Chapter 3.

Raina.

I woke up as I heard my alarm. I sigh and shut it off before sitting on the bed. Rubbing the sleep from my eyes, I make my way to the bathroom to get ready for the day. I switch on the lights and look myself in the mirror. My face looks a little pale and there were light bags under my eyes. My eyes that were once filled with happiness are now empty. 

Opening the faucet, I started to freshen up to go downstairs to start my day. I change into a sweatpants and a long shirt with veil around my neck. As I pass his room, I hear some light ruffling voice from inside. I quickly walk downstairs and started to make his breakfast before he had a chance to leave without eating like always. I know why he is doing this. He didn't want to see me in the morning that is why he leave before I could wake up. 

I quickly prepare his breakfast and set it on the table for him. I walk back in the kitchen to get his coffee and put it beside his breakfast. I sigh and stood at the end of the stairs waiting for him. I stood there for almost half an hour before I heard his footsteps coming down. I looked up and saw him dressed in formal clothes. I had never really seen him in like this, but it kind of suits him. 

"Your breakfast in on table." I told him as he walks past me to go toward the front door. I saw as he stops and glance in the dining area that was attached with open kitchen. 

"You don't have to." Was all he says and walk toward the table. I went in kitchen to pack his lunch. He always likes to eat lunch that was made at home. He didn't like to eat from out much.

"Wait." I quickly close the lid when I saw him leaving. I pick it up and walk over him. He gives me a confused look as I held the box out for him. 

"What is this?"

"Your lunch. You always take lunch from home." I say and swallow nervously as he give me a hard look. 

"I used to. Now I don't and please stop all this. We only married because of our Moms. If I could go back in time, I would and erase everything that happened. It was all your mistake." I looked at him, surprised and feel tears gather in my eyes. He glared at me last time before walking out of the house. I blink and tears started to fall. 

It wasn't my mistake. It wasn't my mistake that Sana left him. It wasn't my mistake that we get married. Aazim didn't know what happened that time and what they had taken away from me. He would never believe me if I tell him. I don't even tell anything about that to my Mom. Only one person knows about it who I could trust.

I wipe my face and shake my head when the memories started to come back in my mind. I don't want to think about it right now. I went back in the kitchen and put the box on the counter and start cleaning everything that I used to make breakfast. 

When I was done with all housework, I sit on couch in living room and close my eyes. It is almost evening and I had nothing else to do. Aazim will be back late because he always does since we get married. I don't know where he eats dinner or spent his time, but I have been always wide awake when he gets home and he thinks that I wasn't.

It has been 3 weeks since we get married and in these 3 weeks he never tries to talk to me or try to clear everything. I don't know what is going in his mind or what he is doing. I just know that he ignored me whenever I tried to talk to him about that day and it hurts me so much. I just want to clear the misunderstanding between us, but he is not giving me a chance. I am doing what she told me to do, but Aazim is pushing me away.

Before we were married, he sent me a letter through Hadi Bhai in which he says, then I didn't mean anything to him, but still I had a little hope in my heart about getting a small place in his heart.

I prayed that one day, I will get a chance to prove myself to Aazim and get courage to tell him what actually happen.

Aazim.

"Assalam-o-Alaikum." I give my Salam to my Mom after picking up her call.

"Walaikum Assalam. How are you doing?" She asked me. This is the first time she calls me after I married her niece.

"I am fine." I told her and get quiet as she started to talk about what happened 3 weeks ago. I didn't really remember her being this happy when Sana and I were married. That time she didn't really talk to me about my marriage or my wife but now she is talking about it. I don't know if I should feel sad or angry about it.

"You are coming tomorrow." She says and something in her voice make me feels like she is not asking me but ordering me. I won't have any choice left but to go there tomorrow. 

"Yeah. We will be there." I told her and started to get back to my work. After a few more minutes of chatting, she hung up saying that she is going with Zaina Bhabhi to the hospital to check her daughter as she had fever and Hadi Bhai didn't want to risk giving any medicine that wasn't prescribed by a doctor.

When it was time for me to leave the office, I pack my things and walk out with my bag. It is still early for me to go home, so I decide to go park where Sana and I usually go after we get married. As I drive to the park, I feel myself thinking about Sana. How much I love her and How much she means to me. I didn't know where she is right now, but I hope wherever she is, will be happy. 

I park my car in parking and went inside of the park. I started to walk on a very familiar path that take me to the lake on the other side of the park. I stop when I saw the bench where we sit was already taken by someone. They look like a young couple so I didn't say anything. I sit on the ground, leaning against the tree and close my eyes thinking how much Sana love coming here and sitting in silence. I still remember the time when we know that she couldn't get pregnant, she ran away and I found her here.

***

"Don't worry. She just needs some time alone." Mom told me as I continue to try her phone but again it was switched off. 

"She needs me Mom as much as I need her right now." I sit down on the couch and rubbed my hands on my face to keep the tears back in my eyes. 

"I understand, but right now she need some space. She will be back." She assured me. I sigh and nodded. 

Yesterday, we went to the doctor to do a Sana monthly check and doctors tell us that she will never give a birth which break us. Last night, we didn't sleep, but hold each other as she cries and fall asleep. This morning, I woke up when I didn't feel her beside me. When I went to check on her and didn't find her, I call Mom and tell her everything. She came and try to calm me down, but I couldn't when I know that Sana is missing and is hurting badly. 

Mom stood up and went in the kitchen to make something for me to eat, but I didn't really like eating. I thinking where should Sana go when she wants to be to be alone. I stood up when I remember her telling me about the place. I walk out of the house and drive to the park. As I walk in the direction of the lake, I feel my phone buzzing in my pocket. 

"Where did you go?" Mom asked me as I pick up her call. 

"I am at the park. Sorry for leaving without telling you."

"Come back home right now." She told me. I sigh and look at the bench. I freeze when I saw Sana sitting there staring at the water.

"I will be back in an hour." I hung up and quickly walk toward my wife. She looked up at me and her eyes filled with tears as I sit beside her. I feel my heart clenching and pulled her toward me and rubbed her back. 

"It will be okay." I try to comfort her, but hearing her crying bring tears in my eyes as well. 

"I am sorry. I couldn't give you a child." I shake my head and pulled back to wipe her face free of tears. 

"Don't be sorry. There will be a way to get this blessing. We can talk to your doctors and start your treatment or we can adopt a child." I told her. She looks at me and nodded slowly. I give her a small smile and hug her again closing my eyes.

***

I open my eyes and wipe my eyes when I feel it watery. I sigh shakingly and look up at the sky. I notice that it was getting dark and check the time. I stood up and walk toward the exit of the park to leave and to grab something to eat. I am not planning to go home early because there wouldn't be any reason for me to go and I don't want to see her. I hate her for doing all this with me. I hate her so much, but still because of our Moms, I married her. 

No matter how hard I tried to forget everything, I just couldn't. I don't want to be with her. I want to be with my love, my wife, but I couldn't because of her. I will never forgive her for doing all this to me.

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