I wiped off tears with my sleeve. "Hey, it'll be okay." He said softly, pulling me into a hug. I pulled away after a few seconds. "I know...thank you..." I muttered. "No problem." He said.

      And then I started freaking out again.

     I rushed into the kitchen and tried to calm down. I whipped out my phone and made a group chat that specifically excluded Virgil. I sent a text in it and hoped they'd quickly respond knowing Virgil was in danger.

DING

DING

DING

     Who knew three simple noises could be so terrifying? I started hyperventilating. I breathed in and out until it was slightly even. I sat myself down on the counter and looked at their phones. God, who doesn't take their phones with them everywhere nowadays?  I desperately ran my fingers through my hair. Just...breath...just breath. God, who knows when they'll be back?

heyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy

im updating

on a mONDAY?!
wowie

and i know

it isnt that long

but its something okay?!

also whos excited for the sanders sides vid?

i aM

welp

gotta go

sleep is a thing

hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

c'ya.

more suffering is to occur.