this is gonna focus on Thomas {the tank engine} a little more so...yeah.

also

go listen to A Fever You Can't Sweat Out

in order

the song transitions give me life

but do it with headphones

if you don't have those

don't listen to it in front of your parents

or do idc

just listen to it

it's good

though i'm sure some of yoU ALREADY KNEW THAT PANIC! FANS WHERE YOU AT

TW: Slight mentions of panic attacks

          Roman's POV

     After that, I went back to my room. You didn't have to yell at him, you know...I whipped out my phone and immediately went to text Anxiety.

RomanticRoman: Sorry for yelling, didn't mean to...

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AngstyAnx is typing...

AngstyAnx: it's fine. don't worry about it, roman.

RomanticRoman: Are you sure? I didn't wish to upset you...

AngstyAnx: it's fine. i promise. now, i'm gonna go to bed. i know it's early for me, but i'm kinda tired.

RomanticRoman: Okay, get some rest, love. ;}

AngstyAnx: I WILL HARM YOU.

RomanticRoman: Okay okay, I kid I kid, I love you.

AngstyAnx: ...love you too.

     With that, I stuffed my phone back into my pocket. I'm gonna go see what Missy and Pranks are up to...I walked out of my room and made my way over to theirs. Once there, I noticed the door was slightly ajar. I peeked in through the small crack. I couldn't believe what I saw...they were doing nothing. No planning schemes, no jokes, no nothing, just cuddling...

     I knocked lightly, pushing the door open slightly accidentally. "Huh? Who's that?" Missy called. "'Tis I, Prince Roman!" I greeted. "Oh...what do you want?" Pranks asked. "Well, I just wanted to come check on you two. You two should get some rest, Thomas needs it just as much as you do." I said. "...Patton is rubbing off on you..." Missy muttered. "....you're right...no...." I mentally slapped myself. "I'm actually kinda tired..." Pranks said with a yawn. "M...me too." Missy said. "Well, get some sleep, you two. Good night..." I said, before quietly shutting the door behind me.

          Anxiety's POV

     I threw myself onto my bed, burying myself in the millions of blankets I owned. I whipped out my headphones and put on my Paramore playlist. The second I did that, crushcrushcrush started playing. Oh...how fitting...

timeskip

     I was awoken by violent shaking, obviously trying to wake me up. "Anxiety! Wake up! It's one o'clock! He's gonna be here soon!" Roman exclaimed. "Oh, god, you're right!" I jumped out of bed and immediately tripped over Roman, landing us in an awkward position. "I..........uhm..." I was far too flustered to even attempt getting words out. "Roman! Is Anxiety up yet? It's almost-" Logan put himself to a halt. "Look, you two could at least lock the door next time." Logan said before walking off.

     "...........s-sorry...I'll get up now..." I pushed myself off of him, standing myself up. "It's fine." He said. "I...I'm gonna go get ready now..." I muttered.

another timeskip i'm lazy okay?

     I stepped out into the living room, joining Thomas, Roman, Logan and Patton. "So, he's gonna be here in about an hour. We should clean up a little before hand, you know?" Patton suggested. "Yes, that would be ideal, Thomas."  Logan added. "Yeah, I guess I could. "We can help if you need it!" Roman said. "I mean...I've got nothing better to do..." I said. "Oh! Hey Anxiety! When'd you get the sudden outfit change?" He asked. "Yesterday. Missy and Pranks wanted to give me a makeover and I ended up liking it." I said. "Oh, cool! Well, I like it! I think it suits you!" Thomas said. "T-Thanks....speaking of clothes, are you really wearing that?" I questioned. "....I should change, shouldn't I?" He asked. We all nodded in agreement.

     He rushed into his room and rushed back out. "Better." I said. "Good, we should...probably get to it, then...." He trailed off. "Yeah...let's get to it!"

timeskip....i'm not really sorry.

     "Done! It looks good!" Thomas exclaimed. "I'm gonna go fix up the Disney shelf, okay?" I said. "Oh! I can help if you need it!" Roman said. "....I mean....I-I'll holler if I need you..." I said, before heading back to where all the Disney movies were. Maybe I could alphabetize them....no, that's too Logan. Maybe I could put them in color order? Too Patton. Order them by best? No, too Roman. You know what, I'm just gonna put them on the shelf. I don't care at this point.

     I arranged the movies in a neat, clean order. Once I was done I walked back over to where the group was and sat myself down on the stairs. "Okay, Thomas, you need to be-" I stopped listening. Worry flooded my mind, knowing what could and probably would go wrong.

      What if we come off as desperate? What if he doesn't like us back? What if he thinks we're weird? What if he's got a girlfriend...or boyfriend? What if he's not coming or suddenly cancels on us? What if he doesn't like us like he did? What if he....what if he hates us?

      "Anxiety!" Roman snapped me out of my panicked thoughts. "Easy breathing....okay?" He asked. I only then realized I was on the verge of a panic attack. "...okay, I'm okay, I'm fine." I said, standing back up. "Are you sure?" He asked. "...Y-Yeah, I'm fine..." I said. "Okay...just making sure..." He muttered before turning back to the group. I sighed, and sat myself back down. God, whenever you worry they worry...

     I looked back over at them. "He'll be here in a half hour!" Logan exclaimed. "Ahhhhhhhhhh!" I panicked. "It's gonna be okay! We will survive this!" Patton said. "He's right! We'll do fine! He's got me and you guys on his side!" Roman exclaimed. "We have to do this!"

                                            Knock knock knock...

     "Ahhhhhhhhhh! He's here!" Thomas whisper yelled. "We're going to be fine, I assure you!" Roman whispered. "Roman's right, kiddo! We'll be fine!" Patton whispered. "We should be able to accomplish a mediocre task, I think we'll be fine." Logan also whispered, it was like we tried to act like we weren't there and it was just Thomas. We sunk back down and re-entered the mindscape. Thomas went over to open the door.

                                     "Jon! Good to see you!"

i have

no shame

i ship it

i really do

i love this book so much

thanks so much for all the support.

i'm actually tired rn

gotta go

c'ya