A/N: Trigger Warning
There's cutting. You don't have to read the actual scene I will let you know when it's starting. I'm sorry if this is an inconvenience.

Nicos POV
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Know Will will probably go home I call Kayla. She tells me to come on over. Hazel has never really known what to do, and I don't want to call Percy and Annabeth. My dad is probably out of town. I start to feel bad for taking the car. It's cold out there. But then I remember that I can't care, it's for his own good. I'll just hurt him. But that doesn't stop the tears. I should have just died when I was kidnapped.
It would've just fixed everything. Then I remover how happy Will was and I feel even worse. I pull into a gas station and buy a glass bottle of milk. I dump the milk out by the car and shatter it on the ground.

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I take a deep breath, pull up the sleeves of my shirt, and press the glass down. I'm careful not to make the same mistake I did last time. I make sure not to hit anything important. I make cuts over small scars and then force myself to stop. I grab some napkins and soak up the blood with it. I feel slightly dizzy but I'm ok.

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I take deep breaths trying to push down my attack. I do all the things my doctor told me to do when the passenger door opens. "What the hell do you think your doing?!" I look over long enough to see a shock of blond hair and angry blue eyes. I shut my eyes tightly trying to breath. I pull my legs up to me. Will gets in the car closing the door. He touches my hair and I jerk away as if he's made of fire. "Pl-ple-please d-do-don't t-touch m-m-me" I manage to get out. I rock slightly trying to breath. "Neeks-"
"Just fucking go away!!!" I scream. I can't breath, my lungs are on fire. Oh no. I reach for my glass. With shaking hands I start to pick it up but Will stops me. "No!"
Please go. Please go. Please go. Don't be here. Please. I need to do it will. Please. I think at him. He doesn't get the message though because he flings the glass out the window and wraps his arms around me. "Listen to my voice Neeks. Listen ok?" I try to nod. I need to breath. "Ok so breath with me ok?" He starts doing breathing exercises. I try as hard as I can, but my body wants to shut down. "Remember the time we went to the park and there was that turtle? And your really liked him. You said he must have a nice life. In the pond just swimming. Can you pretend to be a turtle?" I breath with him. I think about the texture of his shirt. Slowly I start to make little choking sounds which I think means I'm breathing a little. I think about the turtle. My lungs feel better. I open my eyes slowly. I can see the blood covering us and shut them again. "Hey baby, Neeks, will you look at me?" I tilt my head and open my eyes a bit. "Let's start with some things you know are true. What's your name?"
"My name is Nico Di Angelo, I don't have a middle name. I am 19. I live with my boyfriend, William Solace. He likes being called Will. I love him. I am gay. I like my bed. I have a sister. I used to have two sisters. One died. Her name was Bianca Marie Di Angelo. I just cut myself with glass. I don't know why. I just ruined everything. I always ruin everything. I am bleeding. I hurt Wills feelings." I start to cry. Will hold me rocking me slightly. "Shhhh shhh I'm ok. Your gonna be ok. Let's go home ok?" I nod. He tells me that he's gonna have to drive. I nod again. We switch sides and I lay with my head against the glass, not looking at him. We don't talk. We just stay in each other's presence. When we get home Will carries me up the stairs and into the bathroom. Where he bandages my arms. Then he lays me down in my bed and leaves. I lay there for the longest time but finally I can't stand it. I get out of bed. I look around for Will but I can't find him. I call his phone. "Hey Neeks." He answers. "Hey will. Are you ok?"
"Yes."
"Where did you go?"
"I ran up to the store."
"Ok."
"I'll be back in ten."
"Ok."
"I- I love you Nico."
"I love you too Will."
I leave my phone to my ear until I hear him say "Neeks? Ya still there?"
"Yes."
"Do you want me to stay on the line?"
"Please."
"Ok."
We don't talk but I can hear him breathing, driving, swearing under his breath sometimes.
"Neeks I have to let you go ok? My phones gonna die. I also have to go into the store." He says gently. I nod then realize he can't see me. "Ok, please be safe." I say.
He hangs up and the line goes dead. I go lay down in Wills bed. I snuggle deep into his blankets. Smelling him. Like coffee and soap. I check the time on my phone 7:38. I close my eyes. When I open them again I check the time 9:19. I must have fallen asleep. "Will!" I call out. When there's no answer I get frantic. I start looking all over. Then the door clicks open and there he is. "Will! You scared me so bad!"
"Yourrr rrreallllyyyeeeeee cutteee." He slurs.
"What?" I ask confused.
"Yourrr lllikkke realllllyyyyyeeeeeeee ccccoootte. Ttthhhattss noottt hoooooooo- yourrrr cuttteee." I stretch on my tippy toes. I can smell the stench of alcohol from here. "William!"
"Is that meeeeeeeeeeeee?" He ask, giggling and pointing to himself.
"Yes! Your gonna have a massive hangover tomorrow." I say mentally shuddering at it.
"Ooohh funnnn! What are we gonnnna hanggover?" He starts ticking things off on his fingers. "Acid, volcanoes, the entire pacific oceans?!"
"Let's put you in pajamas."
"Oh, I don't want you to seee me naked! I just met you."
"It's gonna be ok." I tell him leading his by the hand into his room. I grab his favorite grey sweats and a black shirt. "Let's take off your shirt now ok?"
"Noooo stop! I havvveeeeeee a boyfriend!" I face palm.

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After a lot of coaxing and assuring him that his boyfriend wouldn't be upset about me helping him change I out him to bed. I put a few Ibuprofen, a cup of water and a bowl to puke in beside his bed. Then I go to my own bed, to sleep by myself for the first time in over three months. I check the time 10:14. After a while I give up and take my blanket to the couch where I scroll through Netflix. I'm not sure what to watch so I end up rewatching Criminal Minds. At about 1:00 hear Will vomiting. I rush in there and brush my hands through his hair. I pull his blankets back and he throws up whatever terrible thing was in his stomach. When he finishes he takes a small sip of the water. Then he leans back onto me. "I'm sorry." We both whisper. Will chuckles humorlessly.
"Why are you sorry? I'm the one who drank a huge bottle of vodka."
"I'm the reason you felt the need to."
"And I'm the reason you felt the need to cut yourself. It's a vicious cycle." I nod, running my fingers through his curls. "I'm so sorry."
"Me too."
"I love you."
"I love you too."

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