oKAY SO AS I'M WRITING THIS I'M LISTENING TO THOMAS' MUSICAL AND OML IT'S AMAZING.

ALSO EPISODE 7 OF DAUGHTER OF DISCORD CAME OUT TODAY

I'M DYING RN

ANYWAYS

HERE YA GO

TW: Suicide Mentions oh boi ;-;

timeskip

          Anxiety's POV

     It's been about...a month? I think? Almost a month since I've had social interaction. It's been a lot. I went back to...bad things. I think it's been going better than it could be. I could've cut myself off by this point, but I haven't now, have I? I will say, I'm a wreck. Like, a big mess of depression and anxiety and more depression. 

     It's been a long month. I haven't slept in so long. I haven't eaten a proper meal in a long time, only barely surviving off of snacks and junk food. And I've been continuing to think about darker and darker thoughts every day...or night...I can't tell at this point. I reach over for my phone on the side of my bed. 3:28 AM. Lovely. I put my phone back in the spot and roll over on my side.

     God, I can't get that stupid prince off of my mind...I hate how perfect his smile is. Or how he loves cuddling and always making me feel better. God...why did he steal my heart? Patton, sure, I could handle that. Logan, probably, he'd be fine. But Roman...why?! He captivated me so much! Everything he talked about he always captivated my attention! He always made me love him! And he still does!

     I felt tears flow down my face. I didn't bother wiping them, nobody would see me anyways. "God, Roman..." I whispered to myself. "Why did you have to love me back?"

          Roman's POV

     I turned off the movie and flopped back down onto my bed. My sleeping schedule has been completely off ever since the breakup. It's gotten worse. So much worse. I'd cry but I don't think I could physically muster anymore tears. I took a sip of my water in attempt to swallow the tears. I set the glass back down and flopped onto my side. I was so cold. If Virgil were here he'd keep my nice and warm...if he was here I wouldn't have to fear so much. I don't know what's happening to him! Just having him in my arms makes me feel so much safer and makes him feel safer. I love him...so much...I just pray that he loves me back.

     I threw my blankets on myself as I wiped tears from my face, not even caring on what would happen if I just lied here and did nothing. I didn't feel like moving. I didn't have a motivation. I didn't have my princess with me, I didn't have a reason. I reached for my phone, checking the time in the process. 3:35 AM. God, I'm not tired yet? I threw my phone back in it's spot and flipped over to my other side. Maybe another Disney movie will help me sleep....no, it always ends with a happy ending where the guy gets the girl or something like that...

     I shut my eyes, burying myself deeper in my blankets in attempt to fall asleep. I laid like that for almost a half an hour before I completely gave up on that idea. I pulled out my phone and went onto YouTube. I looked for something that might make me tired. ASMR maybe...Logan said that that helps some people fall asleep...maybe I'm one of those people? I pulled up a video and set it aside. It wasn't doing anything special, especially not making me tired. I abandoned that idea and pulled up something I would usually like, creative DIY videos. It wasn't what I would usually watch, but in spare time or boredom I could find myself watching them on countless occasions. 

     I turned off the video before giving up completely. I put my phone back on the charger and set it aside, leaving me alone with my thoughts. God...why am I so stupid?! I could've said anything else, but I just had to say that...I wiped away more tears before turning on another Disney movie on a low volume. Maybe...maybe I could be asleep by the end of this...I hope I could, anyways...

timeskip.

     I felt my eyelids droop open, only now waking up. I sleepily grab my phone and check the time. 1 PM...earlier than yesterday, that's for sure. I didn't bother getting up, I was far too comfortable and depressed to hardly even move. I turned over onto my other side and threw another blanket onto myself. How is it still cold? I buried myself deeper in my blankets, begging for warmth.

DING

     I looked over at my phone, checking what caused the noise.

PlatypusPatton: You awake? I could make something for you if you're hungry.

RomanticRoman: I'm fine. I'm still really tired though, so I probably won't be up for another hour or so. Thanks though.

PlatypusPatton: It's no problem, kiddo.

     I put my phone back in it's spot, rolling back over to my side. I looked back over at my door. For some reason I was just drawn to it, like I was waiting for it to open. I took it as a sign that I just missed Virgil and pushed it to the back of my head. I rolled onto my back and buried myself deeper in the blankets.

     I shifted in my bed a little bit before grabbing my phone once more. I checked different apps, looking at all the notifications I had recently received. I looked back at different photos of me and Virgil, tearing up in the process. I threw my phone aside and went back to sleep.

whoooooooooooooooo

another chapter

ayyyyyye

so like

i just rewatched Ouran High School Host Club

and i hated the ending

SPOILER WARNING

they didn't kiss.

like why

and not enough Hikaru and Kaoru kisses

bUT

theres aNOTHER SEASON COMING OUT

AHHHHHHHHHHHH

AND IT'S THIS YEAR

HALLELUJAH

its almost 4 in the mornin im goin to bed

cya