Too much stress and mourning led me to a depressive state. I lost two friends at the same month, halos ilang araw lang ang pagitan.

I strongly believe that we can do this like what I told Audrey, but I don't know how to move forward knowing two of my friends is no longer here.

"How's your session with your psychiatrist?" Idris asked nang maabutan ko siya sa loob ng tech-room ng HQ.

I purposedly went here because this is the only room na tahimik, but I didn't know that he's here.

Everyone knew that I have sessions with my psychiatrist every week, but Idris is the one who's always persistent to know how my session go.

He's been acting like he cares, but I know better.

"It was good." I answered and was about to leave the room, I just can't stay in the same room with him again.

"Stay." My body stiffened when I felt his hand on my wrist. "Please, stay with us . . ."

Tears pooled each sides of my eyes. It may be a simple word and sentence, but to a person who's suffering mentally and emotionally like me has a different understanding with those words.

It feels overwhelming to hear someone who's begging you to stay.

"I know that what's happening right now is already suffocating you, Soleniana, but please . . . stay with us, hmm?" His voice broke and embraced me from behind.

I felt a lump on my throat as my tears started to fall on my cheeks. I was about to say something, but instead of words . . . I sobbed and closed my eyes.

Idris buried his face on my nape as he hug me from behind, his shoulder shook a bit and that's when I realized that he's crying like I do.

I didn't know that hearing his sobs would be more painful than the heartache that I felt when he left me hanging months ago.